Monday, December 20, 2004

this u.p thing..

last night remember that i was thinking alot about this college topic.. right?? well.. i kinda forgot to tell you something more.. more yeah.. why more?? because.. it's more important.. more affecting.. and most of all.. has something more to do about me and my 'rent's choice..

yep.. my 'rent's are forcing me to study in u.p.. well actually.. i can't say simply assume that they're forcing me.. they are just simply motivating me to study in u.p.. they tell me lots of things like i should go study there 'cause of poverty.. it's really hard living now in today's world especially it's hard to stay in school with no guarantee.. you know.. you don't know exactly when and how if you'll stop studying since you're dependent.. just like my case i guess..

oh well.. what i'm trying to really say here is this.. it's really hard when you study dependently on someone you're not guaranteed will be there for you until you graduate!! know now what i'm saying??

that's why in my plans.. it's included that i'll try to find a job while studying in college so that i can keep a bunch of money for myself for future purposes and emergencies.. other than that.. of course i'm gonna help out my 'rents paying for my own miscellaneous fees and things i wanna buy for me.. and of course.. the money would not only help my 'rents but also myself since you know very well how thrifty i can be..

hmmm.. when me and mom talk about college.. she somewhat "forces"[that's for me only.. my term of saying "motivating" me..] me to pass the upcat.. she keeps on telling me that the money we'll save from my tuition would be very helpful for me and they'll put the money in my bank account to let it grow and for future emergencies.. as usual!!

but i don't know.. i just.. well.. i simply.. uhm.. i think i don't trust them when she said those pretty words.. yeah.. silly huh?! completely!! it's just that i don't trust them when she said that she's gonna put the money in my bank account.. hmm.. bad of me isn't it?? pathetic!!

anyways.. i really do hope that i get answers that i need sooo badly.. hope i pass high school for now with honors.. and hopefully.. be happy with the university of my choice.. wherever i study civil engineering..

oh well.. anyways.. i got not much choice here anyway.. dad as usual tells me that he isn't forcing me to study in u.p.. he's merely motivating me to go there since he knows very well that i won't fail him or get mad at his decisions.. i want to graduate in u.p too of course.. but the fact that they got high standards and thinking of college makes me kinda worried.. i can't help but be confused whether to go u.p or not..

but still.. one question will always remain for now.. will i make it to u.p??

hmmm.. i have to go now.. wish i get real answers out of this.. i really think my christmas wish this christmas is to pass highschool with honors.. hope GOD hears me and grants my prayers.. oh well..

bye now.. mwahz..

what's life without suffering??

last night.. after blogging actually.. i went down and watched t.v.. since my sis' gonna use the computer now.. hmmm...

the first thing i saw on t.v that really struck me was this phrase that somewhat goes like this..

suffering and pain makes us realize how blessed we truly are..

isn't that just some thought?? i really dig the true meaning of that thought.. it really struck me you know.. so i just thought i might share it with you.. as well as my realizations out of it..

i agree first and foremost about the said saying.. i really think that pain and suffering will always be part of our life and it all depends on us whether how we should treat these tests in our life.. as i wrote before.. there's more suffering in life than happiness.. but really.. what is happiness anyway??

i read in some newspaper these words..

i asked GOD to give me happiness.. GOD said "no, i give you blessings.. happiness is up to you..."

hmmm.. i believe it's completely true.. GOD gives us so many blessings yet we forget to thank HIM and be happy.. sometimes.. people are so rude to remember GOD only in times of trouble.. like when asking for help or when asking why bad things happen in life.. hypocrites!!

i also believe in a quote that my bhez sent me.. i really like this one and even though it's been on my phone for a pretty long time now.. it's still there to completely remind me how happy and blessed i should feel..

being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect.. it means you've decided to see life beyond imperfections.. so don't say you're happy 'cause everything's alright.. be happy 'cause everything sucks but you're doing just fine.. :)

it really struck me when i read this message.. it made my day happy as well.. everytime i read it too.. i'm uplifted.. even for just a while.. hope you remember these words of wisdom to keep you uplifted.. and not so bored or even lonely in life.. remember.. life is full of suffering.. but it's really up to you how respond to these sufferings.. whether you get angry or sad.. or better yet.. accept them and realize your blessedness..

here's a little food for thought from my dad.. hope you like it..

i asked GOD to take away my pain.. GOD said "no.. it's not for me to take away but for you to give up.."

i asked GOD to make my handicapped child whole.. GOD said "no.. his/her spirit is whole.. the body is only temporary.."

i asked GOD to grant me patience.. GOD said "no.. patience is a by-product of tribulations; it isn't granted.. it's earned.."

i asked GOD to give me happiness.. GOD said "no.. i give you blessings.. happiness is up to you.."

i asked GOD to spare me pain.. GOD said "no.. suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.."

i asked GOD to make my spirit grow.. GOD said "no.. you must grow on your own.. but I will prune you to make you fruitful.."

i asked GOD for all things that i might enjoy life.. GOD said "no.. i give you life so that you may enjoy all things.."

i asked GOD to help me LOVE others as much as HE loves me.. GOD said "ahhh.. finally you have the idea..."

bye now.. see ya.. (",)

..quote of my day..
[take care of your things today.. generosity is cool most of the time.. but for now you need to remember that what's yours is truly yours..]

survey for today.. had a hard time blogging..

here's a friendster survey..

i had a hard time connecting to the net actually.. it almost took me 17 minutes just to make the "create post" show up!! man!! surely net is super slow today.. guess alot of people are using the net now.. hmmm..

_________________

1.Ever dated someone younger than you?
- not yet.. haven't dated yet actually..

2.Someone older?
- i said it before.. please!! next topic please..

3.Ever been drunk?
- nah.. don't drink too much here..

4.Do you smoke?
- nope..

5.Been in love?
- uhm.. had a crush only.. but not yet really in love.. 'cause i know love is a many splendored things!! hhaha!!

6.Loved someone whom you knew you couldn't have?
- uhm.. nah.. 'cause i only had a crush on him.. that's why..

7.Gotten in a car accident?
- nope.. but i've been confined in a hospital 3 times now.. and felt dying for once.. :(

8.Had your heart broken?
- nah.. not yet in love anyway..

9.Cheated on someone?
- nope.. next topic please..

10.Been cheated on?
- don't like this survey much.. can't relate.. >:-(

11.Last time you cried??.
- can't remember.. don't wanna remember anyway.. think last time i watched casper.. haha!! ;D

12.Last time you laughed?
- just now.. i laugh every now then.. so as not get bored here.. yawn!!

13.What age do you see yourself getting married at?
- hmmm.. between 25 and 30.. but the perfect would be 27 i guess..

14.Describe your dream wedding.
- not so elegant.. all i know is that it's gonna last forever.. *mushy*

15.Do you sleep with a stuffed animal with you?
- nope.. guess i'm allergic with stuffed toys.. ehhh??

16.If you could dye your hair with one color, what would it be?
- hmmm.. don't think so.. but if i really will. black.. ;D

17.Do you eat chicken with fingers or with a fork?
- fingers when it's my fave thigh.. fork if anywhere else..

18.Would you rather give or receive?
- uhm.. i'd like receiving but it really feels good to give and know that you've helped out..

19.Where and how many homes have you lived in?
- 2 only.. but i guess 3 since we lived some place in bulacan when i was still a baby..

20.Do you play any musical instruments?
- piano.. sometimes guitar.. dad likes playing the guitar..

21.One or two pillows?
- one is enough.. but i got 2 here..

22.Do you get along with your parents?
- of course.. love 'em both..

23.Do you drive?
- yep.. a bicycle..

24.Whats your favorite color?
- violet lilac purple

25.Do you work?
- not yet.. soon will..

26.What are your favorite dishes?
- chinese ones..

27.Who was your first crush?
- jappy.. yay!!

28.Are you the romantic type?
- hmmm.. i don't know.. but i'm sweet.. hehe.. ;D

29.Are you in love right now?
- uhm.. unfortunately no.. huhu.. :'(

30.Are you happy?
- of course..

31.What are you going to do after this?
- uhm.. gonna post this then take a nice warm bath.. ;D

from friendster..

Sunday, December 19, 2004

should i go u.p or not??

i watched them run last night on our t.v.. yep.. the most awaited event of u.p.. the u.p oblation run.. actually.. i didn't realize this run happened on t.v.. i was aware 'cause i blogged.. didn't know blogging would also be a great tool for me to be informed and in touch with reality!! yay!!

anyways.. the boys were there.. naked.. running around the university of the philippines diliman campus.. oh well.. these boys really got something to show off.. haha!! but what they should more likely show off is.. well.. their faces..

this u.p oblation run has been happening for decades now.. didn't realize that much.. it actually started in the 1970's.. by the way.. the only men who happen to have the "privilege" to run in such activities are the members of this famous fraternity they call alpha phi omega.. this frat for your info is a pretty tight frat and really lives up to their identity they call brotherhood.. other than that.. they have also been in a lot of trouble and issues for the past few years.. you see.. this frat is really exclusive and formal.. why?? because they have this initiation thingy and the "officers" and older members of this frat will really test your faithfulness and brotherhood to the group.. and the test?? well.. that's where the hazing issue comes around since for them.. they believe that true brotherhood means trust.. so if you're being hazed.. you must trust fully your superiors.. also i guess.. you must be really strong and healthy in order to be in such group.. cool huh?? more likely wierd!!

anyways.. this oblation run again isn't always about naked boys and nudity.. of course they are u.p students.. also known famously as.. iskolar ng bayan.. [scholars of the nation.. hehe..] since they happen to be "scholars" or somewhat has the mind of a scholar.. they act reasonably and rationally..

so.. what's the scoop and what's behind this oblation run?? oblation run happens every year.. different batch of boys run around the u.p campus naked every year.. and also.. of course.. every year.. they obviously got different themes.. by the way.. their first run was actually just to somewhat commercialize their school play.. hubad na bayani.. afterwards.. it became yearly.. and so boy abunda said..

this year's theme is about saving our nature.. just recently.. a great storm just hit quezon this december[maybe that's why i got the dengue virus!! >:-( haha!!].. quezon almost fell and didn't make it due to the heavy flash floods that came rushing without notice.. and the cause of this flash floods?? they point it out to illegal logging.. well.. they got a point there anyway.. since after the storm.. lots of logs sank in the flash floods.. man!! how brutal.. >:-(

so.. this year.. they're calling the attention of many[most especially the gays!! haha!! ;D] to be more aware now.. more aware than ever.. 'cause due to this stupid logs and flash floods.. lots of people aren't spending their christmas merrily.. so let's all do our part.. do our civic duties.. even in small things and acts.. to help save our mother earth.. 'cause this is how she gets angry.. this has been her anger.. this is karma baby!! so.. wake up now and start caring.. before it's too late..

ho-hum.. anyways.. since i'm talking here about now u.p.. actually.. as i've said.. i read the news here in some blog that i read.. can't remember who.. but i just realized that.. i got some u.p bloggers here man!! cool huh?! really!!

and so the thought finally came to me last night while watching that little documentary about the u.p oblation run[by the way.. the u.p oblation run was taken from the u.p oblation which is a portrait of a naked nicely-sculpted-body man found somewhere in the middle of the u.p campus in diliman quezon city].. i was thinking.. should i study in u.p??

hmmm.. guess you'll say yes easily.. but we all know that it's not that easy to enter and stay in such a highly-recommende school..

no.. it's not that i'm not confident enough to go in such a prestigious school.. of course i believe in myself that i can make it there.. well.. only if i want to..

that's it.. yeah.. i don't have this motivation inside me to enter such a nice school.. i don't know.. lately.. news and infos go around making me more motivated to not go there.. how silly of me.. duh!!

but last night.. i was joking around.. kidding my mom and sis that someday i'll go there and take photos of the said event for them.. and i know.. yup!! jokes are half meant.. so.. i'm quite confused now and also uhm.. kinakabahan?? with myself.. should i go there or not?? do i really wanna go there??

hmmm.. last night.. i got this vibration and feeling inside me that makes me wanna go and take the test there and do my best to pass.. i don't know.. when i think of taking exams there and passing there.. it kinda makes me scared.. my heart pounds fast and butterflies come rushing into my stomach.. just like now!!

oooohh.. this stuff is killing me.. i don't know.. i'm not sure.. of course i'm gonna be really proud of myself when i pass the upcat.. or the university of the philippines college admission test.. i even sometimes think to myself.. isn't it that you got such high goals to reach for this?? graduate with honors to easily get in u.p??

ahhh!! i can't understand myself now.. really confused.. but there's this really nagging determination for me to go and study in u.p when i get to college.. ooooh!! you see.. my heart and part of my head says i really really have to study in u.p 'cause of their profile.. but the other part of my head makes me really nervous thinking of staying in u.p..

i know!! i know!! it's pretty challenging to stay in u.p and still graduate there with honors.. of course i still want honors even in college silly!! but then.. if i do graduate with honors in some other school.. i'm not so fond of thinking such things.. i'm prouder if i happen to graduate in such prestigious school like u.p la salle or even ateneo..

i can still remember.. when i was a sophomore.. of course you know i'm still lazy then and have no single plan in life.. i really really love tenorio and now.. chris tiu.. yep.. i watch uaap.. that's why i'm soooo determined then to enter ateneo.. but of course as usual.. lots of people around me don't want me sooo much to go there 'cause of at least 3 reasons.. first: too expensive.. second: too far.. third: the course i choose isn't their specialty.. of course.. it's better to go in a school where their specialty is my course to get best education i want.. oh well..

good thing i woke up with the truth and reality pretty early.. now i'm confused whether to go u.p or not.. as you can see.. i got not so much choice here.. since my only criteria here for the university of my choice is education.. all i want is the best education i can get.. and that's of course.. guaranteed by u.p..

my course by the way is engineering.. well at least.. will be sooner or later.. and i know that mapua is the leading college when it comes to engineering.. of course i'm not that choosy.. not because mapua is a college doesn't mean i don't want there any longer.. it's just that.. it's not the same way as before.. it isn't that good anymore.. as i've heard of course.. alot say that la salle already bought the said college.. and i hear too that la salle isn't that good too when it comes to engineering or anything math.. i know their real specialty is theater arts or something like communication arts.. just as long as arts man!!

anyways.. you know.. when i think about college.. man!! i really think about lotsa things.. like my college life as student and as a lady too.. other than that.. all i realize in the end is that.. all i really need to think about is today.. what i can still do to get to that farther goal.. oh well.. that's where the long term and short term goals enter.. succeed in the short term goal to get closer to the long term one.. yeah yeah..

hmmm.. guess i have to end this now.. this one's going nowhere.. i think.. oh well.. in the end i guess.. i really want to go to u.p.. i just realized that.. i'm sooo afraid to stay there.. i'm very much afraid i can't make it there or can't stay there.. simply afraid that i won't succeed there.. i'm really puzzled and nervous about one single thing.. can i make it in u.p??

gonna go now.. gonna rest my mind from all this puzzling things.. from reality.. bye now..

two things about me...

1.TWO NAMES YOU GO BY:
- dianne
- uhm?? romyl..

2. TWO THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- dependent at times..
- gets ill easily..

3. TWO THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
- why love blogging and addicted to such things..
- why is our computer f****** up and the net doesn't work properly..

4. TWO THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
- loneliness
- nothingness

5. TWO THINGS U NEED EVERYDAY:
- love.. haha!!
- oxygen.. nu pa ba??

6.SOME OF YOUR FAVORITE BRANDS:
- avon
- pucca.. hehe..

7. TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS @ THE MOMENT:
- i dont wanna be your friend by nina
- karma by a.keys..

8. TWO PERSONS YOU SPEND THE MOST
TIME WITH:
- my sis
- mom

9. TWO THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
- stop blogging i guess.. hihihi.. dangg!!
- hate my sis.. haha!! and also myself.. dangg!!

10. TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
- play tennis
- blog.. waaaah!!

11. TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO REALLY BUY RIGHT NOW:
- brand new samsung phone..
- uhm.. uhm.. mister donut's belgian bites

12. TWO CAREERS (BUSINESS) YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
- teacher.. yeah men..
- engineer.. first and foremost.. being an engineer to me means success.. yeah men!!

13. TWO PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
- hawaii.. gonna follow my sis.. hehe..
- uhm.. uhm.. england.. really wanna go there and see sites they're proud of..

14. TWO OF YOUR FAVOURITE PERSONS: (except family members)
- man!! this one's pretty tough!! ok.. so.. guess gonna answer uhm.. my bhez..
- my sis.. nothing more here to answer..

15. TWO THINGS YOU DID YESTERDAY:
- blog..
- bloghopping.. hahah!! just joking.. got my greatest gift for this year.. yeah!!

[got 'em from friendster]

Saturday, December 18, 2004

whatever!!

Get Your Own Christmas BlogCard Here!

_________________

Capricorn - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:
You are serious about relationships and ready for a commitment.
You tend to help your partner attain the success they dream of.
You are a rock. Relationship problems don't seem to phase you.

Your negative traits:
Sometimes it's very hard for you to accept your parnter's past.
You are emotionally reserved, and difficult to connect with.
You expect your partner to take care of you - and make cheat if they do not

Your ideal partner:
Is incredibly powerful and well respected.
Is often older than you - and could be a superior at work.
Has a good amount of money... or the ability to be rich someday.

Your dating style:
Practical. A "get to know each other" coffee date is just fine by you.

Your seduction style:
Bossy - you like to be the one in charge in the bedroom.
Slow and patient. You know that good sex takes time.
Calculating. You'll use sex to get ahead, if necessary.

Tips for the future:
Open up. A little emotional expression is a good thing in relationships.
Leap before you look. You don't have to run a cost benefit sheet on everyone you date.
Enjoy the now. No need to worry about marriage on the first few dates.

Best place to meet someone online:
eHarmony - they'll automatically match you with someone who's as driven as you are

Best color to attract mate: Dark green

Best day for a date: Saturday

greatest christmas gifts ever!!

just this late afternoon.. i went to my neighbor's small party.. it was tita digz' birthday so i guess i'll go and see something for myself.. just joking!!

actually.. i went there simply because me and mm had a little meeting.. we set today's happening to meet because as for you know.. i was sick.. so i'm gonna need a little help from her to help me out with my studies.. and so..

i went there.. at first i was awkward.. didn't know what to do.. you know i'm pretty shy and i don't usually go there.. but the faces there were sooo familiar and sooo friendly too that i didn't have a hard time catching up with them and hearing the latest things happening around..

good thing tito ray was there to accompany me pretty well inside their home.. and i felt like at home there.. they entertain their guests pretty well though.. as if nothing's going on between them and dad.. oh well.. let's not talk about such things now!!

and so.. i entered.. as if i was invited there.. mm was there.. she welcomed me warmly and made me feel at home.. asked me to eat some.. but i simply refused.. not that i'm not hungry or i'm shy.. i simply said that i wanna catch up first on whatever happened.. so i asked her to go inside to keep us warm and so we could talk well..

she told me the latest things happening around.. like my bebe and james got back together again.. duh!! i simply can't understand them you know.. for your info.. this james used to be a textmate of mine.. gosh how i hate him for the trouble he brought about among my friends!! anyways.. he was gone this year and now he's back.. he simply paved his way back into our lives through different people.. or should i say.. personalities.. duh!! for me.. he's really mean and a complete liar you know.. makes up a lot of stories!! gggggrrrrrrrrr!!

so anyway.. i'm not here to talk about such silliness you know!! then mm told me about the disco that happened at school.. found out that sir cruz.. my fave officer.. went out and danced sybert in the slow ones.. oooohhh weeeehh.. what do we have here?? oh well.. i don't really know much what's going on between them anyway.. obviously.. i'm pretty late with the latest gossips in our acp anyway!! ha!!

then she also told me about aira.. a pretty tall gal in our class who has a crush on this fox guy.. aira dressed just like bea alonzo who is also pretty tall and not so thin after all.. aira looked almost like bea that night especially when looking in her rear.. man!! that's according to mm.. well..

then she also told me that boodie finally danced his crush.. i don't really know who.. but mm tells me that he's pretty close with her.. mm didn't tell me who even though she knew.. that's 'cause she promised boodie she won't tell anyone about this little secret.. oh well.. what can we do??

then.. other than the silly christmas disco.. she also blabbed to me things about her and coleen.. i knew they were planning on going to enchanted kingdom around last week but didn't make it 'cause they weren't allowed by their parents.. mm.. coleen.. and my bhez.. oh well.. no wonder.. we're still pretty young i guess..

then mm also went to festi with coleen last week 'cause they went christmas shopping.. they shopped for their clothes for the disco and also for some gifts i guess.. coleen was supposed to have her hair straightened that day too as usual.. but then again.. it was cancelled since they were really late already.. they came home almost 9 in the evening already.. real late now!!

i heard my bhez planned on going simbang gabi on the first mass this 16th but unfortunately didn't make it.. she was texting endlessly mm and coleen asking whether what time they'll be meeting.. then by 9:30pm.. bhez finally said that she can't make it 'cause she simply can't manage to wake up as early as 3am.. haha!! that's my bhez alright!! hehe.. peace man!! :D coleen didn't make it too since she woke up 6:25am that day.. haha!! no wonder.. only mm managed to wake up 3am but didn't go 'cause she got no one to go with.. oh well.. that's life here now.. hehe.. :)

then mm also told me about nikki's mom who went to the u.s just this month to work there as caregivers.. really.. the filipinos abroad.. working real hard for the money.. mm told me that finally.. nikki will be able to feel christmas without a mom.. really sad i know.. from what i have just experienced!! no wonder i know!!

uhm.. but of course.. i also ate there in the party.. we didn't just blab and blabbed and catch up on one another.. i ate there some spaghetti.. lumpiang shanghai and a puto.. just that.. and then tita digz and kuya harry and also some other people there who know me keep on asking me about what happened to me when i got dengue.. as you can remember.. kuya harry also got the dengue.. we both have the very same story.. really boring in the hospital and the injections really suck!! duh!!

other than that.. the most important of all.. mm gave me the xerox copy of her notes.. they're pretty important for me since they'll all be the coverage of my periodic exams coming next year.. ooooohhh!! i really hate myself for this and for being sick!! aaaarrrrgggghhhh!!!

she handed me this small red national bookstore plastic wherein the xerox's there.. other than that.. a card and a cute little bottle was there too with the letters I MISS YOU.. it was from jenelle.. she really did miss me.. i miss her too you know.. much.. just as much as i missed my mom.. think imma hug tight all of them come next year.. yay!!

you know.. when i was talking to mm.. i really felt that i miss her.. yeah.. even without the hugging thing.. i missed her soooo much.. it's not that we didn't talk for only 2 weeks.. it's as if we haven't been together for almost a year!! and it's true you know!! we weren't together for the past school year so maybe that's why i feel a different kind of miss with her.. a lot different than i'm feeling for jenelle.. i miss mm 'cause i miss the pretty long talks with her that i used to have last year.. now.. finally.. it feels soooo good talking to her again.. ahhhhh!! then for jenelle.. i miss the talks i used to have with her.. when we go together during break time.. yeah.. i miss her too.. not only the two of them that i miss.. i also miss of course my bhez!! yeah.. i used to talk with her using ym and everything else.. but then again.. i miss talking with her up front face to face!! i remember the last time we talked was november and i simply loved it.. i wish that'll happen again.. ooooh weeeh...

then the card.. it was from mm.. so sweet of her.. wish i could show you photos of what i just received for christmas.. these 2 gifts you know.. i guess for now.. they're the best christmas gifts ever!! yeah!! i already received 'em and opened them.. actually they're not wrapped in gift wrappers anyway.. oh well.. all i know is that.. i already received now the best christmas gifts this year ever!! nobody beats being missed by someone you also miss too.. and also a gift of friend.. a friend believing in you and what you can do!!

now what the heck am i talking about?? you see.. mm gave me this simple greeting card.. a really simple christmas greeting card with this message that really flattered me soooo much and that really made my heart melt.. and that really inspired me!! here it goes...

dearest dianne romyl,

eio dianne! merry christmas! thank you so much for teaching me the lessons i don't understand! take care of yourself always so that you won't be sick for so long. so that next time you're the top 1. hehe. wanna make you the real top 1 huh? of course. it's cool when you have that friend who's first! ok, GOD bless you and your family! love yah!

[p.s.. this part that you just read from my greeting card.. i translated it so that foreigners can understand.. and besides.. nothing beats seeing the real christmas card.. don't you think?? ;D]

merry christmas and warmest wishes for happiness now and in the coming year.

love,
maxine

there you go.. isn't it flattering?? lemme show you what i really mean with this photos.. sooo glad tinypic's always available to help me photoblog.. anyways.. here are the 2 greatest gifts i just received for christmas..

i miss you too sooo much jenelle!!

thanks!! merry christmas too!!

oh well.. getting pretty tired now.. this is pretty long now huh?! gotta bounce now.. see ya soon.. thank you mm and jenelle for cheering me up!! wish i could give you even better gifts next year!! see ya!! miss y'all!! ;D