[[..i love my life..]]

this u.p thing..

2004-12-20T14:37:00.000+08:00

last night remember that i was thinking alot about this college topic.. right?? well.. i kinda forgot to tell you something more.. more yeah.. why more?? because.. it's more important.. more affecting.. and most of all.. has something more to do about me and my 'rent's choice..

yep.. my 'rent's are forcing me to study in u.p.. well actually.. i can't say simply assume that they're forcing me.. they are just simply motivating me to study in u.p.. they tell me lots of things like i should go study there 'cause of poverty.. it's really hard living now in today's world especially it's hard to stay in school with no guarantee.. you know.. you don't know exactly when and how if you'll stop studying since you're dependent.. just like my case i guess..

oh well.. what i'm trying to really say here is this.. it's really hard when you study dependently on someone you're not guaranteed will be there for you until you graduate!! know now what i'm saying??

that's why in my plans.. it's included that i'll try to find a job while studying in college so that i can keep a bunch of money for myself for future purposes and emergencies.. other than that.. of course i'm gonna help out my 'rents paying for my own miscellaneous fees and things i wanna buy for me.. and of course.. the money would not only help my 'rents but also myself since you know very well how thrifty i can be..

hmmm.. when me and mom talk about college.. she somewhat "forces"[that's for me only.. my term of saying "motivating" me..] me to pass the upcat.. she keeps on telling me that the money we'll save from my tuition would be very helpful for me and they'll put the money in my bank account to let it grow and for future emergencies.. as usual!!

but i don't know.. i just.. well.. i simply.. uhm.. i think i don't trust them when she said those pretty words.. yeah.. silly huh?! completely!! it's just that i don't trust them when she said that she's gonna put the money in my bank account.. hmm.. bad of me isn't it?? pathetic!!

anyways.. i really do hope that i get answers that i need sooo badly.. hope i pass high school for now with honors.. and hopefully.. be happy with the university of my choice.. wherever i study civil engineering..

oh well.. anyways.. i got not much choice here anyway.. dad as usual tells me that he isn't forcing me to study in u.p.. he's merely motivating me to go there since he knows very well that i won't fail him or get mad at his decisions.. i want to graduate in u.p too of course.. but the fact that they got high standards and thinking of college makes me kinda worried.. i can't help but be confused whether to go u.p or not..

but still.. one question will always remain for now.. will i make it to u.p??

hmmm.. i have to go now.. wish i get real answers out of this.. i really think my christmas wish this christmas is to pass highschool with honors.. hope GOD hears me and grants my prayers.. oh well..

bye now.. mwahz..

what's life without suffering??

2004-12-20T13:57:00.000+08:00

last night.. after blogging actually.. i went down and watched t.v.. since my sis' gonna use the computer now.. hmmm...

the first thing i saw on t.v that really struck me was this phrase that somewhat goes like this..

suffering and pain makes us realize how blessed we truly are..

isn't that just some thought?? i really dig the true meaning of that thought.. it really struck me you know.. so i just thought i might share it with you.. as well as my realizations out of it..

i agree first and foremost about the said saying.. i really think that pain and suffering will always be part of our life and it all depends on us whether how we should treat these tests in our life.. as i wrote before.. there's more suffering in life than happiness.. but really.. what is happiness anyway??

i read in some newspaper these words..

i asked GOD to give me happiness.. GOD said "no, i give you blessings.. happiness is up to you..."

hmmm.. i believe it's completely true.. GOD gives us so many blessings yet we forget to thank HIM and be happy.. sometimes.. people are so rude to remember GOD only in times of trouble.. like when asking for help or when asking why bad things happen in life.. hypocrites!!

i also believe in a quote that my bhez sent me.. i really like this one and even though it's been on my phone for a pretty long time now.. it's still there to completely remind me how happy and blessed i should feel..

being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect.. it means you've decided to see life beyond imperfections.. so don't say you're happy 'cause everything's alright.. be happy 'cause everything sucks but you're doing just fine.. :)

it really struck me when i read this message.. it made my day happy as well.. everytime i read it too.. i'm uplifted.. even for just a while.. hope you remember these words of wisdom to keep you uplifted.. and not so bored or even lonely in life.. remember.. life is full of suffering.. but it's really up to you how respond to these sufferings.. whether you get angry or sad.. or better yet.. accept them and realize your blessedness..

here's a little food for thought from my dad.. hope you like it..

i asked GOD to take away my pain.. GOD said "no.. it's not for me to take away but for you to give up.."

i asked GOD to make my handicapped child whole.. GOD said "no.. his/her spirit is whole.. the body is only temporary.."

i asked GOD to grant me patience.. GOD said "no.. patience is a by-product of tribulations; it isn't granted.. it's earned.."

i asked GOD to give me happiness.. GOD said "no.. i give you blessings.. happiness is up to you.."

i asked GOD to spare me pain.. GOD said "no.. suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.."

i asked GOD to make my spirit grow.. GOD said "no.. you must grow on your own.. but I will prune you to make you fruitful.."

i asked GOD for all things that i might enjoy life.. GOD said "no.. i give you life so that you may enjoy all things.."

i asked GOD to help me LOVE others as much as HE loves me.. GOD said "ahhh.. finally you have the idea..."

bye now.. see ya.. (",)

..quote of my day..
[take care of your things today.. generosity is cool most of the time.. but for now you need to remember that what's yours is truly yours..]

survey for today.. had a hard time blogging..

2004-12-20T12:27:00.000+08:00

here's a friendster survey..

i had a hard time connecting to the net actually.. it almost took me 17 minutes just to make the "create post" show up!! man!! surely net is super slow today.. guess alot of people are using the net now.. hmmm..

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1.Ever dated someone younger than you?
- not yet.. haven't dated yet actually..

2.Someone older?
- i said it before.. please!! next topic please..

3.Ever been drunk?
- nah.. don't drink too much here..

4.Do you smoke?
- nope..

5.Been in love?
- uhm.. had a crush only.. but not yet really in love.. 'cause i know love is a many splendored things!! hhaha!!

6.Loved someone whom you knew you couldn't have?
- uhm.. nah.. 'cause i only had a crush on him.. that's why..

7.Gotten in a car accident?
- nope.. but i've been confined in a hospital 3 times now.. and felt dying for once.. :(

8.Had your heart broken?
- nah.. not yet in love anyway..

9.Cheated on someone?
- nope.. next topic please..

10.Been cheated on?
- don't like this survey much.. can't relate.. >:-(

11.Last time you cried??.
- can't remember.. don't wanna remember anyway.. think last time i watched casper.. haha!! ;D

12.Last time you laughed?
- just now.. i laugh every now then.. so as not get bored here.. yawn!!

13.What age do you see yourself getting married at?
- hmmm.. between 25 and 30.. but the perfect would be 27 i guess..

14.Describe your dream wedding.
- not so elegant.. all i know is that it's gonna last forever.. *mushy*

15.Do you sleep with a stuffed animal with you?
- nope.. guess i'm allergic with stuffed toys.. ehhh??

16.If you could dye your hair with one color, what would it be?
- hmmm.. don't think so.. but if i really will. black.. ;D

17.Do you eat chicken with fingers or with a fork?
- fingers when it's my fave thigh.. fork if anywhere else..

18.Would you rather give or receive?
- uhm.. i'd like receiving but it really feels good to give and know that you've helped out..

19.Where and how many homes have you lived in?
- 2 only.. but i guess 3 since we lived some place in bulacan when i was still a baby..

20.Do you play any musical instruments?
- piano.. sometimes guitar.. dad likes playing the guitar..

21.One or two pillows?
- one is enough.. but i got 2 here..

22.Do you get along with your parents?
- of course.. love 'em both..

23.Do you drive?
- yep.. a bicycle..

24.Whats your favorite color?
- violet lilac purple

25.Do you work?
- not yet.. soon will..

26.What are your favorite dishes?
- chinese ones..

27.Who was your first crush?
- jappy.. yay!!

28.Are you the romantic type?
- hmmm.. i don't know.. but i'm sweet.. hehe.. ;D

29.Are you in love right now?
- uhm.. unfortunately no.. huhu.. :'(

30.Are you happy?
- of course..

31.What are you going to do after this?
- uhm.. gonna post this then take a nice warm bath.. ;D

from friendster..

should i go u.p or not??

2004-12-19T19:47:00.000+08:00

i watched them run last night on our t.v.. yep.. the most awaited event of u.p.. the u.p oblation run.. actually.. i didn't realize this run happened on t.v.. i was aware 'cause i blogged.. didn't know blogging would also be a great tool for me to be informed and in touch with reality!! yay!!

anyways.. the boys were there.. naked.. running around the university of the philippines diliman campus.. oh well.. these boys really got something to show off.. haha!! but what they should more likely show off is.. well.. their faces..

this u.p oblation run has been happening for decades now.. didn't realize that much.. it actually started in the 1970's.. by the way.. the only men who happen to have the "privilege" to run in such activities are the members of this famous fraternity they call alpha phi omega.. this frat for your info is a pretty tight frat and really lives up to their identity they call brotherhood.. other than that.. they have also been in a lot of trouble and issues for the past few years.. you see.. this frat is really exclusive and formal.. why?? because they have this initiation thingy and the "officers" and older members of this frat will really test your faithfulness and brotherhood to the group.. and the test?? well.. that's where the hazing issue comes around since for them.. they believe that true brotherhood means trust.. so if you're being hazed.. you must trust fully your superiors.. also i guess.. you must be really strong and healthy in order to be in such group.. cool huh?? more likely wierd!!

anyways.. this oblation run again isn't always about naked boys and nudity.. of course they are u.p students.. also known famously as.. iskolar ng bayan.. [scholars of the nation.. hehe..] since they happen to be "scholars" or somewhat has the mind of a scholar.. they act reasonably and rationally..

so.. what's the scoop and what's behind this oblation run?? oblation run happens every year.. different batch of boys run around the u.p campus naked every year.. and also.. of course.. every year.. they obviously got different themes.. by the way.. their first run was actually just to somewhat commercialize their school play.. hubad na bayani.. afterwards.. it became yearly.. and so boy abunda said..

this year's theme is about saving our nature.. just recently.. a great storm just hit quezon this december[maybe that's why i got the dengue virus!! >:-( haha!!].. quezon almost fell and didn't make it due to the heavy flash floods that came rushing without notice.. and the cause of this flash floods?? they point it out to illegal logging.. well.. they got a point there anyway.. since after the storm.. lots of logs sank in the flash floods.. man!! how brutal.. >:-(

so.. this year.. they're calling the attention of many[most especially the gays!! haha!! ;D] to be more aware now.. more aware than ever.. 'cause due to this stupid logs and flash floods.. lots of people aren't spending their christmas merrily.. so let's all do our part.. do our civic duties.. even in small things and acts.. to help save our mother earth.. 'cause this is how she gets angry.. this has been her anger.. this is karma baby!! so.. wake up now and start caring.. before it's too late..

ho-hum.. anyways.. since i'm talking here about now u.p.. actually.. as i've said.. i read the news here in some blog that i read.. can't remember who.. but i just realized that.. i got some u.p bloggers here man!! cool huh?! really!!

and so the thought finally came to me last night while watching that little documentary about the u.p oblation run[by the way.. the u.p oblation run was taken from the u.p oblation which is a portrait of a naked nicely-sculpted-body man found somewhere in the middle of the u.p campus in diliman quezon city].. i was thinking.. should i study in u.p??

hmmm.. guess you'll say yes easily.. but we all know that it's not that easy to enter and stay in such a highly-recommende school..

no.. it's not that i'm not confident enough to go in such a prestigious school.. of course i believe in myself that i can make it there.. well.. only if i want to..

that's it.. yeah.. i don't have this motivation inside me to enter such a nice school.. i don't know.. lately.. news and infos go around making me more motivated to not go there.. how silly of me.. duh!!

but last night.. i was joking around.. kidding my mom and sis that someday i'll go there and take photos of the said event for them.. and i know.. yup!! jokes are half meant.. so.. i'm quite confused now and also uhm.. kinakabahan?? with myself.. should i go there or not?? do i really wanna go there??

hmmm.. last night.. i got this vibration and feeling inside me that makes me wanna go and take the test there and do my best to pass.. i don't know.. when i think of taking exams there and passing there.. it kinda makes me scared.. my heart pounds fast and butterflies come rushing into my stomach.. just like now!!

oooohh.. this stuff is killing me.. i don't know.. i'm not sure.. of course i'm gonna be really proud of myself when i pass the upcat.. or the university of the philippines college admission test.. i even sometimes think to myself.. isn't it that you got such high goals to reach for this?? graduate with honors to easily get in u.p??

ahhh!! i can't understand myself now.. really confused.. but there's this really nagging determination for me to go and study in u.p when i get to college.. ooooh!! you see.. my heart and part of my head says i really really have to study in u.p 'cause of their profile.. but the other part of my head makes me really nervous thinking of staying in u.p..

i know!! i know!! it's pretty challenging to stay in u.p and still graduate there with honors.. of course i still want honors even in college silly!! but then.. if i do graduate with honors in some other school.. i'm not so fond of thinking such things.. i'm prouder if i happen to graduate in such prestigious school like u.p la salle or even ateneo..

i can still remember.. when i was a sophomore.. of course you know i'm still lazy then and have no single plan in life.. i really really love tenorio and now.. chris tiu.. yep.. i watch uaap.. that's why i'm soooo determined then to enter ateneo.. but of course as usual.. lots of people around me don't want me sooo much to go there 'cause of at least 3 reasons.. first: too expensive.. second: too far.. third: the course i choose isn't their specialty.. of course.. it's better to go in a school where their specialty is my course to get best education i want.. oh well..

good thing i woke up with the truth and reality pretty early.. now i'm confused whether to go u.p or not.. as you can see.. i got not so much choice here.. since my only criteria here for the university of my choice is education.. all i want is the best education i can get.. and that's of course.. guaranteed by u.p..

my course by the way is engineering.. well at least.. will be sooner or later.. and i know that mapua is the leading college when it comes to engineering.. of course i'm not that choosy.. not because mapua is a college doesn't mean i don't want there any longer.. it's just that.. it's not the same way as before.. it isn't that good anymore.. as i've heard of course.. alot say that la salle already bought the said college.. and i hear too that la salle isn't that good too when it comes to engineering or anything math.. i know their real specialty is theater arts or something like communication arts.. just as long as arts man!!

anyways.. you know.. when i think about college.. man!! i really think about lotsa things.. like my college life as student and as a lady too.. other than that.. all i realize in the end is that.. all i really need to think about is today.. what i can still do to get to that farther goal.. oh well.. that's where the long term and short term goals enter.. succeed in the short term goal to get closer to the long term one.. yeah yeah..

hmmm.. guess i have to end this now.. this one's going nowhere.. i think.. oh well.. in the end i guess.. i really want to go to u.p.. i just realized that.. i'm sooo afraid to stay there.. i'm very much afraid i can't make it there or can't stay there.. simply afraid that i won't succeed there.. i'm really puzzled and nervous about one single thing.. can i make it in u.p??

gonna go now.. gonna rest my mind from all this puzzling things.. from reality.. bye now..

two things about me...

2004-12-19T17:17:00.000+08:00

1.TWO NAMES YOU GO BY:
- dianne
- uhm?? romyl..

2. TWO THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- dependent at times..
- gets ill easily..

3. TWO THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
- why love blogging and addicted to such things..
- why is our computer f****** up and the net doesn't work properly..

4. TWO THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
- loneliness
- nothingness

5. TWO THINGS U NEED EVERYDAY:
- love.. haha!!
- oxygen.. nu pa ba??

6.SOME OF YOUR FAVORITE BRANDS:
- avon
- pucca.. hehe..

7. TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS @ THE MOMENT:
- i dont wanna be your friend by nina
- karma by a.keys..

8. TWO PERSONS YOU SPEND THE MOST
TIME WITH:
- my sis
- mom

9. TWO THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
- stop blogging i guess.. hihihi.. dangg!!
- hate my sis.. haha!! and also myself.. dangg!!

10. TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
- play tennis
- blog.. waaaah!!

11. TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO REALLY BUY RIGHT NOW:
- brand new samsung phone..
- uhm.. uhm.. mister donut's belgian bites

12. TWO CAREERS (BUSINESS) YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
- teacher.. yeah men..
- engineer.. first and foremost.. being an engineer to me means success.. yeah men!!

13. TWO PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
- hawaii.. gonna follow my sis.. hehe..
- uhm.. uhm.. england.. really wanna go there and see sites they're proud of..

14. TWO OF YOUR FAVOURITE PERSONS: (except family members)
- man!! this one's pretty tough!! ok.. so.. guess gonna answer uhm.. my bhez..
- my sis.. nothing more here to answer..

15. TWO THINGS YOU DID YESTERDAY:
- blog..
- bloghopping.. hahah!! just joking.. got my greatest gift for this year.. yeah!!

[got 'em from friendster]

whatever!!

2004-12-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

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Capricorn - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:
You are serious about relationships and ready for a commitment.
You tend to help your partner attain the success they dream of.
You are a rock. Relationship problems don't seem to phase you.

Your negative traits:
Sometimes it's very hard for you to accept your parnter's past.
You are emotionally reserved, and difficult to connect with.
You expect your partner to take care of you - and make cheat if they do not

Your ideal partner:
Is incredibly powerful and well respected.
Is often older than you - and could be a superior at work.
Has a good amount of money... or the ability to be rich someday.

Your dating style:
Practical. A "get to know each other" coffee date is just fine by you.

Your seduction style:
Bossy - you like to be the one in charge in the bedroom.
Slow and patient. You know that good sex takes time.
Calculating. You'll use sex to get ahead, if necessary.

Tips for the future:
Open up. A little emotional expression is a good thing in relationships.
Leap before you look. You don't have to run a cost benefit sheet on everyone you date.
Enjoy the now. No need to worry about marriage on the first few dates.

Best place to meet someone online:
eHarmony - they'll automatically match you with someone who's as driven as you are

Best color to attract mate: Dark green

Best day for a date: Saturday

greatest christmas gifts ever!!

2004-12-18T20:47:00.000+08:00

just this late afternoon.. i went to my neighbor's small party.. it was tita digz' birthday so i guess i'll go and see something for myself.. just joking!!

actually.. i went there simply because me and mm had a little meeting.. we set today's happening to meet because as for you know.. i was sick.. so i'm gonna need a little help from her to help me out with my studies.. and so..

i went there.. at first i was awkward.. didn't know what to do.. you know i'm pretty shy and i don't usually go there.. but the faces there were sooo familiar and sooo friendly too that i didn't have a hard time catching up with them and hearing the latest things happening around..

good thing tito ray was there to accompany me pretty well inside their home.. and i felt like at home there.. they entertain their guests pretty well though.. as if nothing's going on between them and dad.. oh well.. let's not talk about such things now!!

and so.. i entered.. as if i was invited there.. mm was there.. she welcomed me warmly and made me feel at home.. asked me to eat some.. but i simply refused.. not that i'm not hungry or i'm shy.. i simply said that i wanna catch up first on whatever happened.. so i asked her to go inside to keep us warm and so we could talk well..

she told me the latest things happening around.. like my bebe and james got back together again.. duh!! i simply can't understand them you know.. for your info.. this james used to be a textmate of mine.. gosh how i hate him for the trouble he brought about among my friends!! anyways.. he was gone this year and now he's back.. he simply paved his way back into our lives through different people.. or should i say.. personalities.. duh!! for me.. he's really mean and a complete liar you know.. makes up a lot of stories!! gggggrrrrrrrrr!!

so anyway.. i'm not here to talk about such silliness you know!! then mm told me about the disco that happened at school.. found out that sir cruz.. my fave officer.. went out and danced sybert in the slow ones.. oooohhh weeeehh.. what do we have here?? oh well.. i don't really know much what's going on between them anyway.. obviously.. i'm pretty late with the latest gossips in our acp anyway!! ha!!

then she also told me about aira.. a pretty tall gal in our class who has a crush on this fox guy.. aira dressed just like bea alonzo who is also pretty tall and not so thin after all.. aira looked almost like bea that night especially when looking in her rear.. man!! that's according to mm.. well..

then she also told me that boodie finally danced his crush.. i don't really know who.. but mm tells me that he's pretty close with her.. mm didn't tell me who even though she knew.. that's 'cause she promised boodie she won't tell anyone about this little secret.. oh well.. what can we do??

then.. other than the silly christmas disco.. she also blabbed to me things about her and coleen.. i knew they were planning on going to enchanted kingdom around last week but didn't make it 'cause they weren't allowed by their parents.. mm.. coleen.. and my bhez.. oh well.. no wonder.. we're still pretty young i guess..

then mm also went to festi with coleen last week 'cause they went christmas shopping.. they shopped for their clothes for the disco and also for some gifts i guess.. coleen was supposed to have her hair straightened that day too as usual.. but then again.. it was cancelled since they were really late already.. they came home almost 9 in the evening already.. real late now!!

i heard my bhez planned on going simbang gabi on the first mass this 16th but unfortunately didn't make it.. she was texting endlessly mm and coleen asking whether what time they'll be meeting.. then by 9:30pm.. bhez finally said that she can't make it 'cause she simply can't manage to wake up as early as 3am.. haha!! that's my bhez alright!! hehe.. peace man!! :D coleen didn't make it too since she woke up 6:25am that day.. haha!! no wonder.. only mm managed to wake up 3am but didn't go 'cause she got no one to go with.. oh well.. that's life here now.. hehe.. :)

then mm also told me about nikki's mom who went to the u.s just this month to work there as caregivers.. really.. the filipinos abroad.. working real hard for the money.. mm told me that finally.. nikki will be able to feel christmas without a mom.. really sad i know.. from what i have just experienced!! no wonder i know!!

uhm.. but of course.. i also ate there in the party.. we didn't just blab and blabbed and catch up on one another.. i ate there some spaghetti.. lumpiang shanghai and a puto.. just that.. and then tita digz and kuya harry and also some other people there who know me keep on asking me about what happened to me when i got dengue.. as you can remember.. kuya harry also got the dengue.. we both have the very same story.. really boring in the hospital and the injections really suck!! duh!!

other than that.. the most important of all.. mm gave me the xerox copy of her notes.. they're pretty important for me since they'll all be the coverage of my periodic exams coming next year.. ooooohhh!! i really hate myself for this and for being sick!! aaaarrrrgggghhhh!!!

she handed me this small red national bookstore plastic wherein the xerox's there.. other than that.. a card and a cute little bottle was there too with the letters I MISS YOU.. it was from jenelle.. she really did miss me.. i miss her too you know.. much.. just as much as i missed my mom.. think imma hug tight all of them come next year.. yay!!

you know.. when i was talking to mm.. i really felt that i miss her.. yeah.. even without the hugging thing.. i missed her soooo much.. it's not that we didn't talk for only 2 weeks.. it's as if we haven't been together for almost a year!! and it's true you know!! we weren't together for the past school year so maybe that's why i feel a different kind of miss with her.. a lot different than i'm feeling for jenelle.. i miss mm 'cause i miss the pretty long talks with her that i used to have last year.. now.. finally.. it feels soooo good talking to her again.. ahhhhh!! then for jenelle.. i miss the talks i used to have with her.. when we go together during break time.. yeah.. i miss her too.. not only the two of them that i miss.. i also miss of course my bhez!! yeah.. i used to talk with her using ym and everything else.. but then again.. i miss talking with her up front face to face!! i remember the last time we talked was november and i simply loved it.. i wish that'll happen again.. ooooh weeeh...

then the card.. it was from mm.. so sweet of her.. wish i could show you photos of what i just received for christmas.. these 2 gifts you know.. i guess for now.. they're the best christmas gifts ever!! yeah!! i already received 'em and opened them.. actually they're not wrapped in gift wrappers anyway.. oh well.. all i know is that.. i already received now the best christmas gifts this year ever!! nobody beats being missed by someone you also miss too.. and also a gift of friend.. a friend believing in you and what you can do!!

now what the heck am i talking about?? you see.. mm gave me this simple greeting card.. a really simple christmas greeting card with this message that really flattered me soooo much and that really made my heart melt.. and that really inspired me!! here it goes...

dearest dianne romyl,

eio dianne! merry christmas! thank you so much for teaching me the lessons i don't understand! take care of yourself always so that you won't be sick for so long. so that next time you're the top 1. hehe. wanna make you the real top 1 huh? of course. it's cool when you have that friend who's first! ok, GOD bless you and your family! love yah!

[p.s.. this part that you just read from my greeting card.. i translated it so that foreigners can understand.. and besides.. nothing beats seeing the real christmas card.. don't you think?? ;D]

merry christmas and warmest wishes for happiness now and in the coming year.

love,
maxine

there you go.. isn't it flattering?? lemme show you what i really mean with this photos.. sooo glad tinypic's always available to help me photoblog.. anyways.. here are the 2 greatest gifts i just received for christmas..

i miss you too sooo much jenelle!!

thanks!! merry christmas too!!

oh well.. getting pretty tired now.. this is pretty long now huh?! gotta bounce now.. see ya soon.. thank you mm and jenelle for cheering me up!! wish i could give you even better gifts next year!! see ya!! miss y'all!! ;D

who to chose?

2004-12-18T20:37:00.000+08:00

WHO TO CHOOSE?

There was this guy who loved two gals at the same time but he didn't know which one he loved more. Someone taught him.

Ask yourself this question and answer it honestly:
"When you are happy, which gal would you want to share your happiness with?" The one you think of is someone you love.

Ask yourself another question and answer it honestly:
"When you are sad, which gal you want to share your burden with?" The one you think of is also someone you love.

If you think of the same gal when you are happy & sad, that's the most perfect. But if you don't think of the same gal, I would advise you to chose the one you are willing to share your sadness with.

In life, there are more sorrows than happiness. There are too many people that u meet that u can share your happiness with, not necessary your lover.

If you live your life happily, you can also enjoy it alone.

In sadness, however, there are not many people willing to share your burden with you. If you are willing to tell someone your happiness, I am sure that person has got to be someone close & an understanding person to you.

But it shouldn't stop there. If that person only thinks of you when s/he is happy, but looks for someone else when s/he is sad, this lover is too unstable,s/he doesn't treat you as someone s/he can spend the rest of her/his life with.

Of course, I will be very happy if I am the first person to share his happiness. But, if he is sad, I will be too willing to stay by his side & ease his pain. Only then, will I believe that I hold a very important position in his heart.

Now ask urself.. whenever you are sad, who really comes to your mind first?

[from ella's blog]

ako ba ay....???

2004-12-18T20:17:00.000+08:00

Kaw ba ay.....

1. Pikon
-- nah.. not that type of gal you know..

2. Maarte?
-- heck nah!!

3. Pihikan?
-- uhm.. i don't think so.. i'm not sooo choosy anyway..

4. Malambing?
-- opo.. sweet tu nu..

5. Madaldal?
-- uhm.. shy type mejo ehh.. so.. mejo.. pag kilala na ung kausap!! haha

6. Conservative?
-- well.. lemme say yes.. kk??

7. Lakwatsera/ro?
-- nah.. not now.. aral ngayon ehh..

8. Makulit?
-- uhm.. di naman.. actually..

9. Blacksheep?
-- good girl ata to!!

10. Cute?
-- oo naman!! look at my nav bar will ya??!! ;D

11. Papansin?
-- di nu

12. Bulgar magsalita?
-- nah.. pro natry ko na yan once.. lokarette ako ehh..

13. Pranka?
-- d nga.. same as bulgar isn't it??

14. Maharot?
-- di ehh.. tahimik nga to ehh..

15. Boring?
-- uhm.. d nman.. not that i'm quiet means boring na koh nu..

16. Liar?
-- yewp.. aminan na ito..

17. Faithful?
-- opo..

18. Palamura?
-- di ehh.. soweee..

19. Smoker?
-- nah.. bawal sa health ko ehh.. weee heee..

20. Lasenggo/a
-- di naman.. nauubusan ako lagi ng gin ehh.. hehe!! ;D

21. Weird?
-- nah.. mysterious kamo..

23. Crush ng bayan?
-- di.. never dreamed of..

24. Friendly?
-- uhm.. for me yes.. kaya lng mahiyain nga koh ehh!!

25. Walang taste?
-- ehhh.. di naman.. kanya-kanya naman yan ehh..

26. Walang originality?
-- nowee..

27. Paranoid?
-- addict lang.. hehe..

28. Antukin?
-- yawn!! haba tulog koh ehh.. sabi ni ate 12 hours of sleep ako.. wekekek!!

29. Lakas trip?
-- di ehh.. nahawa lang sa mga tunay na kaibigan.. weeeheeee..

30. Mababaw ang luha?
-- quite..

31. Love your neighbors?
-- never!! duh!!

32. Sumbungan ng friends?
-- not quite.. nu naman susumbong nila aber??

33. Tried vandalism?
-- oo naman nu!! lokarette nga koh!!

34. Late?
-- sometimes.. but i try not to..

35. Dork?
-- noweee..

36. Explorer?
-- internet explorer addict kamo..

37. Always hapi
-- opo!! yeah!! :D

38. Lazy?
-- nah.. i'm determined and goal-oriented remember??

39. Loveless?
-- uhm.. unfortunately.. opo.. huhu.. :'(

40. Matalino?
-- ahhh.. pra saken oo.. syempre!!

41. Selosa/so?
-- nah.. understanding to ehh..

42. Possessive?
-- nah.. di nga selosa ehh.. nu pa possessive??

43. Demanding?
-- nah..

44. Gastador?
-- di po..

45. Kuripot?
-- sabi nla oo.. pero matipid lang naman ako ehh!!

46. Sabik?
-- sa blogging!! hehe.. chaka sa loved ones.. :(

47. Plastic?
-- edi ayoko pla sa sarili ko?? dangg!! no of course!!

48. Sweet?
-- opo.. malambing nga ehh.. kulet!!

49. Astigin?
-- nah..

50. Maangas?
-- di rin.. makulet!!

[from my bhez's blog]

know what this blog's missing??

2004-12-18T15:47:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i guess the photos.. right?? yeah right..

what can i do?? can i help it if i got not much knowledge about this photo-blogging thing.. weeeheee.. oh well..

it's no big deal for me.. i guess.. actually.. i wanna post here some pictures too you know.. but then again.. i just simply can't..

one thing is that i got no scanner at home.. just begged my bhez to scan some pixx for me.. ooooh weeeeh.. poor me.. :(

the other thing is.. i'm not so fond of posting photos in the net anyway.. don't like too much publicity.. you know!! and besides.. i'm not sooo expert in the photo-blogging thing.. so.. yeah.. don't want much of the photos..

but actually.. none of them matter.. anyway.. i really don't like myself to be in sooo much publicity.. knowing what's on my mind through blogging is enough for me.. anyways.. i blog not because of publicity.. i just simply want a high-tech way of writing my thoughts.. the whole blogging world is getting older and better[?] now.. but not much me!! :( hehe..

other than that.. it wouldn't matter much to my readers anyways isn't it?? i just like to keep it simple enough.. just write journals.. that's all..

oh!! what the heck am i talking about?!

anyways.. lemme take off the photo-thingy.. let's see what imma do this week..

i believe there's a pretty tight schedule ahead of me.. yeah.. got lotsa things to do.. remember.. only a week to go before christmas!! so better hurry up now and make plans so as not to waste too much time here.. weeeheee...

what are my plans?? plans plans.. on monday.. sis is gone again.. she'll go christmas shopping with mom.. which means i'm gonna be bored here at home again 'cause nobody's home except me and 2 old people.. oh well.. but i won't let them go without buying me something when they get home.. really wish i could go christmas shopping with them at glorietta.. :( what can i do?? mom won't let me be 'cause she thinks i'm still ill.. oh well..

then later on.. guess we'll be busy helping out dad prepare for that party for his truck.. they came home with the give-aways this 2pm.. now he's sleeping.. he must've been real tired.. ho-hum..

tomorrow.. i don't know much what's the plan but i'm pretty sure it's rest day for the whole family since tomorrow's sunday.. hopefully.. me and sis will go simbang gabi.. oooohh..

then on monday.. guess gonna start studying.. yeah!! study.. you read it right.. STUDY!! haha!! gonna study now since i didn't do such nonsense when i was sick.. now i'm gonna payback what i should've done already.. aaaaarrrrrggggghhhh!!

oh em gee!! just darn remembered gotta get those xerox copies from maxine!! hmmm.. think gonna go to joan's house later on to see if she's there.. gonna catch up too on alot of stories and gossips.. oh well..

hmmm.. got nothing more here to say now.. gotta bounce now..

make a pucca will ya??!! ;D

2004-12-18T14:38:00.000+08:00

How to make a pucca

Ingredients:

3 parts intelligence

1 part humour

1 part energy

Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Top it off with a sprinkle of curiosity and enjoy!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

tis the season to appreciate...

2004-12-18T13:27:00.000+08:00

...funky mood now...

yewp.. lately.. i've been blog hopping.. just as i posted awhile ago.. even if i only got to read 2 blogs.. they both have the same theme and message in mind.. appreciation of life itself..

the first blog i read was tin's.. it's in my navigation bar anyway so you can visit her blog too..

her journal was written this 10th of december.. pretty old huh?! but it doesn't matter much.. all i know is that.. she really feels the true spirit of christmas..

this is i guess the first time that i read something about the true meaning of christmas.. well actually.. this isn't the first 'cause i read some just yesterday.. just can't remember whose blogs they're.. but i'm telling you.. this is the first time imma talk about the true spirit of christmas.. for me..

of course.. christmas.. just like for everyone else.. is all about christ.. GOD's greatest gift to man kind.. love and peace.. you know.. and the like.. in her blog.. she stated some facts about life.. the sad facts of life.. the fact that while we.. both me and her.. are at home celebrating christ's birth with love with our families.. there are still beggars out there who got no real celebration of christmas due to.. sigh.. poverty.. and it's true..

her realization was my realization too you know.. but i realized such things a very long time ago now.. now.. i'm pretty glad that i'm here.. just blogging.. having a good time.. with my family.. living healthy.. and happy.. glad that we're even fortunate enough to live this life and experience this christmas.. unlike those unfortunate.. not only the poor.. but also fpj kc and the like..

then shali's blog was telling something now about her experience.. it was some kind of exposure we call at school.. for us lccians.. we go to our adopted communities or some place that needs our help.. like an orphanage or squatters area.. we go there and experience life with them.. we don't just simply donate.. we share life with them.. and with that.. we get to know better the realities of life..

shali's experience was like this.. they went in some home in a squatters area.. she calls her nanay bing.. she experienced life with her by eating and sleeping and living with her at her home sweet home.. for your info.. this home sweet home is made up of not sugar spice and everything nice.. just plain cement.. the ground and some crap put together to be called a "house".. other than that.. nay bing lives with her baby and still got a family in her province.. you know she lives in manila.. and as expected.. she's one of those same old story of finding success and improvement in manila by finding a stable good job.. but unfortunately.. she's also one of those who failed and lived poorly in manila...

anyways.. she doesn't have a real house of her own.. her home is simply just for the 2 of them and just for sleeping.. no c.r.. no kitcher dining room or whatsoever.. just plain ground for sleeping.. :(

i simply can't imagine christmas with such life.. nothing material in life.. but is really life all about the material things??

i know life isn't just about food and clothes and home.. it's more about having faith in GOD you know.. but then again.. how can you simply live in today's modern world.. with nothing??

so in the end.. shali wrote in her blog...

Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.

true.. i absolutely agree.. i just feel sad about nay bing and the beggars out there who ain't celebrating christmas materially fun.. just hope they're still happy this coming christmas.. sigh.. :(

oh well.. i remember vividly what we usually do in our exposures.. just like shali.. we visit homes and live like them.. only we share our life with them until in the afternoon.. not that we sleep there in their house.. that's too much i guess.. as shali said it.. they were nay bing's unexpected visitors.. they shouldn't be there 'cause shali won't appreciate the scenery much while nay bing won't be able to take care shali much with such a low profile.. :(

so.. i'm gonna say it again for the last time...

Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.

hope you get something out of this.. appreciate life.. be thankful you're reading this right now.. don't you think?? and remember.. nothing lasts forever anyway.. so make the most out of life..

til then.. see ya..

(",)

what kinda gal am i?? wah?? oh well...

2004-12-18T13:17:00.000+08:00

You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy at times but friendly, and you are never weak and always independent. You are incredibly intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a talent for many things (sports, music, art). You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just can't seem to break into the crowd and be noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing and speak out when you have more to say. Don't hide behind your books and sports and computer, get out there and get noticed. You also have deep desires in life and feel vunerable and alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What helps me to express feelings and dreams that I can't say to people, is through my writting. Maybe you should try.

What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by Quizilla

had a hard time sleeping last night.. yawn!!

2004-12-18T11:17:00.000+08:00

last night.. dad came home almost 1 in the morning.. yeah.. pretty late huh?! he came from some silly party in manila.. held by his staff i guess.. held for their company.. oh well..

i realized so 'cause i was awakened a bit by them.. and also.. i woke up due to nature calls.. heck!!

then mom slept beside me.. i can see and feel that she's really really tired and she really really needs the sleep.. then we hugged each other real tight.. as if we can't breath.. haha!! if you only saw us.. man!! we really miss each other sooooo much..

then of course.. as usual.. dad snores.. but i didn't let that bother my sleep..

just woke 10 in the morning.. and when did i sleep?? 2?? 3?? guess again.. around 4:30 early in the morning i guess!! dangg!! that's why if you can only see me right now.. i got a big eye bug around my eyes now.. eeeyeeech!!

why didn't i sleep much?? it's pretty both cold and hot in the room you know.. not soooo comfy to sleep.. then i didn't have as much space as i expected.. duh!!

but none of them matter anyway.. the real reason i didn't sleep soooo much is that.. i can't stop thinking.. thinking about what?? blogging.. yeah.. duh!!

i'm hopelessly addicted you know!! i'm soooo doomed now i guess.. can't stop thinking about blogging and blogging and blogging..

actually.. there are at least 3 to 5 things i do in the blog world.. i read.. comment.. tag.. edit.. and of course.. post blogs.. duh!!

can't help it.. last night kept on thinking on what i'm gonna write today.. ooooohhh!! i hate myself for being such an addict.. i hate it when i can't sleep much because of my silly thinking about my addiction!! dangg!!

so now.. as you've noticed.. for the past few days.. been posting here a lot of things.. things that ain't matter much really.. i just think up of 'em and then there they go.. they simply publish 'emselves.. man!! i'm kinda crazy now.. don't you think?!

ok now.. i want you all to post your comments now.. hope i hear from you soon.. wanna sleep now.. yawn!! see ya..

merry christmas now!!

2004-12-18T11:07:00.000+08:00

...quote of my day...
[if you got a loved one.. expect a little trouble and misunderstanding.. be thoughtful and patient.. don't let your pride get in the way of love..]

man!! for the first time now.. i'm saying merry christmas to all now!! haha!!

you know.. haven't posted or mentioned anything here yet about christmas.. i don't know.. it's just that.. maybe.. still can't feel now the vibes of christmas.. due to the silly news goin' around about lots of people dying.. last week.. fpj died.. this week.. kc devenecia died too!! man!! tis the season to die?!

anyways.. there you have it.. i'm wishing all of you a merry christmas now.. hope you get what you deserve.. hehe.. and maybe i wish i get what i really deserve too.. oh well..

see you then this christmas.. hope i get what i really deserve you know!! post me some feedbacks will ya?! see ya...

party's not gonna happen now.. huhu.. :'(

2004-12-18T10:30:00.000+08:00

hey now.. remember the party i've been talking about for the past week?! yep.. it's not gonna rock the house anymore.. poor me.. :(

oh well.. can't blame them now for such things.. it's not mom's fault.. she can't really make it.. she got this headache.. and this place's still a complete mess around!! aaaarrrrggghh!!

dad and sis went out to the grocery to buy give-aways for the truck.. actually.. the party's still happening.. only that.. it's not gonna happen here at home.. and besides.. the party's really intended for the truck you know.. so.. no hard feelings now..

so.. dad and sis are gone now.. ooohh weeeh.. getting pretty bored here now.. guess gonna go bloghopping first.. wish i get to read new cute interesting blogs now..

gonna catch up on you later on.. see ya..

they're finally home!! yippeee!!

2004-12-17T21:47:00.000+08:00

finally.. after long hours of waiting.. mom.. and of course.. anna.. are finally back home now.. yippeeeee!! i'm soooo happy and soooo excited!! hehe..

anyways.. they came around 5 in the afternoon.. i think.. some time close to that.. but they're here now so none of 'em would've matter now!! yipeee!!

all i know is that..well.. I MISS MOM SOOOOO MUCH!! whoa!! i can't help it!! i simply miss her!! and so does she.. oh well.. weeeheee.. how flattering..

when they arrived this afternoon.. mom hugged me real tight.. yeah!! so i replied with some tighter hug here.. whoa!! that's how much we miss each other!! yeah!!

that's not all that she missed sooo much.. she missed our house.. our home sweet home.. of course!! nothing beats living in your very own house!!

then she also missed what you call lutong bahay.. yeah.. she missed some cooking and foods she used to eat here at home.. the first food she was looking for?? fish!! yeah!! fish with some hope soup to go with.. yummy!!

well.. anyways.. gonna go and bond with my mom now.. we got so much to catch up on!! see yah tomorrow.. drop me some comments will ya?? see yah!!

smooches!!

been blog hopping... with my bhez.. hihi..

2004-12-17T21:37:00.000+08:00

been bloghopping awhile ago like i said.. and now.. well.. i saw my bhez's blog.. finally!! weeeheee..

just found out that she and her ex been together again.. how sweet.. good for her.. she just realized that she really loves him sooo much.. i'm glad for them.. i just hope he doesn't hurt her anymore.. like he did before.. dangg!!

then.. i read her dad's comin' home for christmas.. i guess this week.. or today maybe.. oh well.. another one for her.. good for her!!

just a while ago i was chatting with her using yahoo messenger.. well.. there you go.. that's all that we talked about.. other than that.. she simply told me the story.. i mean their love story last night at the disco.. they were soooo romantic.. hopefully.. they'll last long.. don't you think?!

oh well.. just look at the navigation bar for her blog.. it's named bhez after all.. yeah.. and drop me some comments.. ok?? ok.. see you soon..

goodnight now!! ;D

lovers in paris...

2004-12-17T21:34:00.000+08:00

yep.. i watch such series.. well well.. you know how boring this house can get.. ain't you??

anyways.. what's up with the flick??

you see.. it's a love story.. so it's quite you know.. mushy.. but i simply like it.. hmmm.. it's not that i love mushy series.. well.. i just like the plot.. even if it's just about just like any other mushy love triangle series out there..

so it's a story about martin.. carlo.. and vivian.. yep.. vivian.. the girl both carlo and martin are want.. or should i say.. love.. there it is.. the twist is this.. carlo is martin's uncle.. pretty cool huh?! that's why from what's happening now in the story.. it seems that it's more likely to be vivian and carlo than vivian and martin.. knowing the 2 guys' personalities.. no wonder vivian chose carlo over martin..

you see.. martin is.. of course.. pretty young.. he got this child-like mentality.. wherein he doesn't seem to be goal-oriented.. successful.. or anything like serious in life.. unlike carlo who is very successful and seems to be pretty old with his eye-glasses.. and so.. no wonder.. with their ages in life.. vivian would more likely choose carlo over martin.. duh!!

other than that.. another twist of the story is that.. carlo is being forced by his father to get married to some other rich clean girl .. for your info.. vivian is not rich.. she's really poor.. as in she herself works for some money for her family.. yeah.. the same old scenery.. just like meteor garden you know!! hihi..

then last night's episode has some quite twist.. the other night ago.. all that vivian did was cry and cry.. first carlo's dad talked to her and ignored or simply discriminated her father.. then she saw carlo in his office but didn't bother to visit him.. then she finally told martin about her and carlo.. she finally confessed to him their relationship.. all she wants is to be honest with martin.. and hope that doesn't change the relationship among the 3 of them..

and then again last night.. she didn't cry much.. but she happen to get a few slaps.. first.. the continuation of her confession to martin.. of course with such confessions.. martin was angry.. so he screamed a bit to vivian to go home now.. then at home.. the some other rich clean gal's mom visited her and slapped her on the face.. ouch!! really.. then finally.. one good thing happened.. she and carlo had a date and he serenaded her using the piano.. even though he got no such talent.. lol.. >.<

ho-hum.. oh well.. gonna go downstairs now.. gonna catch up first the latest on those three now.. the show is aired on abs-cbn daily around 9:30pm.. pretty late huh?! oh well.. got nothing here to do anyways.. so.. watch it.. and tell me something.. ok??

see you then.. bye!!

what's on my mind right now...

2004-12-17T16:27:00.000+08:00

i keep on bloggin' now.. i just noticed.. i've been sittin' in the same stupid hard chair for about 2 hours now.. man!! i don't get bored lookin' at the computer huh??

lately now i've been bloghoppin'.. yeah.. visitin' blogs and commenting and everything else.. reading about their lives.. you know.. just the way they want it to be.. to be read and be known.. yeah yeah.. we bloggers all got the same thing in mind.. hmmm...

now what the heck am i waiting for?? well.. for your info.. i'm waiting for mom.. yeah.. she's comin' home today.. how exciting for me!! finally.. no more boredom here at home.. well.. not much actually..

just awhile ago i was talkin' to my sis.. she told me that they watched some beautiful great play there in her school in ust.. yeah.. she studies there.. all for the sake of gettin' a good education.. hihi.. lol.. other than that.. she also told me that they went and sing in i-o box.. uhm.. some videoke bar in manila.. i hear it's pretty expensive there since popular faces like actors and actresses go there and have a good time.. wooohooo.. she also added that they sang there for maybe about 2 hours for the price of.. *drumbeats*.. 2k!! yeah!! with food of course.. but it's still a pretty much money man!! whoa!!

hmmm.. hmmm.. i'm missin' mommy so much now.. i just wish she's here now.. i hear my sis is going to the salon later on for some hot oil.. i wish i could go with her too.. weeeheee...

this morning i just remembered.. didn't i just tell you that she's goin' simbang gabi today?? well.. supposed to be.. she woke up 2am.. but she didn't manage to go.. why?? well.. simply because.. she isn't in the mood.. yeah.. she's been pretty exhausted with her trip yesterday.. she's frustrated now since she went simbang gabi yesterday.. hehe.. bad for her!!

other than that.. i just miss them all.. good thing they're all comin' home now one by one..

by the way.. still got no news about tomorrow's party.. still don't know if it's still gonna happen even with my mom.. havin' a headache.. as usual!!

well well.. gettin' hungry now.. see you soon.. gonna go downstairs now and see.. bye!!

oh and by the way!! don't forget to leave your comments!! i'd be really greatful.. best christmas gifts you can give me now!! haha!! bye!!

questions full of drama and challenge.. haha!!

2004-12-17T16:17:00.000+08:00

Ito ang mga katanungan na kahit sino man di kayang sagutan.. Ikaw na siguro pinaka-matalinong tao sa mundo kung masagutan mo to... Hinahamon kita sagutan lahat ng katanungan sa mga sumusunod...

1- Sino nga bang pipiliin mo???
UNG TAONG MULING NAGBUKAS NG PUSO MO...O ANG TAONG MATAGAL NG NANDOON?
***** well well.. it's a real toughie.. pero sige.. yung andun na.. hehe.. andun na ehh!! nu pang hahanapin mo??

2- Sino sa kanila...ang taong nagpapatawa syo o ang taong dahilan ng lahat ng iyong emosyon?
*****edi ang dahilan ng aking emotions.. man!!

3- Sino nga ba...ang taong nagpaluha syo, o ang taong nagpunas sa minsang pagluha mo?
******ang nagpunas ng luha koh.. 'cause he's the real one you know!! the one i've been waiting for so long now!! haha!!

4- Sya ba un laging pumapasok sa isip mo o cya un laging laman ng panaginip mo?
*****edi ung pumapasok s isip ko.. but it's pretty wierd kung lagi xa sa dreams ko.. isn't it a sign?? don't you think??

5-Ano ang susundin mo...ang dinidikta mo sa puso mo o ang dinidikta ng puso mo syo?
*****edi ung dinidikta ng heart ko.. nu pa!!

6- Sino nanaisin mo.. ang taong matagal nang kumakatok sa puso mo o ang taong hinihintay mong kumatok sayo?
*****hmmm.. another toughie.. but i guess the one who is knocking.. give him a chance right??

7- Sino ba ang mas mhalaga...yung taong nais mong makasama habang buhay o ung taong hindi mo makita ang habang buhay kapag wala cya?
*****syempre naman yung gusto ko forever.. man you make life hard!!

8- Alin dito ... Ang taong nais magpaligaya sayo sa simpleng bagay o ang taong nagpapaligaya sayo sa isipan lng?
*****ehhh?? ang dadrama at challenging naman ng mga tanong nito.. well well.. edi yung nagpapaligaya sakin in simple things.. man!! life and lovin' is difficult isn't it?!

9- Sino sasamahan mo ang taong pinangakuan mo o ang taong nangangako sayo?
*****edi yung pinangakuan ko.. wawa naman yung tao nu..

10- Sino ba ang mas mahalaga, ang taong matagal mong hinangaan at ninanais mong mahalin o ang taong hinangaan ka at minahal ka kung sino ka??
*****whatta toughie.. well.. yung humanga na lang sakin..

11. Ang taong kasama mo sa buong araw o ang taong iniicip mo bago matapos ang araw?
*****i would rather choose the one i'm with 'cause i'm with him na nga ehh!! hihi

12. Sino gusto mo mahalin ang taong nagturo syo magmahal o ang taong gusto mong turuan mahalin ka?
*****man!! the one who taught me to love na lang.. weeeheee...

13. Sino ang mas matimbang...ung taong pag kasama mo'y parang kay bilis ng oras o ung taong tuwing iniicp mo'y parang kay bagal ng oras?
*****uhm.. grabe sa challenge at drama ng mga tanong mo day!!

14. Siya bang kasakasama mo sa lhat ng ginagawa mo o siyang dahilan ng lahat ng galaw at ginagawa mo?
*****edi.. ehh.. yung kasama ko na lang.. duh!!

15. Sino mas karapat dapat Ang taong binigay ang kanyang mundo para lang sayo o ang taong ninanais mong sakupin ang kanyang mundo?
*****the one who gave up his world for me.. masyado na ata akong mapagbigay sa may gusto sakin nu??

16. Sino handa mong piliin - Ang taong handa kang masaktan para lang sa knya o ang taong ayaw kang masasaktan?
*****edi.. hmm.. the last toughie.. hmm.. dapat pareho na lang kami ehh nu?? handa akong masaktan para dun sa taong ayaw akong masaktan.. gets??!!

[another stupidity of friendster...]

your ordinary surveys.. weeeeheeee...

2004-12-17T15:57:00.000+08:00

1) brand of ur handy phone? ** nokia.. gosh how i hate my dangg phone!! hihi

2) what'll you do if you see ur gf/bf hugging a guy/girl? ** depends on who he's huggin'.. of course gonna ask quessies first before assuming!!

3) have a gf/bf? ** nah

4) have ur own room? ** nah.. unfortunately.. i sleep almost anywhere in this house.. wooohooo..

5) fav pet ? ** i got only one pet and that's hotdog who keeps licking my feet when i'm around.. eeeyyyyeeeeech!!

6) one thing you cant live w/o? ** life itself.. man!!

7) where do you live? ** here in our home sweet home.. missed it soooo much..

8) what would you do if someone tells you he/she likes you? ** of course speechless.. flattered other than that..

9) how are you feelin n0w? ** excited!! but kinda bored.. getting hungrier than ever..

10) where do you hangout? ** uhmm.. here at home.. weeeheee..

11)what are you good at? ** tennis.. and bloggin.. haha!!

12) what is it bout a person you cant stand? **ung masyadong magparinig.. duwag ika nga!!

13) what do you want? **freedom?? for christmas.. it's gonna be a brand new samsung phone.. whooopeee!!

14) a word that describes you? ** goal-oriented.. one word na yun nu..

15) what is ur dream? ** to be a successful civil eng'r livin' with a happy family in a posperous life.. whooopeeee!!

16) day/nite? **uhm.. day..

17) sunset/sunrise? **sunrise.. heard the saying about the first sunrise of the year?? i love that!!

18) like a romantic bf/gf? **yeah.. sweet nga ehh!!

19) what is it bout the opposite gender that attracts you? **dunno.. appearance?? well.. kakulitan and talkativeness..

20) are you an independent person? **i do hope so

21) do you like school? **not much.. but i like the social chu chu ever i get there.. hihi

22) are you stubborn? **nah

23) believe in God? **korzz.. i'm religious you know..

24) ur favourite sport? **uhm.. tennis??

25) believe in fate? ** yep

26) get pissed off easily? **nah

27) like ur parents? ** no.. i love 'em!! ;D

28) are ya a materialistic person? **not much

29) believe in love? ** yes

30) will you get a tattoo? ** nah.. and i guess never..

31) smoke? ** nah

32) club / pub? **love to enter one..

33) will you forgive ur gf/bf if he cheats on you? **yeah.. forgive and forget lol.. but it doesn't necessarily mean we're still together.. forgive him and let go.. that's one of my best choice.. lol..

34) will you expect ur gf/bf to forgive you? ** uhm.. hopefully

35) were you on a trip recently? ** yeah.. trip to the e.r.. dangg!!

(".) friendster.com (.")

why am i bloggin' anyway??

2004-12-17T14:27:00.000+08:00

up until this hour.. i'm still pretty mad with whatever happened just awhile ago.. dangg!! how i hate 'em for that stupid disconnection!!

well anyways.. what do we have here now?? got nothing more but to.. sigh.. do it all over again.. weeeehh..

so.. what was that i was supposed to be postin' awhile ago huh?? well..

you see.. i've been reminiscing awhile ago on why blog.. yeah .. the silly question's up on me now.. now why?? don't you think so?? why do i blog??

well.. first and foremost.. i blog because.. i simply like bloggin'.. and i feel like bloggin'.. you know.. i feel like writing my thoughts away and speakin' my mind in public.. just like everybody else.. i guess..

the first time i heard about this bloggin' thing.. i ignored it.. i just thought that it's just a waste of time doing such things.. but now.. i still think the same.. but it's a little different you know.. 'cause as you can see.. it's becomin' a quite good hobby now.. another one of my addictions.. yeah.. hehe..

my primary purpose for bloggin' is to.. well.. actually.. improve something.. hopefully.. some talent here i call.. you know.. writing.. yeah.. i love writing.. just like others do.. i love writing my thoughts away.. well well well.. at first.. i thought i got here some hobby-talent that i can improve on.. i dreamed before one day.. i'm gonna be some kind of a writer or journalist myself.. well.. imagine that!!

now.. well.. it's not simply gone.. it's still there you know.. but not as much as before.. wherein i almost dreamed of myself as a journalist someday.. well well..

you know what?? i keep here a diary.. yeah.. old fashioned huh?? but who the heck cares anyway?? i keep a diary so that i can get hold of my life.. i can see me life now.. in a simple book.. yeah.. in a simple but very meaningful diary..

they're right when they said that reminiscing is pretty good for you.. yeah.. you get to learn from your mistakes.. oh well.. other than that.. isn't it marvelous to simply remember both the past you won't ever forget and the past you simply wish didn't happen?? well.. that's me all right!! i love reminiscin'.. even if it means remembering both the bitter and sweet pasts.. weeeeheeee.. feels like cloud nine.. haha!!

right now.. i'm bloggin'.. high-tech isn't it?? yeah.. no more writing.. just publishing.. and besides.. with my diary.. i don't let anyone read it.. now i got a blog.. everyone will know what's on my mind now.. and surely.. everyone will know too the real me.. hihi..

for your info.. i don't speak alot.. i'm confident too you know but i seldom speak my mind.. but when i do.. i tell or communicate my thoughts to only a few people.. like my sis my bhez and my closest friends.. close as in those i trust and those who trust me too..

hmmm.. how about you?? why do you blog?? tell me.. tell us.. reply on my feedback link and let me know what's on your mind now.. hope to hear from you soon!!

bye now.. that's all now.. see ya!! ;D

wa na ko magawa dito ngayon... hay...

2004-12-17T14:07:00.000+08:00

what type of guy/ GIRL(?) are you?

1. moody? => not quite.. bait ata to!! hehe..

2. papansin? => nah.. don't like much attention..

3. duwag sa dilim? => well.. not in the dark.. in insects you know!! haha!!

4. warfreak? =>nowee.. peace maker nga ehh.. hihi

5. chinita, mestisa, morena? => chinita mestisa.. but not much.. i mean.. di din naman ako ganon kaitiman ehh.. hihi..

6. patapon? => patapon ka jan.. patapon kita jan ehh!!

7. materialistic? => nah.. all i need for christmas is you!! hihi

8. choosy? => i guess.. but then again.. i'm not quite.. patient nga to ehh.. connection!! hih

9. sweet? => korzz!! love people.. but not sooo much..

10. corny? => minsan..hehe.. lahat naman ehh!! to talaga oh!!

11. mapagmura? => nowee.. iniiwasan ko nga masyadong mura ehh!!

12.adik? => sa net.. bloggin'!!

13. alcoholic? => nope.. i don't drink much alcohol.. but i try to drink as much as i guess i can!! hehe.. nu yon??

14. makulit? => di ehh.. ate ko un ehh.. hehe..

15. pinoy? => korzz!! hoi!! pinoi ako!! buo akin loob mai agimat dugo koh!! hoi!!

16.matakaw? => uhm.. uhm.. mejo??

17. jologs? => nanonood lng.. hehe..

18. sikat? => yuppie.. hehe.. jokes.. not really.. simple lng akoh ehh..

19. stirero? => wah??

20. cute? => pacute!! hehe.. joke.. judge me.. not!!

_________________

what type of GUY do you like?

1. cute? => of course.. hehe.. bata pa nga ako nu..

2. sweet? => of course!! nobody beats a sweet person when it comes to love!!

3. macho/sexy? => not much.. baka talo pa ko nun sa pakurbahan!! hehe

4. understanding? => of course

5. madalas mag paramdam? => of course.. someone you can rely on anytime.. pero wag naman yung nakakasawa.. yung nakakamiss na lang.. hehehe..

6. virgin? => of course!! kung ako birhen.. xa din nu!!

7. younger or older syo? => older.. don't get crushes on lil men.. hehe

8. wild? => wah?? don't understand much..

9. party boy/gir? => uhmm.. gimikero?? i don't think so.. mas type ko homebuddy ehh

10. masungit? => uhmm.. i guess so.. challenge un no!!

11.funny? => korzz!!

12. jealous? => yoko.. gusto ko nga understanding ehh!! nu ba!!

13. chinito? => uhm.. uhm.. uhu.. uhhh.. maybe.. kaya lang feeling ko nakakasawa mga intsik ehh!! naku nman!! hehe

14. matangkad sayo? => of course!! basketball player?? hihi

15. mayaman? => uhm.. may kaya sa life.. you know!!

16. galante? => of course

17. Mushy? => yep.. sweet nga ehh.. kulet

18. matured or prang bata type of guy? => matured one.. yoko nga magalaga nu!!

19. maraming kilalang guys/girls? => well.. doesn't matter much.. as long as he loves me.. heller!! haha!!

20. kamukha mo? => excuse me?? dangg!! hihi

[",] friendster.com [."]

gosh!! how i hate pt&t now!! grrrrrr!!!

2004-12-17T13:17:00.000+08:00

just awhile ago.. i was supposed to have new postings.. alot you know!! but now they're all gone!! all because of that silly stupid disconnection!! arrrgggghhhhh!!

now tell me what?? what do i do now?? all those long endless postings that i'm hopin' all of you can read now are all gone!! now i have to do a new one.. arrrrrggggghhhh!!!

well.. just venting out my frustrations here.. 'cause man!! you too would me just like as mad as i do when such things happen to you!! my gosh!! how i hate disconnection..

i just hope that.. after this.. such things won't happen again.. weeeeh.. can't blame them now.. dami kasi ngayon online kasi naman noh!! bakasyon nah.. weeeeeh!!

that's all now.. got lots to do pa.. hope to see ya later.. at sana bumalik lahat ng naisulat ko na dito.. arrrrgggghhh!! i'm still frustrated!! dangg!!

>:-(

feedbacks accepted here...

2004-12-17T13:07:00.000+08:00

my comments link is finally on again.. hope i get to hear from all of you.. haven't heard any feedback yet.. well.. not much really.. i just hope that you tell me something out of my postings here..

that's all now.. hope to hear from all of you soon!! don't forget to comment baby!! hehe.. bye now!!

christmas time now...

2004-12-16T20:47:00.000+08:00

i didn't realize it much.. but it's december already.. not only that.. it's only 9 days to go before the big day.. before christmas.. man!! time sure flies by fast!!

last week i thought christmas is far away.. just about 2 or 3 weeks still to prepare for the whole thing.. but now.. man!! christmas is sure fast approaching!! i can't simply believe it..

now i'm right here.. wish i was christmas shoppin now.. i mean.. wish i was there in our school dancin' the night away.. well well..

right now i feel sooooo in love.. weeehh.. not that i'm in love with someone special you know..

kasi naman noh.. can you believe it?? maya maya lang uuwi na si ate.. lam mo naman miss na miss koh na sya noh.. tapos bukas naman.. uuwi na si mama!! yahu!! ang saya ko right this moment.. i don't think i can get to sleep much later on.. hihi..

whoa!! one minute i'm soooo bored with life.. the next i'm so excited about what'll happen next!! oooohhh!! this is soooo exciting.. uuwi na silang lahat.. sa wakas!! di na boring itong bahay nah toh.. hihi.. you know naman kasi for the past week life is such a bore with no one in the house.. except me and 2 old people.. weeeehhh...

now i'm back on my feet.. i'm not much feelin' lonely or bored anymore!! well.. on second thought.. i still feel bored.. wala pa naman sina papa and ate ehh.. but i'm still glad now.. happier than ever.. happier than for the past week.. whoa!! one minute everybody's gone.. now they're all comin' home.. yes!! christmas will be complete again!! yippeeee!!

now christmas will be complete for me.. and merry again.. whoa!! then on saturday.. i just remembered.. i hope the dangg party's still rockin' our house then.. i love parties!! especially i get to finally wear some of my new clothes!! yipeee!! hehe.. other than that.. hope me and sis will go simbang gabi tomorrow or some other time.. you know.. some bonding.. and i also like simbang gabi.. sana nga makapunta na ko ng simbang gabi.. for the first time ever!! hehe..

well.. that's all for now.. that's the christmas spirit for me now.. gonna go downstairs now.. think they're here now!! see ya soon.. gonna meet first my loved ones.. bye!! hehe..

(",)

love daw.. na naman!!

2004-12-16T20:37:00.000+08:00

AnG PaGmaMahaL duMadaTinG sa TaManG oRas At TamaNg paGkaKataOn..
MinsaN SiniSiSi Pa NatiN anG saRiLi NaTin KuNg BaKiT NgaYon Mo LaNg NaLamaNg MahaL Mo Sya..
KunG aLam Mo LaNg..
NgaYon Mo LanG Yon NaLaMan Kasi EtO YunG TiNataWag Na "RyT TyM"..
SoMe ThiNk Of LoVe As PasT TimE..
FLinG At TrIp LaNg..
YunG MaHaL Nya NgayOn BuKas HiNdi Na..
BoYfriENd Nya NgaYon Pero TaNggaP Nya Na IsaNg aRaw TaTawaGin Nya din Yung "EX"..
MataGal Nga,inaAboT pa Ng taOn pErO ILaNg taoN??
1?
2?
3?
Tapos PaG nagKakaSawaAn na Sa MUkHa NagAAyaWaN Na At MaY iBa NamaN Na NagTataGal LanG ng TaoN daHiL NaNghihiNayaNg sa PinagsamaHan??!
BaTa Pa MasYado aNg ganoN magmahaL..

MaY iBa NaMaN Na MasYadOng SeryoSo At SenSiTiBo Pag DatIng Sa baGay Na yAn..
YuNg TipO Ng TaoNg haNdaNg iRisK aNg laHat..
MagBigaY..
MagParaYa..
PaRa LaNg DoN sa TaoNg maHaL Nya..

MerOn PaNg Iba Dyan Na PiniPigiLaN YunG naRaRaNdaMaN Nya KasI HigH ScHoOL PaLaNg O Di Kaya TeEn AgER PaLaNg..
GuSto Nya KasIng MaGiNg siLa NuNg taOng Yon Sa paNahoNg seyosoHan Na..
YunG SiGuraDo Na Sya Na Yung TaoNg Yon Nga ang GuSto Nya makaSama PaNghaBanG BuhaY..
KumBaga "RyT TyM"..

ThErE WaS This QuOTaTioN SaYinG:
"i dont care how many lips u'vE kisd, i dont care how many women u've embraced, i dont care how many ladies hear u say u love dem, ol i care is d future..not to be u'r first but to be u'r last"..

MaSaRap MagmaHaL Sa TaOng MahAL ka Din..
YunG feELiNg Nyo SouL maTe Kayo..
Kaya Kung paRa Sayo Talaga yon..
iLaNg taOn Man KayoNg Di MagKita..
iLanG TaO maN anG MahaLin Nya..
GaaNo maN sya KalaYo O MaraMi MaNg HadLanG..
MagKiKita PaRiN KaYo KuNg taLagaNg paRa Kayo Sa Isa't isa..

HinDi HinahaNap Yan..
KusaNg dumadating sa "RYT TYM"..

(",) from friendster (",)

that bump on my face...

2004-12-16T20:27:00.000+08:00

yep.. i can feel it.. i'm right here feeling the smooth complexion of my fair chubby face.. and i get to feel the dangg bump on my face.. yeah.. a sign of.. weeeh.. pimple..

now i got the pimple.. now what?? well.. maybe it's due to those sleepless nights i got from my dad.. yeah.. for the past few days.. my nights were sleepless.. well.. not much.. of course i still get my dangg sleep when i need 'em.. but i don't get anymore of the dangg long sleeps i used to have before.. now it's all gone.. wooohooo.. :(

dad's been snoring for the past few days for your info.. that's why can't sleep easily.. i tend to tap him a lil when he snores.. yeah.. my mom said that.. that's 'cause snorin' isn't a pretty normal thing.. it should be stopped.. that's why.. i really have to be on guard at times.. well.. now i know why mom isn't used to sleepin' in their air-conditioned room.. weeeeeh!! hehe..

other than that.. well.. i'm not quite bored anymore.. awhile ago.. my butt really kicked me off my chair!! it hurts!! dangg it!! yeah.. been sittin' here for a pretty long while now.. sat in the same old chair for what?? about 4 straight hours i guess.. well.. that's life now you know!! well.. now you know!! hehe..

gotta stop this now.. been blogging since this morning.. ain't i?? my eyes are killing me now.. wish my dad and sis are here now.. so i could stop this nonsense.. i'm only doin' this 'cause i got nothin' here to do except.. rest rest and still rest!! rest in peace.. lol

bye now.. i'll go check you all out there some other time.. see yah..

my latest addictions!! ;D

2004-12-16T15:57:00.000+08:00

I Don't Want to Be Your Friend
Nina

I don't wanna see your face
I don't wanna hear your name
I don't wanna thingJust stay away baby

Don't wanna know if you're alright
Or what you're doin' with your life
Don't wanna hear that you'll stay in touch maybe
I'll get just fineSo if you're goin' then darlin' goodbye, goodbye

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
I'm not over you yet
And i don't think i care
And i don't want to be your friend

I'll forget we ever met
I'll forget i ever let
Ever let you into this heart of mine baby
You just gotta let me be
You gotta keep away from me
'cause all i want to be is just free of you baby

Don't you come around
And say you still care about me
Go now, go now

Don't call me in the middle of the night...

You take it casually, and that's what's killing me
I'll get by just fine
So if you're goin' then darlin' goodbye, goodbye

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
No, no baby

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
I don't want to be your friend
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
I don't want to be your friend...
I don't want to be your friend

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Karma
Alicia Keys

Weren't you the one that said, that you don't want me anymore
And how you need your space, and give the keys back to your door
And how i cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me
But still you said that love was gone, and that i had to leave
Now you, talkin bout a family
Now you, sayin i complete your dream
Now you, sayin i'm your everything
You confusin me What you say to me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me
Cause what goes around, comes around
What goes up, must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around
What goes up, must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back
I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you
Til 3 o'clock in the morn
And when you came home, you'd always have some sorry excuse
And explainin to me, like i'm just some kinda fool
I sacrifice the things i want to and do things for you
But when it's time to do for me, you never come through
Now you, wanna be a bond of me (eyyy)
Now you, have so much to say to me (heyy)
Now you, wanna make time for me
What you do to me
You confusin me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me
Cause what goes around, comes around
What goes up, must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around
What goes up, must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back
I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you
Til 3 o'clock in the morn
Night after night
Knowin sumthing goin on
Wasn't home befo me
You was, you was gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy, but believe me
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceived me
And never do wha u was supposed to do
No need to hose me fool, cause i'm ova you
Cause what goes around, comes around
What goes up, must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around
What goes up, must come down
Gotta stop tryin, to come back to me
What goes around, comes around
What goes up, must come down
It's called karma baby
And it goes around
What goes around, comes around
What goes up, must comes down
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
Yo!

[",] from kumanta.com... hihi... [",]

it's 3pm now...

2004-12-16T15:17:00.000+08:00

and i'm still dangg bored!! waaahhh!!

anyways.. i just ate awhile ago.. got no more bread here at home.. but still lotsa cheez whiz.. dang!! later on its party time.. there at school.. and i ain't coming.. how sad.. huhu.. sometimes i think.. this is gonna be the worst and saddest christmas for me ever!!

but then again.. maybe not.. hopefully.. waaaaaahh!!

just bloggin' here around.. had a hard time connecting to the net 'cause of the dangg pt&t disconnection!! saw that maxene magalona blogs too.. didn't know that.. even luis manzano and paula peralejo.. well...

lately i've been checkin out blogs from popular faces like bianca gonzales and ala paredes.. man!! they really are blog geeks too!!

other than that.. guess i'm gonna go now and wash up.. wish i get to take the dangg bath i've been waiting for soooo long now.. wehh...

awhile ago i posted a survey.. well.. that's nothin'.. i'm still bored here.. can't figure out the dangg blogger.. my gosh!! trying to put up the comments link again.. dangg!! please help!! need some help here badly!!

feel like stoppin' the whole dangg thing.. and just simply delete this account.. nah.. whatta waste of time.. wehhh..

hope i get back on my feet sooner or later.. gonna check out more blogs now.. weeeeh!!

a friendster survey.. really bored here.. arrrggghhh!!

2004-12-16T13:47:00.000+08:00

1. what made you happy this week?
**home sweet home.. yipee!!

2. what made you sad this week?
**well.. mom's not home.. so is my sis.. well actually.. nobody's almost home now!! huhu.. :(

3. are you contented with your life?
**yep..

4. has someone/somebody hurt you lately?
**nah...

5. does he/she know that he/she has hurt you?
**wala nga sabi ehh!!

6. what do you plan to do to him/her?
**nothing... kulet!!

7. did he/she make an effort to ease the pain?
**makulet ka din noh!!

8. are you missing someone?
**yep.. my family.. my friends.. haiii...

9. how are you feeling at the moment?
**bored.. sakit na ng pwet koh cuz of the dangg hard chair!! yay!!

10. what/who made you feel that way?
**the dangg chair.. it's really hard kickin' you know!!

11. are you the type of person who easily gets hurt?
**nah.. i'm not quite that sensitive you know...

12. how do you cope up with the hurt?
**i do somethin' to ease the pain of course.. like talk to someone.. or even blog!! hihi..

13. do you cry?
**yup... :'(

14. have you ever been to a point in your life that you can say you got lost?
**uhm.. yeah i guess.. but then again.. i'm back on my feet!! :D

15. how did you go about that part in your life?
**well.. did naughty things.. but then again.. pinagsisisihan koh nah un ngaun nu.. hihi.. mga kalokohan koh!! but i don't regret doin' such silliness.. after all.. i only live my life once!! ;D

16. the last movie/s you've watched?
**the ring.. hihi.. kanikanina lang.. hihi..

17. the last tv show you watched?
**uhm.. mornin' star.. you know.. about fpj.. still!! duh!!

18. the last song you heard?
**uhm.. wag na wag.. dunno...

19. the last thing you bought?
**pandesal?? monai?? ehhh??

20. the last place you went?
**can't remember... hospital??

21. the last food you ate?
**my lola's adobo ata yon...

22. the last thing you heard from your parents?
**musta na paborit koh?? ;D

23. the last thing you said to your parents?
**ok.. mapula.. hihi..

24. the last thing you said to one of your friends?
**abangan nio koh!! hihi!!

25. the last thing you read?
**this survey... weh...

26. the last person you called?
**don't remember.. but my mom called me just a while ago...

27. the last person who called you?
**mom...

28. the last person you texted?
**i guess mom...

29. the last person who texted you?
**mom.. weh!!

30. the last person who said good night last?
**my sis.. and mah dad.. hihi!!

31. the last person who gave you a testimonial?
**diana!! kagulatgulat!! hehehe.. better give her one!!

32. the last person who messaged you?
**mom

33. the last person/s you're with?
**my grannies.. you know!!

34. the last person you kissed today?
**dad.. i guess.. yesterday pa ehh!! wehh..

35. the last person you think of before going to sleep?
**my sis?? hihi

36. the last thing you did?
**typed.. hihi!!

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these surveys pretty make up my mood!! hihi!! love 'em!! got it from no other than... friendster!! ;D

feel like endin' my life now.. yay!!

2004-12-16T12:37:00.000+08:00

life is such a bore you know.. i don't know.. got nothing here now.. all i do at home is simply rest rest and still rest!! everyday i guess the same things happen.. i get up.. i eat breakfast.. i watch tv.. then lunch time.. then still watchin'.. then what?? sleep again and wake up and sleep again?? wah?? i get no life out of this silly dangg thing!!

last week.. we all know now that i was sick.. sick with the dangg dengue.. and i don't want it any longer.. last week.. i felt like.. dying.. yeah.. believe it or not.. i can't believe that i'm here now bloggin'.. never thought i could do this again.. sooo glad i'm finally home..

what did i do in the hospital?? nothing!! i just simply lie there.. with the i.v attached on me.. they check my blood pressure and my temperature for about every 4 hours i guess.. then they also go check my blood everyday.. man!! the dangg injection just kills me!! then they also give me the dangg antibiotic every 6 hours in my i.v.. in my dextrose you know.. man!! how i hate 'em!!

my only consolation is that the nurses there are pretty cute.. well.. some are.. some are sweet.. then there's also the 2 students who checked me.. they even got their head nurse to take care of 'em.. take care of whatever they do since they're just startin'.. since they're still students.. duh!!

my other consolation also is my sis.. sooo glad she visited me once.. 'cause man!! boredome kills me there!! got nothing but watch and watch and still watch tv!! dangg!!

then on sunday.. doc visited me.. she told me i can go now!! yahu!! then in the afternoon.. the nurse took the dangg i.v off me.. and i'm off now!! i'm just plain waiting for mom to fetch me.. hihi..

but the side effects of dengue is still to come now.. then my head ached real hard.. and there i threw up.. in the car of course.. and my head still aches in pain.. dangg!! it's too much for me!!

finally home sweet home.. slept for awhile in the room.. and finally.. i'm fine again!! sooo glad i'm home sweet home!!

the next day monday.. lola came.. she came with her entourage.. biboy and fionah.. hihi.. biboy's gettin' bigger and bigger every now and then!! and his thinkin' is also improving!! now he knows me.. hehe.. but he isn't angry with me anymore.. hehe.. and fionah.. well.. she's still like that.. gettin' on the nerves of other people.. you know kids!! hehe..

now boredom strikes.. man how i wish sis is here now!! all i can do now is.. dangg!! watch eat and sleep!! what am i to do without bloggin?? thank goodness bloggin' was invented!! yahu!!

there you go.. my neighbor also happen to have the same sickness as i do.. i mean did.. since it's past already.. now.. i can go back to normal.. hopefully!! back to bloggin' again!!

[",]

it's been a while.. gettin' bored now.. yawn!!

2004-12-16T11:57:00.000+08:00

it's still quite early to eat lunch now.. but we just did.. about 30 minutes ago.. lemme see..

where have i been?? what have i been up to lately?? you see.. i'm not home sweet home for the past week.. i'm in the hospital.. and whatever happened?? got sick you know.. as usual!! the same ol' sick me.. duh!!

life is such a bore in the hospital.. you know.. got no one there to talk to.. except my mom.. i'm just simply glad she's there to take care of me.. and the nurses.. well.. most of them are quite considerate and gentle.. they're almost all sweet.. the doctor.. duh!! i hardly see her.. she seldom visits me.. the only good thing i guess she did was release me.. release me off that stupid den!! dangg how i hate the hospital!!

came home this sunday.. sooo glad i'm finally home.. feel like screamin' out loud my happiness!!

but unfortunately.. side effects came rushin' to me.. my head ached.. and i vomitted.. threw up alot.. even though i didn't eat much!! haha!! ok no more jokin'..

sooo happy now that i'm here.. i get to read their blogs.. i miss bloggin.. i miss y'all.. even if you don't miss me at all.. as long as i get to blog.. i get to share my passion.. my life.. my ramblings to other bloggers out there.. other blog geeks and addicts like me.. i miss everything.. lots of new things are comin'.. especially now it's christmas time.. didn't realize that huh!!

sooo borin' here now.. hope i get a friendster survey sooner or later.. right now.. i'm just bloggin'.. gettin' envy now with other bloggers.. so i'm writing now my thoughts.. so that everyone would also know that i'm bored now!! woohoo..

my only consolation now is that.. my sis' is comin' home now.. she's comin' today.. sooo glad got someone to talk to.. other than my daddy [my grandpa.. you know!!] and my lola.. i miss her sooooo much now.. especially her phone.. haha!!

other than that.. i'm also glad the stupid infocom card finally worked!! i'm using it right now.. it's free you know.. since we already got pt&t.. dad brought it about a month ago.. and now it's finally useful for me.. good thing.. or else my dad's money would've been a total waste!! duh!!

well.. today's the final day of exams right?? yay!! but i'm not in school you know.. i'm right here bloggin'.. remember?? yeah.. still resting.. rest in peace!! yay!! hihi..

i'm quite strong now.. rather last sunday when i almost can't stand up due to that stupid headache!! now i can blog and i'm not throwin' up anymore!! yipeee!!

speaking of rest in peace.. just remembered that the ol' fpj.. the action king.. king of philippine movies.. just died last december 14.. soooo sad.. for his fans that is!! he died at 65 years old.. still young huh.. he made almost 200 movies for his past 60+ years in show business.. alot of people went to his funeral.. he must've been real good you know..

anyways.. other than that.. i'm still bored.. wish i could go and take a bath.. 'cause my mom won't let me take the dangg bath due to what happened last sunday.. you know!! the throwin' up thing!! duh!! now i'm sooooooo fragrant.. duh!!

can't take now my bad smell.. good thing i get to wash myself.. it's just that i can't shampoo my hair.. eeeeweeee!! now i got lotsa dundruffs in my head.. it's soooo itchy now!! grrrr!!

then on saturday.. we got some party goin' on here around.. dunno if it's still gonna happen when my mom the housewife isn't here yet.. dunno if she can still handle all of this!! it's a pretty good thing for me i got to shop already.. good thing i already got lotsa dresses and clothes here to wear for different occasions!! hihi..

and another thing.. wish i get a new cell phone for christmas.. really!! that's all i got for my christmas wish list.. but most of all.. right now.. i wish the whole family's here with me now... wooohooo... :'(

i also wish sis and i go simbang gabi tomorrow.. you know.. the thanksgivin' mass early in the mornin'.. early as 4am.. duh!! i hear when you complete it for 9 consecutive days.. you get your wish come true for christmas!! hihi.. those 9 consecutive days are actually countdown to christmas.. and it started yesterday.. even though christmas is on the 25th.. there's still a lil special mass for that date.. you know!!

so.. i think this covers up everything on my mind now.. see you soon now.. bye!!

i'm back at the game!!

2004-12-14T19:47:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile now since i've blogged you know.. i just got up from my bed.. was sick for about a week and a half.. heck yeah!! and i'm sick of my dangg bed now!! actually.. it's not really my bed but i've been to the hospital.. been confined 'cause of the dangg dengue virus!! duh!!

and now i'm home sweet home.. weeeheee.. hope i can catch up with a lot of things here now.. alot changed since i visited this place huh.. and by the way.. it's vacation already.. yay!! got my early vacation now..

well.. i'm home now.. so what?? still feel like sick.. got nothing to do here.. can't blog til i drop ehh.. baka mabinat.. huhu..

that's it for now.. see yah soon.. still gotta rest.. hope the dangg power's mine sooner or later!! still gonna catch up on the latest scene.. spirits.. hehe.. bye now!! (",)

whatever survey...

2004-12-02T14:57:00.000+08:00

1.cno mdalas mong ksama sa skul? now?
> edi c jenelle..

2.ano pnaka ayaw mong subject?
> wala nman mxado.. kw??

3. ano gnagwa mo pag wla tcher nyo?
> wala.. magaral??

4.ano gnagawa mo pgkatapos ng klase?
> uwi nah agad.. dami png gagwin ehh!!

5.may crush ka ba sa skul nyo?
> wala po eh...

6.ano pkiramdam pag nakikita mo crush mo?
> kung meron man.. ipapaalam koh agad sau.. okei nu??

7.bkt mo sha naging crush?
> malamang.. kce.. kce nga!!

8.my gf/bf ka na ba?
> single and available and lookin and most of all.. happy!!

9.pwde ko bang malaman name ng crush mo?
> hinde... kce ako mismo d ko klala ehh.. wehehe..

10.ano na ggawin mo pgkatapos mong sagutan ito?
> ewan.. post koh toh.. tpos.. matutulog sna koh ehh..

11.cno kasama mo ngaun?
> dito s lugar koh ehh wla..

12.WAT IS UR PREFERABLE NAMe?
> ehh??

13.R U BORED?
> nah.. just sleepy.. yawn!!

14.HOW IS UR LIFE NOWADAYS?
> k fine.. lotsa adventures..

15. MALE BEST FRIENDs?
> noni.. mah dad??

16.FEMALE BEST FRIENDS?
> sis koh.. bhez koh..

17.OUT OF ALL UR BEST FRIENDS,HU WILL U TURN oN?
> ky sis lng noh!!

18.D LONGEST CONVERSATION ON D PHONE?
> one hour

19.D LONGEST CONVERSATION IN PERSON?
> whole day korzz.. havebn't figured out yet to whom!! hehe

20.FREND(S) U MISS AND HOPE TO MEET?
> my bhez.. miss koh nah ehh.. :(

21.WAT IS IN UR MIND RIGHT NOW?
> wanna sleep!!

22.WAT R U LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
> piano version of not a gal not yet a woman

23.DO U THINK LIFE IS UNFAIR?
> nah.. life's just fine.. full surprises!!

24.WAT ANNOYS U D MOST?
> japake..

25.WAT DO U THINK BOUT UR LOVE LYF RIGHT NOW?
> do i have one?? hope i do!! wehe..

[one of my friendster surveys]

cheated on!!

2004-12-02T11:52:00.000+08:00

I have a story for girls about dating.

Now I am 18, and I really never had a boyfriend that I could actually call my “boyfriend.” In 11th grade last year, I met this boy in my choir class. He would always stare at me and flirt with me. He would get pretty annoying at times, but there were times when I would flirt back, just to have fun.

When school was out for the summer he called me and told me that he and his girlfriend had broken up, so he obviously meant that he was single. Then we began to have really late phone conversations, and even picked a song for us.

Then one night we met at a dance club, and we slow danced and he asked me out!!! I was truly happy. I actually began to really like him!!! Then I began to hang at his house, just him and me alone! I loved it. I felt like myself around him, and I could tell him anything. I mean he called me his girlfriend!

Then within 2 weeks of the relationship he began to start talking about his “ex” a lot, and how much he still loved her, and how he wished he could be back with her. Of course I didn’t think anything of it; I mean it was his first love, and I figured he would eventually get over her.

He called me within the next 2 weeks and told me that it wasn’t me, and he broke up with me! The moment I hung up the phone I cried like I had never cried before. My best friend came over to comfort me. I felt like I had lost a part of myself...

Then a few days later I called his “ex,” and what I found out is that they had been going out for 4 months! That hit me like a ton of bricks when I found that out. And she’s still with him! Thank goodness he moved like 30 minutes away, and is going to a different school, but sometimes he comes to my house to visit with my family, because my mom adores him!

I just can’t seem to look him in the eyes because it hurts so much. It hurts that he was my first kiss, and my first “special moment.” To this day I am still hurting inside and out. I try to have fun with my friends, and they’re always there for me, and I thank them for that.

As for him, he thinks we’re friends, but I just call him an acquaintance. I am slowly moving on, but the funny thing is, I wish he was still with me. I am telling you all this because I just hope something similar doesn’t happen to you.

[iemily.com]

the interracial relationship.. weh??

2004-12-02T11:43:00.000+08:00

I started dating this year, and I was only attracted to black guys. I never really liked the white guys because I never thought they had the "lil spark" in them that I wanted. My first serious and very intimate boyfriend for four months was black. First, some background: I must tell you that my mother is extremely against interracial dating. In fact, after this experience, I found out that half of my family is.

Anyway, I started talking to this boy who was three years older than me, and he was black. He was the sweetest and cutest thing I had ever met. Of course, he had that "lil spark." I talked to him for three months on the phone, and I'd see him on weekends. My mom knew I talked to him, but at first she didn't know his color. She really liked him and she'd joke around with him on the phone. She always said that he was a sweet gentleman.

That was her first impression, of course. Then she found out that he was black. She was really upset with me because I lied to her about his color. But, after a while, she seemed like she didn't really mind. She still let me talk to him and everything, but that was because I told her that we were friends and nothing else.

I started going out with him three months later, after we had a really good friendship. I hid so much from my mother. I went to see him every weekend and practically every time I had a chance to. My mom worked the second shift, so she wasn't home after school. I'd have him come over whenever he could and we had some really intense, passionate moments. Actually, I mean hours. He was my whole world. I fought over him with other girls, I lied to my parents about him, and I fell in love. Before I started talking to him, I vowed that that I would not fall in love because I was too young. He changed my beliefs totally. I talked to him every night for three hours or more for seven months straight.

At some point in our relationship, he had to go on vacation out of town for a month. We stayed together and talked to each other LONG DISTANCE every night too. But I was usually the one paying for these phone calls. Everything seemed fine and dandy until he came home and broke up with me two weeks later.

My mother found out about everything. She was totally disgusted with me. I didn't understand what was wrong with what I was doing. I never thought love would have such a terrible punishment. My mother practically disowned me. We lost all communication, so I made a lot of decisions on my own. I decided to be a major troublemaker. I snuck out a lot to be in the same room as this guy and because he was always at this particular hang out. One night I got caught and my mother kicked me out of the house . . . I will never forget what she called me. She called me a "lying whore" and a "nigger lover." The second one has always gotten me upset, but I've learned to accept it because I am an African-American lover.

So I went to live with my aunt, which I really didn't want to do because I'd be miles away from my ex. I was still deeply in love with him. I came back from my aunt's house in a week because I thought that my mom and I could work things out. My mom said we could, so we started counseling. Now we have a much better relationship, but there's a problem: I'm still attracted to black guys. I can't change. I've tried to check out white guys, but it doesn't work. My mom always tells me that I can do whatever I want after I'm 18, so I won't have to worry after that. But I still have the problem of my attraction.

I feel that nobody can change what I like, and I'm proud of who I am. One thing that my mom and dad said always got to me, "Interracial dating isn't correct in society." It made me feel like my mom and dad cared more about their reputation than they did about my feelings. I say that you should love who you want, care for who you want, live how you want, and feel what you want. Those are deep inside feelings, and nobody can change them. We're not Barbies inside that you can dress up and change. We are real people. Each individual has their own appearance inside and nobody can change them.

[iemily.com]

first time for everything.. lol

2004-12-02T09:24:00.000+08:00

1. 1st time you tried smoking:
[did i ever try such things?? duh!!]

2. 1st alcoholic drink you had:
[white wine.. a celebration.. i think it was new year's day then.. lol]

3. 1st time you entered a bar:
[wish i did go wit my cousins last year.. :(]

4. 1st award you received:
[i guess that medal for best newscaster?? or was that for winning in the quiz bee.. duh!!]

5. 1st hero:
[superman??]

6. 1st time you were sent to the principal for disciplinary actions:
[excuse me?? you're talkin' here wit a good topnotcher!! yay!! ;P]

7. 1st goal you accomplished:
[i dunno.. mybe my latest goal to be on top5.. now i'm on top 3!! whoa!!]

8. 1st crush:
[jappy!! yikes!!]

9. 1st person who gave you flowers:
[dunno.. none yet actually!!]

10. 1st friend:
[my mom.. hehe.. lol]

11.1st kiss:
[hehe.. don't pull such question on me!! ~.^]

12. 1st record you bought:
[celine dion's.. yikes!!]

13. 1st song you sang infront of many people:
[pasulyapsulyap.. sang it in front of my 'rents.. that's too many already!! lol]

14. 1st musical instrument you learned to play:
[the piano]

15. 1st local & foreign concert you watched:
[ehh??]

16. 1st celebrity you saw in person:
[me!! lol]

17. 1st TV show you really liked:
[korzz cartoons..]

18. 1st book you bought:
[korzz my 1st nursery book.. lol]

19. 1st sport you played:
[tennis?? badminton.. wehe..]

20. 1st sleepover:
[wehh??]

21. 1st terrible fight:
[korzz wit my sis.. lol]

22. 1st inaanak (first godchild?)
[biboy?? or is it?]

23. 1st debut (filipino girly bday party) party you attended:
[ate rochelle's debut]

24. 1st bestfriend:
[dianne mamaid..]

25. 1st wedding you attended:
[one of my relatives' wed.. kent rmember hu and when!! weh..]

26. 1st person who greeted you on your last bday:
[kent rmember.. 'rents..]

27. 1st friend in friendster:
[kent rmember..]

28. 1st cellphone:
[Nokia 3310. hehehehe. faithful!!]

29. 1st cellphone ringtone:
[dreamin' of you.. til now!! wehehe..]

30. 1st collection:
[dunno.. kent rmember.. do i have one?? collection of blog skins.. hehe.. lol]

31.1st tym u saw a ghost?
[not yet and never gonna!!]

32. 1st rollercoaster ride:
[festi wit friends.. lol]

33. 1st ambition:
[madre o teachie??]

34.1st thing u bought w/ ur 1st salary?
[no salary and career yet.. if ever.. think i'm gonna deposit it on my bank accnt.. lol.. you know how i am!! hehe.. lol]

[from friendster]

no classes today... yahu!!

2004-12-02T06:46:00.000+08:00

[thoughts of my day...]
people are watching your every move.. how annoying!! use this as an opportunity to prove them wrong by doing everything alright..

______________________________

hey!! lol.. no classes today for me.. hehe.. happy!!

anyways.. i'm right here now.. really early in the morning.. got the good news right after my bath.. that's why i didn't continue my long endless sleep now.. hehe.. lol..

other than that.. i really think i got lots of things to do.. like study.. again and again!! hawhaw!! and finish some work needed for that math week celebration..

last night.. slept pretty late finishing the math contests program.. whoa!! and then this morning.. it's been pretty hard for me to wake up!! lol.. i don't know.. i'm still sleepy that time.. then.. when my mom knocked me on the cr.. while i was taking my nice warm morning bath.. she told me the good news.. and then and there.. i was awake!! hehe.. the good news got me much into the right and pretty good mood.. hehe.. lol..

yesterday also was pretty busy by the way.. well.. i didn't sleep that late 2 days ago.. i just did some note copying and some computer-thing-y.. weh.. but the busiest part of all is.. yesterday also was our formation.. yeh.. for coa's of course.. lecture again.. after a pretty long time.. can you just believe it?? 1 straight hour lecture!! yeah!! as in!! that' why i got pretty sore after that.. alot of things announced.. lots happened.. like termination.. well.. not so formal termination actually.. they just announced the ones who'll be terminated supposed to be today.. then they also announced coa's who are in great danger of failing.. yeah.. lol.. but on the contrary.. they didn't mention anything about the pre-encampment.. duh!!

oh!! and by the way.. the wing com.. who has been juniors' or coa's enemy gave us some pretty good techniques when it come to our duties and responsibilities.. and he finally got to show his good side to us!! lol.. coa's like me think that he has no good points.. and that thing proved us wrong.. as in really wrong!!

other than that.. of course i got home pretty late.. i heard that some of my classmates went to mcdo.. i'm not pretty sure why.. but i guess they went there as a tropa..

then it was also joy's birthday yesterday.. yeah.. lol.. she had a little gathering at her house with her closest friends.. of course i'm not included there!!! weh.. lol.. the good thing is.. officers kinda forgot her day and didn't do anything much!! haha..

anyways.. that's all now.. gotta go and research some things.. like whatever we lectured yesterday!! gotta study too.. and hopefully.. i'll sleep this afternoon.. lol.. bye!!

(",)

men should learn from this!!

2004-11-30T19:37:00.000+08:00

I was beginning to regret having worn my favorite red off-shoulder blouse and pleated skirt inside the movie house because I was shivering in the cold. But I took the huge risk because I knew perfectly how my favorite pair of clothing will impress my boyfriend. He loved it whenever I showed a little more skin but if and only if he was with me. I love how he compliments me - he never fails to make me feel as if I was the most beautiful woman on earth.

The movie hasn't begun, and the cold was already enveloping us. We found good premiere seats. His hand was holding mine. The feeling of having him all to myself in the dark
tickled me. It didn't occur to me that he was smelling the side of my neck as he murmured,
"Bango naman ng Baby ko!! I love you!" Another smile curled my lips.

"Wala bang I love you too?" He teased. So I answered back, "I love you too, Baby."

After a few subtle kisses on the cheek, his celfone beeped. He quickly checked who it was and buried his eyes on the message. I saw him reply to the text as if he was being chased after. "Uy, bili ako ng food gusto mo? Kelangan ko narin kasing mag-load, may kelangan akong reply-an. Limang piso nalang yata laman nito!" He whispered "La akong bulsa, By. Hawakan mo muna 'tong cell, baka mawala ko lang. You know how careless I am."

I nodded and kept the phone safely in my hands. He slightly pinched my cheek, said I love
you again under his breath, and took off. The movie still hasn't started. I closed my eyes and gave a hearty yawn. I almost fell asleep when I felt his phone vibrate violently. The name Michelle was blinking. Who's Michelle? I thought to myself. Even before I could press accept, the phone stopped vibrating and displayed 1 missed call.
The message icon was also blinking - meaning Michael's inbox was full. I had to delete old
messages to pave way for incoming texts. So I did. Five messages came in immediately, all of which were from "Michelle". Without hesitation, I opened them one by one.

Ha?! Anong wg muna ako text? Kelangan natin mgusap ngyn na! Nsan kb kc? can I text you na? Text moko if coast is clear. R u still with her?

I felt my heart do a somersault in complete confusion. What did the messages mean? Who was that HER Michael was still with? I felt cold sweat forming around my forehead and nose. I took a deep breath. So I pretended to be Michael and replied casually to the text messages. She replied in a matter of seconds.

O, baket ka ba text ng text? May problema ba? Musta? Hi Mike!!! Ano ng balita sayo? Baket ngayon ka lang nagreply? Kanina pako nagpaparamdam! Kasama mo pa ba si Shayne?

I thought I was just stabbed right in the chest when I saw my name in Michelle's text message, but I continued replying with Michael's phone.

Oo, bumili lang ako ng food. Iniwan ko si Shayne sa loob ng sinehan.

Baket ba kasi? Di mo pa kasi iwan yang babaeng yan eh hi3! Love, tuloy ba tayo bukas? Ah? Ewan ko, ikaw ang bahala. San ba tayo bukas? Diba sabi mo pupunta tayo ng Laguna?

Ako nagsabi nun? Ah oo nga pala, I promised you that. Eh ano bang plano mo?

Ano? Ikaw nga ang nagplano eh! Baket parang binabalik mo sakin ang tanong? Nakalimutan mo na ba? 4 months na tayo bukas! Dapat astig ang out-of-town natin! Swimming tayo siguro tapos dinner Alam mo na siguro ang ibig kong sabihin, love! I lay motionless.

The movie began. I felt my head spin violently - my vision was now blurred because of the big teardrops gathering in my eyes. But I blinked them away and replied as fast as I could. I knew Michael was on his way back to the cinema any minute now.

Oo sige na basta sabihin mo yun ang gagawin natin! Ang bilis ng panahon noh 4 months na tayo. Parang kelan lang O sige pano ba ang plano bukas? Sabihin mo sakin ang nasa isip mo
HONEY Hmmm. Basta bring your car nalang! Tawagan moko sa bahay tonight so we can talk
ha? Love you lots! Mwah mwah!

I tried to reply I love you too, but the phone displayed Check Operator Services.

The whole world must've stopped before my very eyes. There was nothing more I could feel except for the tears rolling down my cheeks and the freeze that was now killing me inch by
inch. I stared at the big screen while my thoughts drifted away I couldn't find the right words to describe how I felt that moment. Images of another girl and my Baby deeply in love with each other flashed in my head.

And all this time, I was sharing Michael with someone else That all this time, there was another woman whom he had his right arm around The tears were all coming out now. I know people around me were already staring, but I was no longer thinking rational. Emptiness devoured me that instant From a distance I noticed a familiar face walking up the stairs
towards my seat. I cleared my throat, cleaned my face, and took several deep breaths. Michael was on his way to our seats at the center bunk.

"I love you, Baby!" Michael kissed me on the nose. "Sensha na! Tagal ko noh! Dami kasi nakapila dun sa binilhan ko Sensha na, sensha na" He put down the plastic bags and held my hand tight. He kissed me softly on the lips and whispered passionately, "I love you
Shayne! I love you Baby ko"

I didn't have the strength to answer back. He went on.

"Oo nga pala, simula bukas, may fieldwork kami. Baka next week na ang balik ko. Hindi ko pa sure kung saan yung site, so baka walang signal dun. But I'll try texting you whenever I can, ok? I love you, Baby ko!"

I wanted to shout at him, scream at the top of my lungs, but no sound came out. I couldn't make myself say anything. I turned mute my body was as numb as ever.

"O? Wala na naman bang I love you too dyan? Dapat lagi kang nag-I-I love you too!" He laughed.

I felt something vibrating on my lap again. It was Michael's phone - another text message. Michael saw it blinking and immediately read the message at a distance. But I was able to read what it said:

Kelan ka pa natuto mgtext in small letters? (smiley face) tsaka baket honey na ang twag mo sakin? Hindi na ba love? Bago na ba? (smiley face)

There was a long, long awkward pause. I thought the world has just stopped revolving. My lips were sealed and the tears were already flowing freely - I could no longer control them.

Michael looked straight at me, with his jaw half open. His eyes were round and bigger
than usual, full of questions and fear. We just stared at each other, not knowing what to
say. I felt the whole world sink and disappear, leaving only the two of us alone in the dark.

After a few seconds of silence that felt like forever, I swallowed the big lump in my throat with all my strength and bitterly whispered...

I love you too, Baby ko
:'(

what i like about you!!

2004-11-30T19:23:00.000+08:00

1. Ano ang gusto mong kinakain sa sinehan?
** kung anu ano lang.. khit ano bzta edible!! hehe

2. Ano ang gusto mong sabihin sa taong kagalit mo?
** edi.. galit kta!! sana magbago ka na!! wahehe

3. Ano ang gusto mong ugali sa isang kaibigan?
** yung anjan lang at kasama at kadaldalan ko lagi.. lalo na pag nasa mood akong dumaldal!! hehe.. kagimikera ko din no..

4. Ano ang gusto mong palabas sa TV?
** ewan.. di nga ko nanonood ng tv ehh!! adik nko s net!! shuxx!!

5. Ano ang gusto mong ulam?
** yummy.. pancit canton.. pro kng ulam tlga.. duh ever fave adobo!!

6. Ano ang gusto mong mura?
** ehh??

7. Ano ang gusto mong pelikulang Tagalog?
** uhm.. pretty hard u kno.. di kc ko mxado into local movies ehh.. i guess jologs.. or got to believe..

8. Ano ang gusto mong sawsawan sa tuyo?
** ewan.. tubig?? hehe

9. Ano ang gusto mong panulat?
** may tintang bolpen o matules na lapis.. that's all

10. Ano ang gusto ugali sa isang lalaki/babae?
** msarap kausap at di mbaho.. un lng!!

11. Ano ang gusto mong inumin na nakakalasing?
** kht anu muna kc d q p nman nttkman lhat ehh

12. Ano ang gusto mong bisyo?
** net?? hehe.. magaral nlng po!!

13. Ano ang gusto mong awiting OPM?
** latest.. wag na wag mong sasabihin..

14. Ano ang gusto mong halimaw?
** ehh??

15. Ano ang gusto mong kuwentong pambata?
** edi.. cinderella!! ganda c cinderella ehh

16. Ano ang gusto mong kulay?
** violet lilac and purple

17. Ano ang gusto mong puwesto kapag natutulog?
** nakahiga.. nu pa ba.. hehe

18. Ano ang gusto mong ugali ng titser?
** yung alam yung tinuturo niya.. at pipilitin ipasok s utak nmen ung tinuturo nia.. chaka ung pinapaalam ung relevance nung tinuturo nia s real life or reality nu..

19. Ano ang gusto mong kulay ng ballpen?
** black violet un lng

20. Ano ang gusto mong line sa movie?
** wit great power comes great responsibility.. hehe.. eto nlng.. love is just love.. hehe.. real nice

21. Ano ang gusto mong buwan (month)?
** lhat....

22. Ano ang gusto mong quote?
** there's a reason for everything.. we make our destinies

23. Ano ang gusto mong pabango?
** waaaa!!

24. Ano ang gusto mong iregalo sa iyo?
** edi phone!! samsung cellphone!!

25. Ano ang gusto mong ginagawa sa iyo ng taong mahal mo?
** nlalambing ako.. nyahahahahaha!!

been a long tiring day...

2004-11-29T17:27:00.000+08:00

it's a beautiful monday today.. hehe.. for the first time i guess.. i said that monday was kinda beautiful.. lolz..

anyways.. what do we have here?? well.. we just got home from our christmas shopping.. early isn't it?? hehe.. you might just say that we simply don't wanna be victims of this christmas rush or something like that.. lol i forgot!! hehe..

other than that.. i'm pretty thankful that we had this christmas shoppin'.. even in this terrible weather.. which i think there's a storm up ahead our place!! and destination.. manila!! lol

and so.. there you go.. we shopped til we dropped.. yeah.. we really did such things.. as usual.. my sis didn't stop til she dropped.. and unfortunately.. she didn't drop!! haha!! lol

then i got here 7 new clothings.. yeah.. that's right.. i got new clothes that'll pretty lighten up my closets.. 'cause i pretty used my imagination just simply right.. hehe.. all i know is that i used the given money to us just wisely.. hehe.. lol

then i also got a new rubber shoes!! well.. i got it from sketchers.. so.. it's pretty not-so-unusual.. the same old style of sketch.. and of course.. as usual again.. it costed us pretty much.. just merely 3k.. lol

well.. that's it for now.. gonna eat now.. some noodle out there.. that's the product of what we just did today.. haha!! lol

bye now.. think gonna sleep early today.. just as long as i don't wanna get bonded with my sis..

but then again.. i wanna bond with her!! haha!! >:) hehe.. mwahz..

my latest addictions.. yay!!

2004-11-28T20:57:00.000+08:00

...KITCHIE NADAL...

SAME GROUND

My love
It's been a long time since i cried and left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way when i never really wanted to

Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted til there was you
Cause i have learned that love was beyond what human can imagine
More it clears the more i gotta let you go

[CHORUS]
'Cause what i don't understand
Is why i'm feeling so bad now when i know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am i the only one standing stranded
On the same ground

My love
It's been a long time since i cried and left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way when i never really wanted to

Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted til there was you
Cause i have learned that love is a word just thrown
A little bit too much of this excuse to fill this infinite of desire
And never ever have to fade

[CHORUS]

If all else fail
Would you be there to love me?
When all else fails
Would you be brave to see right through me?

===================================================

WAG NA WAG

May gusto ka bang sabihin
Ba't di mapakali
Ni hindi makatingin

Sana'y wag mo na itong palipasin
At subukang lutasin
Sana'y sinabi mo na...

[CHORUS]
Iba'ng nararapat sa akin
Na tunay kong mamahalin

Oh... wag na wag mong sasabihin na hindi mo nadama itong
Pag-ibig kong handang
Ibigay kahit pa kalayaan mo

Ano man ang iyong akala
Na ako'y isang bituin
Na walang sasambahin
Di ko man ito ipakita
Abot langit ang daing
Sana'y sinabi mo na...

[CHORUS]
At sa gabi, sinong duduyan sa'yo...
At sa umaga, ang hangin ang hahaplos sa'yo...
Oh...

Wag na wag mong sasabihin
Na hindi mo nadama itong
Pag-ibig kong handang
Ibigay kahit pa kalayaan mo...

[from http://kumanta.com]

i do have some things to say about this.. 'cause it's a joke..

2004-11-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

Pakundangan sa mga "in-lab" pero ito ay isang essay na maaring magbago sa pananaw ninyo.
Kung gusto niyong manatili sa relasyon... pwede niyong iwasan ang essay na ito. pasensya na,
magfa-finals na... kelangan mag-output ng data mula sa memory para magkaroon ng free space
pag nagreview na....

THESIS STATEMENT: "LOVE IS A STATE OF MIND"

note: ang limitation ng definition ng love dito ay ung pang-bf-gf lang...ayt?!

Tama po ang nabasa nyo.... LOVE... from the mind, hindi sa "heart". Di kayo maniwala? ganito
un....

Kayong mga girls... pag nililigawan kayo, bakit niyo sinsagot guy? Kc mahal nyo? ulul! kasi nakukulitan na kayo... E ARAW-ARAW NIYO BA NAMANG KA-TEXT, KA-CHAT, AT KASAMA, CYEMPRE MAREREALIZE NYO NA HE'S WORTH HAVING AROUND PALA. eventually, at this stage, maiisip nyo na ay, "mahal ko pala siya"... pero ang desisyon bang iyon ay galing sa puso? HINDI!!!! Kaya nga pag tatanungin nyo ang nililigawan nyo, anong sagot niya? "PAG-IISIPAN KO MUNA"...

Kaya kayo mga lalaki, wag lalakE ang ulo pag cnagot na kayo dahil ung "OO" na binigay niya ay hindi ibig sabihin na, "OO, NARAMDAMAN KONG mahal na din kita", kundi "oo, naisip ko na masarap ka palang ka-text, ka-chat, at kausap sa maghapon.. NXT WEEK KO NA LANG TITINGNAN KUNG TALAGANG MAHAL NGA KITA, baka magsawa ka pa..." Kung halimbawa ba, nakasabay mong manligaw sa kanya ung kababata niya or ung bestfriend nya, sasagutin ka pa kaya niya? ASA KA PA!!!

ETO pa... bakit mas madaling "mahalin" ang gwapo at maganda?
Kasi, kapag gwapo o maganda ang isang tao, mas madaling imaginin na sila ang kasama mo, kayakap mo... kasiping mo... OO, KASIPING... Di ba dun naman ang uwi ng mga "lab-lab " na sinasabi nyo na yan?! ...
Ano, napag-isipan nyo na..?

Kayo naman mga guys, paano niyo nalalaman na inlab pala kayo? sasabihin nyo na lang na paggising mo, mahal mo na siya? ULUL!!! Malamang, bago kayo nagising, naisip niyo na mahal mo pala siya dahil NAPANAGINIPAN MONG KA-SEX MO SIYA...or other events close to it... right?!!!

Siguro nga ay tama si AGENT SMITH;
"Love is just a word".... It has no emotions... only thoughts, imaginations. Bakit ba kung ano-ano ang ginagawa ng taong "in-lab" daw? Sabi nila, ganoon daw talaga ang pag-ibig... NEKNEK!!! Kasi, iniisip nila na under spell nga sila nitong "love" na ito kaya sa tingin nila may karapatan na silang magbaliw-baliwan! parang paglalasing lang yan... PAG LASING KA, PWEDE KA NAMAN MAGING PEACEFUL... DAPAT NGA MA2LOG K NA LANG E, PERO BAKIT MAY MGA NAG-AAMOK PAG LASING? KASI AKALA NILA DAPAT WILD ANG LASING!!! YOU SEE, "LOVE" is like fear... IT'S ALL IN THE MIND!

Bakit inspired ang tao pag "in-lab?" Kasi po, inspiration comes from the mind! Hindi un
nararamdaman... INSPIRATION is A MENTAL MOTIVATION.

Pero kung mapilit kayo at gusto niyong ipagpilitan na nararamdaman yang pagmamahal na iyan... cge nga, HOW CAN WE KNOW IF WE ARE ACTUALLY EXPERIENCING TRUE LOVE AND NOT JUST ITS MIND COUNTERPART?

[from friendster]
===================================================================

yeah a joke right.. and you know what they say about jokes?? yup!! they're haft true..

there's a part in this essay that's true.. i believe so.. why?? the part where it states that men just wanna have sex.. yeah right!! it's true you know.. i don't need to prove it you know.. duh!! as if men won't deny..

my guy cousin who happens to be studying in manila proved me such things.. he advised me and my sis that we shouldn't be in a serious relationship now 'cause man!! it's really that bad!! he said.. since he was a 19-year old fresh college grad.. that boys between ages 15 and 19 are simply sex addicts.. that right!! all they ever think about are girls.. not the gals' feelings and everything else.. just their boobs and penis.. duh!! how gross!!

well.. that's it.. i've said it.. don't worry.. there's always 2 sides in a story.. i wanna hear your side.. i want you all to tell me more about this love and sex thing.. i believe in love you know.. of course in true love.. but at the end of the day.. i don't and will never believe in love for sex.. or sex for love.. or whatever!! whether you recreate or not.. there should still be love..

ang love story ng pancit at chico.. sweet!!

2004-11-28T14:06:00.000+08:00

...PANSIT AT CHICO...

mgksma kmi ng love ko..pro sympre he doesnt knw n love ko sya kc frends lng kmi...nsa haus nmin kmi, kumkain kmi ng pancit den nlagyan nya ung plate ko sbi nya.. "ubucn mo yan pag d mo yan inubos susubuan kta"... sgot ko nmn "tlgang ndi ko 2 mauubos...ang dami kya"... pro deep insyd.. "d ko 2 uubusin pra subuan mo ko" edi ndi ko nga inubos tpos siya umubos nung tngihan ko ung subo nya..after nung panct kumuha me sa ref ng chiko (fruit) sbi ko "gusto mo ng chiko?"pro wat i rily min is Cheek ko... sbi nya yaw ko nyan. sbi ko "yaw mong ng cheek ko?" sby turo s cheek ko... 2mawa sya, sbi nya "yan b?.. gusto ko yan..." sbay kurot s pisngi ko... sobrang kilig n ko nun..pro d dun ngtpos...kinurot n nmn nya me.. sbi ko"ano b ang skit? (kunwari glit...) tpos kinurot nnmn nya me sbi ko"cge k kkgatin kta s tenga pag ndi k 2migil s pgkurot s pisngi ko.." agen kinurot n nmn nya me tpos sbi nya "ano?kala ko b kkgatin mo tenga ko?" sbay hawi s patilya nya pra mapakita tenga nya.. ndi ako kumibo.. sbi nya.. "wla..wla k plang cnbi e...ndi mo kya noh? ayy...puro k drawing" sby kurot nnmn s psngi ko...syempre npahiya me..kya ngicp me kung ggwin ko tlga pgkgat s tenga nya.. tpos sbi nya "ako n lng kkgat syo...s ilong" ..tpos nilo2ko nya ko, mhina daw ako, d ko daw gwin cnsbi ko.. puro daw ako daldal, dhil npahiya ako.. gnulat ko sya as in kngat ko sya s tenga..n2lala cia..pro agad gumanti, kngat nya ilong ko... (katahimikan) wla ng gustong mgslita.. preho kming ngulat s mga gnwa nmin. pro sya din bumasag ng ktahimikan..kngat nya me ulit s ilong tpos sbi nya "ano? d k b ggnti?" sbi ko "paggumanti ako ndi n tenga kta kkgatin.." tpos sbi nya "san?" kniss ko sya bgla s lipz..smock lng.. gulat cia me nga rin e ndi ko expect mggwa ko un pro naicp ko ngyari n e.. mahl ko kc cia dati p...tpos gumnti cia ng smock.. perho n kming thimik..wla ng ngslita hngang umuwi siya...

den ngtxt cia sken sbi nya... "ngulat ako syo... pero sorry s pagganti ko... ngreply me at ngsorry din... after dat..nagtapat n cia sken dati p daw nya me love d lng nya msbi kc nga frens kmi..so cnbi ko din filing ko...

mula nun niligawan n nya me... at ngyon Baby ko n sya...

kmi n....

naisip ko buti n lng gumawa me ng move...

Now or never...

slamat s pansit at chiko...

[[from friendster]]

the barkadahan fad...

2004-11-26T18:07:00.000+08:00

its been a pretty long day for me.. instead of a whole day rest and relax.. i got a whole day stay at school.. hehe.. quite lucky i may say.. hehe..

anyways.. got home at 4pm.. not bad enough.. did somethings for the ol' alma matter.. for our batch.. and i'm with eka and nikki the whole afternoon.. we really did alot today since there's alot to do anyways!! hehe.. alot of things to do 'cause we have a 3 day vacation.. it was supposed to be a 3 and a half day rest and relax.. but then again.. there's this deep urge inside me that wanna help out.. hehe..

anyways.. at school.. we've talkin' most of the time about friends and tropahan.. hehe.. i can't relate much anyways since i'm not part of their group.. and i'd never dream to be!!

eka was tellin' me somethin' about christmas.. we just thought that after the supposed-to-be-pre encampent today.. it'll be december and vacation is just around.. haha!! yay!! she didn't like the sound of christmas vacation 'cause that would mean that she'd be far from her tropahan.. our quite talk went on until we reached the dangg topic about our graduation.. man!! time flies fast isn't it??

well.. what do we have for graduation.. she was talkin' about our cocc grad.. i said that i don't wanna graduate 'cause after that.. we'll be 4th year already and then we'll seperate ways now and move on to college.. haiii.. i don't want that.. of course i like the feeling of highschool.. i have proven only now that highschool is really given only short moments or time.. surely time flies fast and we didn't notice it!!

while eka.. she didn't like the thought of grad 'cause that would mean that she'd be far from her closest friends.. the ones she treasure the most.. especially her tropahan.. well well..

i dunno.. i just don't like much to tropahan thing.. for me it's a fad.. now you go well.. next you're enemies.. with tropahan.. there's an initiation.. well not exactly an initiation.. it's just that you should really try your best to keep the whole gang united.. but then again.. it doesn't simply because of course you can't befriend everyone and each one got their own thing goin' for them.. your tropahan can be of 11 people with which you go out by pair.. you know what i mean??

ganito kasi yon.. lam naman kasi natin na napabilang na rin ako sa mga maramihang tropahan ehh.. meron talaga sa tropahan na gusto pa ng tropa.. at yung mga yon ehh.. they consider their tropa only their close friends.. sometimes.. others are left out since they're not close enough with these type of guys.. yun tipo bang kaya lang sya nakasama sa tropa ehh dahil kaibigan sya nung kaibigan nung ka-close nung taong yon.. yung taong yon as in the kind that treasures tropahan.. parang sya lang may gusto ng tropahan fad..

anyways.. ayun na nga.. i'm tellin' you.. it's not bad to have friends.. really.. you don't have to be a loner anyway.. i'm just tellin' you the downs of tropahan.. on the other hand.. bein' on tropahan is a good feelin'.. kasi one for all.. all for one.. may umaway sayo.. kaaway na niya buong tropa mo.. that's the pretty good thing about it.. tapos di ka pa mag-iisa kasi nga tropahan kayo.. dami ninyo uy!! may koneksyon ka pa sa napakaraming bagay kasi nga sharing of ideas din sa tropa.. at masaya pa ang gimik!! lalo na bonding!!

the down is this.. lots of open forums happenin' everywhere.. i dunno.. nung biktima pa ko ng tropahan.. puro open forum.. ewan ko ba.. kasi naman ang daming backstabbing at gossips na nagaganap.. anu ba yon!! di tanggap nung isa sa tropa yung friend nung isa.. anu na??!!

so here's the bottom line.. just choose your real friends.. your real tropahan.. your own tropahan.. don't try to make your best friend be close enough with your friend.. they are humans so they have their free will as well as we do have our freedom to choose our friends.. choose the ones whom we are sure.. whom we trust and trusts us.. whom we really know and knows us.. whom we can always count on and count on us.. in that way.. you won't be alone.. ever!!

alam ninyo ba bottom line ng tropahan?? ayun.. nagkawatak watak.. of course.. didn't remain friends for a couple of months.. may hidwaan pang naiwan bago nagkalimutan ng mga hinanakit.. and the real friends came out.. the ones na kung kelan kailangan mo talaga ng kaibigan.. lumabas din ang mga kanya-kanyang best friends.. ayun na nga..

today.. ok na kami ng tropa.. wala na yon!! tapos na yun.. masaya man o malungkot.. yun na yon.. mas masarap pa rin naman alalahanin nung masaya lang noh.. but then again.. it's lovely as well to reminisce about the bad things.. so that we learn from our mistakes.. and don't make them again..

ayun na.. haba na noh.. nobela ata ehh!!

well that's it for now.. gonna eat now.. ciao!!

their religion...

2004-11-25T18:37:00.000+08:00

i just had a li'l rambling this week.. when we studied about the MUSLIM religion in our social studies class last wednesday..

we all know that this kind of religion are kinda bloody since they'd kill anyone for Allah.. right?? and then this mohammed was a christian before he became a muslim.. before he started preaching his own thing..

tell me tell you what i first noticed about this religion and its history.. first.. mohammed saw an angel.. and this angel thing came from christian beliefe.. right?? and then this angel gabriel told him to preach that there's only one god.. right?? well.. what if he misinterpreted whatever the angel said?? what if this god that he was supposed to preach about is the very same god we christians all believe in?? just what if??

i just thought that.. if angel gabrielle told him to tell the world that there's only one god.. where did he ever get this allah thing by the way?? is it like that it just popped out of his mind and he himself just coined the word?? now.. isn't it??

i really think that there's some slight misconception here with mohammed because of how he thought his followers and also what he thought them.. he just thought them to kill for the sake of allah?? now what kind of beliefe is that?? isn't it that god or whoever he is himself made us and it's none of our business to take anything he has given us??

that's why i'm startin' to think now.. who really is GOD??

of course i still believe that whatever religion.. however they call their GOD.. it's still the GOD that i also love and worship.. the name just changed..

now.. don't you think??

busted!!

2004-11-25T17:47:00.000+08:00

hey there now!!

woohoo.. it's test week.. and i'm here!! ha!! how am i ever gonna reach that goal of mine with this kind of habit of mine?? huh??

anyways.. this morning.. didn't felt any bad or stupid more than what happened to me.. you know what?? some grumpy ol' lady messed off with me and scolded me deliberately in front of a bunch of people!! man!! i don't know what's wrong with her.. arrgghh!! all i know now is that i can't simply stand her for the moment!! ahhh!!

well.. actually.. both me and the grumpy old lady.. which i wanna call by the way mrs.damaso.. hehe.. anyways.. both of us did something in which we both didn't like that's why we felt things like this..

first.. i was standing by the finance office when came by the scene and did some nerve.. uhh!!! then she scolded me when i joked on her somethin' and went on screamin' on me!! duh!!

this is what i did wrong.. i didn't follow her soon enough.. but actually.. what i really did that got into her nerves is that i joked something on her.. in which case i never knew she doesn't appreciate jokes!! hehe..

on her part.. what i just couldn't understand is that.. why does she have to be mad and scold me in front of many people?? isn't it that she a vocation and a vow to keep to herself?? to be like JESUS.. just as any priest or nun would?? i just don't get why does she have to disgrace me and lower my precious pride because of a single joke??

of course i accept that i've been wrong.. but i can't accept that she has to scold me since she's simply nothing to me!! that's true!! and i can proove her that!! if my own mom can't scold me in front of many people even before i became aware of the world.. how much can she?? duh!!

well.. huh!! i guess that's all i can say now.. i just don't count with people like them.. i just let out my steam so that she won't get a piece of me that's too dangerous.. haha!!

i'm a good girl you know.. so i'm gonna peace up and do some good things now.. like study!! hehe.. see yah..

by the way.. i just a heard a news from the classroom.. i hear pre-encampment's postponed until january.. yay!! not soo happee not sooo sad.. just ok.. the fact remains that up until now.. i'm not quite mentally ready for such things.. i guess i'm emotionally and physically ready.. since i'm not much bothered yet by the dangg thing..

that's all now.. gonna catch up some time.. ok.. bye.. see yah...

TEST WEEK [test na.. pre encampment pa!! hehe...]

2004-11-23T21:17:00.000+08:00

anu nah?? petsa nah?? hehe...

well.. i'm here right now.. just wastin' my precious moments.. that is.. for me.. know what?? i should really be studying right now.. you know why.. expectations are endless.. i can't blame them and myself!! i got hight expectations of myself.. they got too.. well.. i guess mine should always be greater than them!! i mean the expectations!! hehe..

anyway.. i'm just here 'cause i'm bloggin'.. nothin' but that.. i'm just searchin' and browsin' for some cute and lovely blogs out there.. and my search isn't over yet!! hehe..

of course.. as you can see.. there are some links at the side which i recommend.. actually.. i don't know much about the owner of the blog.. all i know is that.. their blogs are really cute.. and they really know something about html editing.. dangg!! i just wish i do too!! hehe...

hehe.. anyways.. guess gotta go now.. don't wanna lose a reputation you know.. gotta study still.. for all of my tests this week!! woohaa!! i think it's test week this week ya'know??

well.. that's it now.. see you soon.. real soon!! hehe..

a friendster survey...

2004-11-22T21:37:00.000+08:00

Describe you experiences!

Have you ever...

lived without a cellphone for a month? korzz.. 13 yrz ko dn halos hnintay tong 3310 koh.. hehe...

cried in front of your classmates? yup.. last lst recollection lng..

smoked in the CR? nah.. nevah..

gotten drunk? not yet..

skipped a class? yeah... korzz.. hehe.. tong [cute na mtalino pa] ehh pasaway dn noh...

hosted an event? yeah...

eaten bugs? nah.. not yet.. try nten s pre-encampment.. hehe..

lied in the grass? yeah... hehe

kissed a complete stranger? not me..

sent a message to the wrong person intentionally? nah.. im not lyk dt p nman..

killed someone? not som1.. somthing pa!!

consumed a 300 load in a week? nevah!! 30 pa cgro!!

blamed someone for nothing? nah

talked on the phone just to say goodnight? nuh

talked to your pc? nah.. well. actually.. sumtymz i thnk...

hidden a chocolate from somebody? korzz yeah

slept in the bathroom? naahh.. juz a nap.. wehehe..

hugged a guy/girl who's not part of your family? of course...

lied to your mother? yeah.. guilty.. huhu

watched the american pie trilogy? nah..

fell from your bed? korzz!! when i was a kid then...

kissed yourself in the mirror? hehe.. nevah.. who would niwei??

forgotten your birthday? korz.. not!!

kicked a shuttlecock? nah..

flooded the bulletin board? korzz yeah!!

sent a question for friendster staff? hehe.. opo.. when i reported another friendster user..
let's not talk bout duh dangg thangg!! ;D

cried over spilled milk? naahh... i'm not a cry baby..

[[taken from friendster bulletin...]]

patawa ang love... :'(

2004-11-22T12:58:00.000+08:00

Nakakatawa talaga ang love. Isa siyang napakalaking oxymoron. Lahat ng pwede mong masabi sa kanya, baliktarin mo at totoo pa rin.

Ang labo diba? Pero ang linaw.

Masaya magmahal. Malungkot magmahal. Di mo naiintindihan pero naiintindihan mo. Walang rason. Maraming rason. Di mo na kaya, pero kaya mo pa rin. Masakit magmahal. Pero okey lang. Teka, ano ba talaga?!

May kaibigan ako, sabi niya dati "Love is only for stupid people." Nakakatawa kasi cum laude ang standing niya, pero dumating ang panahon, na-in-love din ang hunghang. At ayun, tanga na siya ngayon. Lahat kasi ng nahahawakan ng love nagiging oxymoron din. O kaya paminsan, nagiging moron lang.

Hindi lang kasi basta baliktaran ang pag-ibig. Lahat ng bagay nababaligtad din niya. Lahat ng malalakas na tao, humihina. Ang mayayabang, nagpapakumbaba. Ang mgawalang pakialam, nagiging Mother Teresa. Ang mga henyo, nauubusan ng sagot. Ang malulungkot, sumasaya. Ang matitigas, lumalambot. (At tumitigas din ang mga bagay na madalas nama'y malambot.)

Nakakatawa talaga. Lalo na kapag dumadating siya sa mga taong ayaw na talaga magmahal. Napansin ko nga eh. Parang kung gusto mo lang ma-in-love ulit, sabihin mo lang ang magic words na "Ayoko na ma-inlove!" biglang WACHA! Ayan na siya. Nang-aasar. Magpapaasar ka naman.

Di ba nakakatawa rin na pagdating sa problema ng ibang tao, ang galing galing mo? Pero 'pag problema mo na yung pinag-uusapan parang nawawalan ng saysay lahat ng ipinayo mo dun sa namomroblemang tao? Naiisip mong wala namang mali dun sa mga sinabi mo. Pero bakit parang wala ring tama?

Bali-baliktad din ang nasasabi ng mga taong tinamaan ng madugong pana ng pag-ibig. "Ngayon ko lang nalaman ganito pala. Sabi ko na eh!" "Ang sarap mabuhay. Pwede na 'ko mamatay. Now na!"At hindi lang 'yon. Ang sarap din pagtawanan ng mga taong alam naman nilang masasaktan lang sila eh magpapatihulog pa rin sa bangin ng pag-ibig. Tapos 'pag luray-luray na yung puso nila, siyempre hindi sila yung may kasalanan. Siya! "Bakit niya 'ko sinaktan?" May kasama pang pagsuntok sa pader yon, at pagbabagsak ng pinto.Ang labo talaga.

Mauubos ang buong magdamag ko kakasabi ng mga bagay na nakakatawa 'pag pag-ibig na ang pinag-usapan. Ang daming beses ko na kasi siya nakasalubong kaya masasabi ko nang eksperto na 'ko.Pero wala pa rin akong alam.

Pero ang pinakanakakatawa sa lahat ay ang katotohanang kapag gusto magpatawa ng pag-ibig, ipusta na mo na lahat ng ari-arian mo dahil siguradong ikaw ang punchline.

Nakakatawa no?

Nakakaiyak

happenings...

2004-11-22T01:27:00.000+08:00

alot of things actually happened this week you know.. let me tell you one by one everything that happened for at least 6 days..

first is our recollection.. it wasn't that fun.. heck yeah!! how can it be fun when its a recollection.. right?? hehe.. i fool myself sometimes.. i thought things would be unveiled.. but then.. yes some did unveil.. but still some didn't.. at least i got to know both myself and others better.. right..

that was tuesday.. by wednesday.. i can't remember much what happened.. except that we had a practice at fatima's.. as usual.. that was all.. hehe..

by thursday.. it was quite a different atmosphere.. both for us COAs and our officers.. finally.. we got over one another.. get me?? as in.. nagbati na po ang dalawang batch na napasubo sa kung anu-anong katarantaduhan.. hay nako!! di mo lang siguro alam.. i'm just thankful that everything happened that day.. nailabas na ang lahat.. at wala ng plastikan.. i believe so.. kasi ako mismo wala na sa aming batch ang plastikan at kung anu-anong payabangan ehh.. nakita ko rin naman sa kanila yung spirit namin.. spirit of christmas you know!! give and take.. humble enough to say sorry.. humble enough to forgive as well.. and most especially.. reaching out to close the gap between us..

then friday.. believe it or not.. for the first time after about 2 years.. inabot ang mga COA sa school ng hanggang 5:30 because of our rifle competition that we simply couldn't believe would happen right that day.. all of us thought that it'd be postponed due to the fact that this english fest culminating activity took longer than expected.. it was pretty good for me.. pero minadali kami kasi last ang bravo squad.. bitin tuloy.. tapos syempre kung anu-ano pang kalintikan ulit mga happening.. hehe.. sabi nila ng mga officer.. they'll post the winners of the competition by tomorrow monday.. sana nga.. sana nga ay manalo kami..

but most especially... sana ehh.. wala na lang pasok tomorrow!! hehe.. para masaya.. but i wish no classes for tuesday so that i can bring home my things and study more!! hehe.. hindi kaya ko nakapag-aral ngayon or this weekend no.. you know why.. it's 'cause of the dangg outing.. di nga ko nagswimming ehh!! hehe

well yun na lang for now.. gotta sleep now.. mom and sis are getting angry with me now.. bye!!

beach storm.. yay!!

2004-11-21T05:37:00.000+08:00

right now.. according to some weather forecaster that just saw awhile ago on tv.. said that it's signal no. 1 right now in our place.. well.. of course i believe him.. the only thing is.. we got some appointment.. a not so important one.. the one we can pass and say.. "let's do this later.."

but then again.. my dad didn't do such.. instead.. he's sleepin' right now in their air-conditioned bedroom.. after that short nap.. he's gonna take us to.. batangas!!

and what do we have by the way in batangas?? yup.. beach.. yay!!

imagine us.. how can we ever enjoy both the scenery and beach bumming when it's storming out there tonight?! other than that.. all i think is that i just feel like spending my day right here.. in front of blogger and post some blogs..

nah.. that would be some kinda waste of my precious time again..

i remember just last night.. i slep 130 in the morning already just for this! hawhaw!! that's why i just got up this noon.. just to have lunch.. hehe..

hay naku.. sabi ko na kasi kay papa wag na kaming sumunod kung ganito lang pala ang weather.. we're all still here just because we're waiting for my sister back from manila.. i hope she doesn't get soaked too much from this terrible weather!! :D

naalala ko.. mag-aaral na pala ako dapat.. kasi nga di ba test na.. i have to be consistent you know.. and i think you already know why.. isn't it??

anyways.. here goes my quote for today.. got this from smart.. simply amazing!! hehe..

[[time will seem to pass by so slowly today.. instead of staring at the clock and counting the minutes, get out there and do something active!!]]

yeah right.. ok fine.. so it tells me that this beach storm should really happen just for the sake of adventure!! duh!! as if i don't have much in mind except for my upcoming pre-encampment this comin' friday saturday and sunday.. yay!!

well.. that's it i guess.. gotta go now.. and post more blogs.. haha.. anyways.. bye now.. just keep on readin' ok.. bye.. smoochesz!!

pseudo-relationships.. wanna get involved to one??

2004-11-21T05:17:00.000+08:00

She is a 24-year old copywriter. He is an architect. They met and became lovers in college. They broke up last year but remained to be "friends." They send sweet text messages and he calls her often to make sure she's okay. They still date. They still have sex. They don't see anyone else. It is obvious that they still love each other butwhen asked about their situation, she doesn't know the real score. Even her friends are in the dark. "Parang sila, pero hindi."

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She works in a telecom company. He is reviewing for the board. They are in the same barkada. They talk on the phone till 4am. He gives her chocolates, flowers and CDs even when there is no occasion. Their friends are suspecting something. Bakit sila nagsosolo kapag may overnight inuman? Why does he hold her close on the dance floor? Bakit sila magkaholding hands lagi? Sila kaya? "He hasn't admitted anything,"she rants. "But I let him hug and kiss me. Parang kami, pero hindi."

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They work together in an ad agency. After office, they would watch movie, have dinner and stroll at Glorietta. She gave him Harry Potter books for his birthday in exchange for posing as her boyfriend to make an ex jealous. They made out during the companyouting in Subicand never talked about it. He said "I love you" once but she wasn't sure if she heard him correctly because they were both drunk then. But one thing she is sure of is her feelings for him. She likes him. And she's assuming that withwhat he's doing to her and with her, he likes her, too. There's just one hitch: he has a girlfriend!

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She is a 28-year-old virgin. He's a 35-year-old bachelor. Both mountaineers, they became close during their climbs. After a few dates in posh restaurants, he brings her to his condo where they would make out. They have been doing this for months. She wants to believe that "sila na" but then she's not really sure about it. "We don't talk about it but it doesn't really matter," she'd tell her friends. "What's important is I am enjoying this -- whatever it is."

The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage. Others call it MU or mutual understanding. Pseudo-relationships. Pseudo- boyfriends. Flings. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase where the persons involved are more than friends, but not quite lovers. Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding hindi. You just let your gestures do the talking for you.Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa. Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mgasinasabi niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi. This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages for different reasons. It can happen after a break-up. You still love each other, and you want to be with each other but you broke up for a reason. And for reasons that you alone know, ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan. It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho kayong nakikiramdam. Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso kaya kunwa-kunwarian lang muna. Testing lang. Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo kasi isa sa inyo --usually the guy --may ka-relasyon na. Kaya habang hindi pa siya nakikipag-break doon sa girl (sabi niya makikipag-break siya soon pero di naman niya ginagawa),wala muna kayong relasyon para nga naman hindi siya nangagaliwakasi "hindi naman kayo." This pseudo- relationship stage, for a time, can be fun. Lalo na kung naghahanap ka lang naman ng "kalaro." Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na maypatutunguhan kayo kasi wala talagang kasiguraduhan. So bakit ang daming nagse-settlesa ganitong set up ganoong hindi naman sigurado kung may patutunguhan? Iba't ibang dahilan. Puwedeng for fun lang. Puwedeng "buti na iyan kesa wala" or puwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom." Meaning, habang wala pa iyong the real thing, doon muna sa kunwa- kunwarian. For those who are not in a serious relationship, they would think that pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship at all. It would be fun, if all you are after for is that "kilig" feeling. Aminado naman ako na once upon a time, may mga pseudo-relationships din ako. No commitments involved. For the simplest reason that they couldn't commit, because they were either committed to someone else, or that they weren't ready to commit. My rationalization, "okay na iyun, kesa wala." Ang habol ko lang naman, iyong kilig feeling. Iyong merong nagtatanong kung kumusta araw ko.Iyong merong ka-cuddle sa beach outing. Iyong kapag tumunog ang cellphone, mapapangiti na ako dahil alam kong galing sa kanya ang message. Iyong merong laging kasama. Habang wala pa ang the real thing,puwede na itong pagtiyagaan. But then Ilearned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship, the emotions were real. Andusually, in this kind of set up, ang babae lagi ang lugi. Una, you can't ask him to commit. Since it's not really a relationship,you can't demand commitment fromyour partner. Ano ba kayo? May K ka nga ba magpasundo ng hatinggabi? You will alwaysbe uncertain about your role in his life. You can't expect him to be always there with you. And if you feel jealous of the other girls, you just have to keep it to yourself. Ano ka ba niya para magselos? Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him? You can't be sure if he feels the same way. Baka nag-a- assume ka lang na mahal ka rinniya. Even if you are dying to tell him you love him, you can't. Because you're not sure if he'll like it. Baka mapahiya ka lang. This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship. Or if there is a relationship at all. Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much? What if you have invested all your emotions and this man hasn't? What if you remain faithful to him, not entertaining other guys, only to find out that he is seeing other girls? Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships,it is fleeting. When a disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would be the end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship. Wala kang pinanghahawakan. Kasi sa pseudo-relationship, there is no "us." Meron lang "you and me," hindi "us." Buti sana kung pseudo-pain din lang ang mararanasan mo. Kaso, hindi eh. Real pain. And usually, kahit tapos na ang pseudo-relationship, hindi mo maiwasan umasang one day, may karugtong pa rin iyun. And you will be miserable, hoping to bring back what you used to have, only to find out eventually that the guy is in another pseudo-relationship with somebody else. Ang hirap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up for fun and then you'd end uphurting yourself in the process. Pero puwede naman maiwasan ang pain eh. Puwede naman na hindi mo muna isipin ang future and just enjoy the feeling, without thinking of theconsequences. But if you are certain that you are going to hurt yourself in the process, kailangan mo mamili. You can be happy and live the moment without worryingwhat would happen next. Or you can stop settling with pseudo-relationships and wait for the real thing. When I was younger and in a pseudo-relationship with an unavailable guy,a friend told me, "Sige, kung ayaw mong magpapigil, bahala ka. Magpakasaya ka. Pero huwag kang iiyak-iyak pagkatapos, dahil tatadyakan kita." Angbottom line lang naman, kung magpapasaya sa iyo, gawin mo. Ihanda mo lang ang sarili mo sa consequence. Dahil ang "parang kayo pero hindi" stage ay bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually, hanggang doon lang siya? almost, but not quite.

[got this piece of of mind from www.frienster.com...]

nothin' really.. just wanna post her songs here...

2004-11-20T17:07:00.000+08:00

MY BOO
[Usher feat. Alicia Keys]

Usher...
There's always that one person That will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

Alicia...
I don't know bout cha'll But I know about us and uh
This is the only way We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll But I know about us and uh
This is the only way We know how to rock

Usher...
Do you remember girl I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby

[Chorus]
Usher...
It started when we were young girl You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo
Alicia...
I was in love with you when we were younger You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life You will always be my boo

Alicia...
It's like remember boy Cause after we kissed
I could only think about your lips Yes I remember boy
The moment I knew You were the one I could spend my life with Even before all the fame
And people screaming your name I was there and you were my baby

[Chorus]
Usher...
It started when we were young girl You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo
Alicia...
I was in love with you when we were younger You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life You will always be my boo

Usher...
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo
Alicia...My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Chorus]
Usher...
It started when we were young girl You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo
Alicia & Usher...
I don't know bout cha'll But I know about us and uh
This is the only way We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll But I know about us and uh
This is the only way We know how to rock

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IF I AINT GOT YOU
[Alicia Keys]

Some people live for the fortune Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what's within And I've been there before
But that life's a bore So full of the superficial

Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything
But everything means nothing If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter And what good would it be?
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything
But everything means nothing If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything
But everything means nothing If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

qoute of my day... again!!

2004-11-19T09:27:00.000+08:00

[[user? you? no way! you value friends for who they are & not what they can give you.. this is why they love you & are planning a surprise for you!!]]

hmm.. i don't actually believe in such nonsense you know.. well.. but until now.. i'm still waiting for that surprise.. haha!!

anyways.. just wanna tell you that and all..

quote of my day...

2004-11-18T09:17:00.000+08:00

[[it's time to get creative! why not buy a small box of crayons, pens, or anything that you can use to give your sweetie a labor of love?]]

haha!! how funny.. yes it's true that today i wanna get really creative.. i wanna help alot in my classroom today for almost every contest there is.. like the bulletin board and our christmas nook.. haha!!

but i don't think that the quote's with me!! i never thought that the quote was talkin' about something about my love life!! how dare to tell me something like that!! hehe..

anyways.. not gonna follow today's quote.. and you know why.. hehe.. just follow my heart.. and fool around.. hehe..

relationships...

2004-11-17T09:45:00.000+08:00

maybe after you read this blog.. you will read my earlier journal.. which states that i have a heacdache.. ahhhh!!

and to tell y'all the truth.. it's still hurtin' like hell.. awww!!

now.. before i finally go all the way and lose my conciousness[like.. hallucinate or something worse like.. mahimatay..].. i wanna tell y'all a couple of things i've learned out of today's recollection.. which is all about relationships..

first is.. what is a relationship??

for me.. two or more people bonded together by communication.. that's it!! it's self explanatory isn't it?? since i made it up myself.. i made it very clear for both me and you dear bloggers..

but we all know that relationships don't end there.. there are kinds of relationship.. and even stages.. these stages can be easily remembered using their initials LIFE..

Love >> first and foremost.. the highest stage of relationship that we can achieve..
Infatuation >> the start of love.. this is how love grows.. yiiii...
Friendship >> of course.. the start of every relationship..
Exploitation >> this is a different one.. since our instructor told us that this can't be much considered a relationship since it's all about selfish.. there's no communication and one side of the relationship gets hurt and doesn't get the kind of relationship she wants.. while the other does selfishly without thinkin' of the other's side..

now friendship.. since it's the start of all relationship.. certain qualities were given to tell whether you're in a good or bad relationship or friendship.. these are respect commitment forgiveness appreciation etc.. just to name a few.. and reminiscing from this.. i have come to learn that i really got only a couple of friends with whom i really trust.. now i wonder why is that??

just as i thought.. i'm really pretty shy and extremely quiet.. or should i say.. not open to others.. i don't talk that much about myself.. that's why only a handful of people around me know me completely.. i don't share much secrets with others because maybe i might regret it in the end and i have not much trust with the people around me..

oh well.. there goes again my headache.. something tells me that i really got to end this journal right now.. oh well.. maybe i'll continue this one next week.. that's my earliest offer for y'all.. why?? 'cause for the next 3 days i'd be really busy.. oh i dang remembered!! i might not also finish this next week since our monthly test is comin' and i gotta study still!!

oh well.. that's all for now.. hope to hear from all of you soon.. gotta go now.. bye..

recollection...

2004-11-17T09:44:00.000+08:00

today's our recollection.. as for you know.. and of course.. because of that.. alot of things happened today.. some bad.. some good.. but.. in the end.. all almost end up in good realizations.. discoveries.. unity.. and peace of course.. [what the heck am i saying??!! hawhaw!!]

let's first see whatever we did this morning.. to start off.. our recollection is all about relationships.. what it is all about.. why we get into such trouble.. and how to handle properly one so that it will last forever..

arrgghh!! all of the sudden.. my head aches right now!! awww!!

hmm.. think gonna continue this one later.. hope i get to finish this sooner.. see ya..

jealous...

2004-11-16T13:07:00.000+08:00

hey!! that's right.. hmmm... i am a bit jealous.. just a bit you know.. hmmm....

now what am i supposed to be jealous about?? well...

just a while ago.. before i wrote this blog.. about an hour i think.. i was visiting some old blog that i used to love.. i mean i used to love reading her blog.. all her thoughts her ramblings her life.. everything that she wanna write!!

and that's it!! that's what i envy of her!! she always got something to write in her blog... while i got nothing now to tell you.. how miserable.. :(

but anyway.. now that i've read some of her blog.. i finally got the inspiration to finally do something about mah blog other than just edit and edit and edit and still edit mah template..

i was thinkin' awhile ago some of her journals that i already read.. you see.. i don't even know her name.. but i see her.. maybe it's because of her pics that she posts in her blogs a lot of times.. i got a conclusion that maybe.. she has a scanner at home..

i also noticed that she got alot of journals.. for just a single day!! like.. for today.. i think she just posted 4 or 5 journals!! wow!! with this.. i also concluded that she might be a net addict.. just like me!! haha!! :D

other than that.. i also think all she wants to do with her blog is to.. of course!! write in it!! how can i say so?? 'cause i noticed that she got not much sense of creativity when it comes to decorating her blog.. it's as is.. simple as that..

anyways.. i really think it's gettin' late now.. so maybe i better go now.. haha!!

by the way.. before i leave.. i'm gonna give to y'all out there her url.. i want all of you to visit her blog just as you visited mine.. i also think by the way that alot of things are happening around her and she's not afraid much to tell the world about her life...

well well.. that's all.. gotta go now.. bye!!

[[http://newlife.tblog.com]]

>> p.s.. i used to blog within this site btw!! but as you can see.. i wasn't much satisfied that's why i'm here!! ;D

finally it's weekend.. yay!!

2004-11-08T17:57:00.000+08:00

Mood: party time!
Now Playing: livin' it up by ja rule & case.. yeah!!

hey there dear bloggers...

i'm feeling kinda dancy you know while i'm writin' this one.. 'cause of course.. as you can see i'm playin' now livin' it up by ja rule and case which is kinda funky for me.. and i just love it!!

now.. what do i have to say now??

well.. first of all mah sis just arrived from school.. i mean from manila 'cause you know she's studying way far from us.. actually that's the first thing that just popped into me 'cause that's what just happened!! haha!!

what else?? well.. school just started.. good thing school went on for just 3 consecutive days.. well as you can notice.. people in school are still not in the mood for school!! you know.. both the students and teachers aren't yet prepared for the new quarter that's up ahead of us..

another thing is that.. pre-encampment is coming close by.. i can't believe it!! i just managed to go this far!! well.. after the dangg intramz and a few frustrations.. well well well.. it feels so good to be back at the ACP game!! ha!! i'm just glad that HELen kelLER is the only one i hate the most.. thank GOD!!

and so.. oh!! i happen to remember that i still got a couple of assignments here that i gotta finish.. ha!! but.. i think i'll just do them again later.. anyways.. it wouldn't take mah whole night.. i think!! haha!!

there you go.. that's all for now.. bye now!! mwah!! smooches!!

[now its playin where ever you will go by duh callin'.. gosh!! hate to reminisce!! ha!! ]

2004-10-26T20:24:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary...

I am having a very bad mood right now. I don’t know. I just don’t feel my officers today. I really don’t like them very much. I hate them? Yes! I really really really really hate them very very very much! As in to the highest level ever. I just can’t stand them you know. Most especially the WING STAFF. Duh!

But on second thought… maybe I just hate them today. Like, right this moment… you know?!

And the only reason that I can think of why I hate them this much is… maybe because of the Intramurals that is happening right now. I don’t know. I’m not so sure if this is the reason why I also hate this year’s Intramurals, or even if I will still like my officers after this Intramurals.

But I can tell you anyway… I think and I’m positively sure of one thing: I can’t appreciate much this year’s Intramurals. Wanna know why? Let me tell you a few things.

First and foremost, there are no more booths spread all over our school. Gosh! Is this really Intrams? I can’t feel it. I mean WE can’t feel the spirit of Intrams! All we can feel now is the very hold tight of our d*** f****** directress, no other than Sr. Ana.

You know what? I just can’t stand her anymore. It’s as simple as that. Just that! And how come I can’t stand her anymore? Well, I just can’t stand her rules, things that she asks us to do, projects she plans “for us and our school”, and most of all, I just simply can’t stand the endless increase of tuition fees every year. No wonder her stupid plans and rules are always backfiring through also the endless decrease of her students. Matriculation goes up and the number of students goes down.

Now, back to our discussion about Intramurals. Well, another thing why I can’t simply handle this year’s Intrams is… we’re Cadet Officer Aspirants. Can you just picture us playing softball? I’m batting and then I hit the d*** ball and run for the f****** baseman for the base and the baseman unfortunately is my officer… then I do some “side step” even before I get to the base? And that’s it!!

Okay! Let’s make it clear this time. Can you just imagine us doing our so-called “side step” to our officers in front of a lot of guests, alums and more? Duh!

So anyways, I just think that this hatred of mine for my officers and my dislike to this year’s Intrams somehow are connected in one way or another. First, I can’t appreciate much and feel the spirit of Intrams because of “courtesy” and my d*** f****** officers—-w/c is, then, also why I hate this time of the year my officers.

Well, on the bright side, I also believe that the cup is half full and not half empty. We won the “Cheerdance competition” this year [finally!!] and surely [I think] that we are leading and have a lot of chances of getting that “OVERALL CHAMPION” for this year’s Intramurals. Wow!! Hahaha!!

That’s all I can say for now. Whew! I feel much better now since I’ve let out all these feelings of mine. Finally!! Thank goodness! Thank goodness that I’m wise enough to put all my pains and happiness into writing rather than keeping it here inside me where no one will ever know it! At least now I can really really rest myself and have some more fun rather than collect a lot of pains for our coming games and championships tomorrow. Wish me luck! I mean US!

mdali nmn dw kc ddtng karma s 1 tao dba¿?

2004-10-20T16:51:00.000+08:00

dangg mga chu chu jan nmn oh!! mga lintakiz nmn oh!! trying hard tlga oh!! yuxx nmn oh.. haii nakoh.. wat can i say?? gnyan lng tlgah lyf dba¿ hehe!! nu kya un?? bzta ang baba nmn nia.. la tlga taung mggwa kng un lng nmn tlgah gs2 niang gwen dba?? ang magsipsip higop noh!! shuxxx.. niwei... mgpkta k n kc pra d lumlki ung prob dba?? wg n ntn itry gyahn ung iba n ang akla ehh prang bula ehh mgkakalimutan na noh.. kno wt i min?? ahh bztah.. wg mong icpn n porkeh d n ikw ung tnu2koy koh.. ehh bzta2 nlng nmen mkklmutan ung mga klintkang pnaggagawa moh dva.. guez u shud'v 'fessed up frst b2 doin sch movez cuz i kno dat ur not dat dumb tuh du sch thngz.. chka kng pwde u betta say sorry tuh doze pipz u hurtd out der cuz u kno.. at least u kno urslf dat u'd b 2given snce u olredi 'fessed up at nagccc k s ktrantaduhan moh dva...

haha!! dame kong pnagssbe ahh!! lang ya mung yan ehh haloz la dpat kong pkelam s isyung eto.. bt hu kerzz niwei?? hhntayn koh p b n mbktma nia koh bgo koh mgcwalat [lalem koh tsong!!] ng gan2?? di n ui!!

kya bgo p uli xa mkapmbiktma.. ko2nsenshahin koh nah xa kht pno at nang mliwnagan nmn xa between reality an drimz.. dangg!! bzta tandaan mo.. no secret will b not knwn.. as dey sed.. so 'fess up now.. kesa nmn s iba png bunganga mnggaling ung kto2hnan.. bka ung bunganga p un ehh imbiz n truth ung pngkakalat ehh dndagdagan p ng chizmax ehh dva... chka lam nmn ntn n lhat ehh npapatwad.. as long as hningi toh noh... kya nga mewon png d npptwad ehh.. kc d nmn nia hningi un ehh.. dva¿

[shuxx nmn ang speech koh oh!! ang gnda nah.. tma nmn oh plz!! haha!! lolz..]

un lng nmn mzg koh s mga suspek.. pnagdududahan.. mga npa2nayang guilty.. mga future suspekz ndn.. pati ndn s mga victimz [dhl ckat kau.. ngak!!]
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oi ikaw jan!! kng d kaw toh.. wla lng mejo cnyang koh lng nmn oras mo pra.. wla lng!! haha!! but at least dz was an eye opener.. wasn't it?? un lng.. haha.. geh hav a nyc day.. at gud lck s test!! ngak!!

mdali nmn dw kc ddtng karma s 1 tao dba¿?

2004-10-20T04:51:00.000+08:00

and so.. the winner is...

2004-09-11T14:21:00.000+08:00

and the one and only one winner is no other than.....................

THE DELTA FLIGHT!!

hahahahaha!!! gwabe ang saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya ko poh ngayon!! hehehe!! ewan koh ba kung baket!! well.. let me share to you the whole story kaya naman happeeng-happee ako ngayon.. ganito kasi yon..

kung napansin mo siguro ehh.. matagal tagal rin akong nawala.. mga 1 week at least.. di ba?? kasi naman.. as the sun goes up and down as it usually will.. lalong papalapit na ang natatatanging marching competition.. gwabe na ititch ha!!

for 5 dayz for this week.. ehh.. lagi na lang halos mai praktiz.. well.. except ata monday.. hmmm.. ewan koh ba baket walang praktis nun!! basta ang alam koh.. nag-exposure kame nun sa LITTLE ANGEL'S HOME sa tagaytay.. kaya naman saya namen at wala kaming courtesy..

but that day.. there was more happiness to that..

can you not believe it?? nakuha koh yung pinakaaasam-asam koh!! ganito kasi yon..

isn't it that sunday was the scheduled na kuhaan ng report cards for the first quarter?? well well well.. guess what?? nung monday pa lang ehh nalaman ko na.. that i'm top... top 5!! hehehe!! happee happee happee happee happee happee happee!! gwabe na ititch!!

di ko akalain.. ehh.. kaya ko naman pala ehh!! edi itodo koh nah ititch di ba??!! well......

then there's our practice for the marching competition.. ayon.. parang tuloi everyday ehh hanay.. pero okei lang.. siguro!! ang problema kasi ehh.. napahirap at naparame ang assignment koh.. bute na lang yung mga assignment na yon eh di para sa COCC.. 2 lang naman kasi para sa COCC ehh.. tapos the rest ehh medyo mahaba para sa academics.. lam mo ba for the past 2 days.. wednesday and thursday.. halos 2pm nah tulog koh ehh.. well.. ganun talaga ang junior life ehh.. super duper busy.. as in to the highest level nah.. kung di ko naman gugustuhin na magpakapuyat para lang maging AIR GROUP COMMANDER.. eh di sana di ko na rin naranasan ang maging isang tunay na junior dahil pa-easy easy lang pala ako.. hai nakoh..

wednesday naman naalala ko mai nakakaintrigang nangyare sa pali-paligid.. biruin mo ba naman!! well.. ganito lang kasi yon.. narinig lang naman naming mga COA ang mga pagpaparinig ng mga officer kai ever fave officer ma'am bartz.. na dapat daw ehh.. si mama rodz daw dapat ang wing 5.. well.. no comment bout that.. let's leave them all to our officers.. sila na bahala sa sarili nila mag-decide sa kung ano man opinion nila.. besides.. i'm just a COA and the're my officers.. nakwento koh lang para kayo na bahala sa sarili ninyo mag-judge.. di ba?? hehehe..

anyways... by thursday ehh.. medyo naka-kolekta ako ng mga VERY GOOD mula sa mga officer.. mula na rin sa mga pantitrip nila sa akin.. kasi ba naman.. si mama rodz ehh tinanong ako ng kanyang rank and desig.. well syempre nasagot ko naman yon ng tama.. tapos pinpunta niya ko kay ma'am cabral para siya naman sabihan ko ng rank and desig niya.. tama ulet!! hehe!! tapos naman tinawag ako ni sir sarmiento at natripan niya na tawagin ko daw si a2c basuel kahit na nasa tabi niya lang sya.. gwabe na ititch!! tapos si ma'am lardizabal naman nagtanong saking ng rank and desig niya.. VERY GOOD na naman!! hehehehe!! maya-maya tinanong sakin nina ma'am lim, sir sarmiento at sir cruz ang rank and desig ni a2c basuel!! gwabe!! as if naman alam ko ehh diba!! anyways.. buti na lang sinabi sakin ni sir sarmiento ang real answer.. kaya naman nung tinanong na sa akin ni sir cruz.. edi alam koh nah!! nung sinagot ko sya.. wala na lang syang nasagot..

ngumiti na lang sya.. hehehe!!

nung thursday rin pala ehh naalala koh.. sobrang todo bantay officers namen.. lalo na wing staff.. sa panghuhuli na mga magpapraktiz sa labas.. yun nga lang.. ewan koh lang kung mai nahuli.. ahh basta!! mai nahuli man sila o wala.. ehh.. happee pa ren ako at tapos na marching competition!!

kahapon naman.. bago tayo dumako sa pinakahihintay nateng marching competition.. nung umaga ehh.. medyo na-late ako ng pasok.. late in the sense that di na ko naka-attend [ulet!! tulad nung thursday..] ng 6am mass dahil lang sa sobwang puyat koh kakagawa lang nga assignment koh sa pinaka mabait kong officer.. c ma'am bartz.. tapos nun ehh.. edi tumambay na lang ako sa gym at naghintay na matripan ule ng mga officer.. maya maya ehh tinawag na si tisa.. tapos nun ehh tinawag naman kami ni nicole.. kaya nagpasa na kami ng assignment.. hehehe!! first VERY GOOD of the day!! tapos nung nandun ako ehh nagpahanap sakin si ma'am cajulis ng mga FOME members.. syempre hanap naman ako para naman ma-recognize ako.. tapos nung mai mukha na akong maiharap sa kanya.. tinawag niya ulet ako kaya naman na VERY GOOD ako!! bago ehh si sir sarmiento naman nantrip ulet sakin para tawagin na naman tong c a2c basuel!! nakakaloka na ititch!! tapos si mama rodz naman pinag-"OW" ako kasi naman nakita niya ata yun sa amin nung nagpraktiz kame ng marching.. gwabe na ititch!! kaya naman isa pang VERY GOOD!! tapos si ma'am lardizabal ehh sabi sakin ehh ang galing ko daw.. edi isa pang VERY GOOD in tagalog naman.. hehehe!!

tapos nung hapon naman edi marching competition nah.. ang pinakahihintay namin.. gwabe!! sobrang nakaka-tense kasi nagulat kami 340 pala naka-schedule yon!! kaya naman bihis agad kami nang ipatawag kami!! ang gulo gulo na naman tuloy ulit ng classroom as usual.. tapos nun ehh pinaform muna kaming mga COA sa tapat ng gym.. sa kainitan ng araw!! then we went to our places and picked our number of performance.. ayon.. 4 na naman kami.. kaya medyo mapapagod na naman kami sa paghihintay.. bago DELTA pa ang pangalawa!! ganito kasi yon..

nauna na ang charlie.. nag-present sila at so far ehh ganda naman nung kanila.. kahit na di sila todo praktisado at paos ang flight leader nilang si cuwawa.. este culala pala!! kaya yon.. sunod na ang DELTA.. nagsisimula pa lang sila ehh mewon na agad silang audience impact!! gwabe na ititch!! si amiel kasi ehh!! mga pauso!! dami at ang gaganda kasi ng mga kalokohan niyang fancy!! kaya yon.. sumunod na ang alpha.. na sa palagay ko'y alam nilang nagkalat sila masyado.. medyo may kagalingan na nga mga flight members ni pa ehh.. ehh kaso balak nito mag-quit ehh pagkatapos agad ng marching.. kaya yon!! and lastly but not the least.. the BEST.. BRAVO BRATZ!! hehehe!! napapagaling naman pala kami ehh!! ganda naman pala daw ng amin.. natakot nga DELTA sa amin ehh!! nakakaloka ititch!! kaya lang mas natakot ang BRAVO BRATZ sa audience impact ng DELTA kaya ayon ang decision.. nanalo pa tuloy ang DAISY DELTA..

pero di bale.. okei lang siguro na nanalo pa ang DELTA.. tanggap ko naman ehh.. at expected koh na talaga yon.. galing naman kasi din si amiel ehh.. well.. actually.. prepared lang po siya noh!! si sonny pa rin magaling.. maloko nga lang at di ganun ka-focused.. ayon.. ahh basta!! alam ko MAGALING talaga sila pareho.. at no doubt ako na mapagpipilian silang maging WING COM.. lalo na siguro si amiel.. well..

ayon.. natapos ang araw namin.. MCDO kami for a little celebration.. kasama bhez ko at buong FUXHT for a little reunion.. haiii.. ang haba nga ng tulog ko today ehh.. 14 hourz!! hehehe...

well.. i guess that's it for today.. ang daming happenings noh?! kaya naman todo pahinga ko ngayon.. pero bago yon.. naalala ko na lapit na pala ako mag-college.. so wish me luck.. magreresearch pa ko for my college ehh.. bye now!!

what about the cards??

2004-09-05T17:40:00.000+08:00

hey there!! what's up now??

well.. i got here some bad news.. here it goes..

unfortunately.. mom and dad didn't have the time to get mah report cards.. why?? 'cause they've been busy taking mah grandmom a ride home in our province and visiting that friend of dad's.. who is already unfortunately.. dead..

but anyways.. i spent the day here with mah sis.. who is by the way planning to transfer to dlsu so that she won't have to live in a dormitory.. we watched spiderman 2.. even though we didn't appreciated it that much.. 'cause she hates action movies.. while i can't appreciate the low quality dvd mah dad brought home.. well.. what can i say?? hmmm..

well.. that's all for now.. got nothing more here to say than.. tomorrow's our exposure trip at tagaytay!! see you soon!! and we wish me luck for our exposure.. and mah sis so that she can transfer to dlsu next year..

wazzup wazzup!??!

2004-09-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

hey there people out there?? how's life doing?? still there.. alive?? hehe!! i just knew it!!

anyways.. it's been quite a while since the last time i visited this site.. well well well.. what can i say?? huh?? hmmm.. im not that busy as you can see cause for the past few days.. ive been visiting mah friendster account!! other than that.. well.. im just doing some of mah assignments in both cocc and in chemistry..

damn!! how i love chemistry!! i really really cant believe myself!! can you believe it?? before when i was still in mah elem years until mah "sophoñor" years.. i used to dread so much the subject matter!! mah gosh!! but by the time i realized that i need that one to achieve mah dreams to become a successful civil engineer.. wow!! what a fresh change!! i just love it!!

any reason for this?? well well well.. you might say that you should blame it on mah first monthly exam results.. guess what?? i didn't perfect it.. nor anybody did.. it's just that.. i got the highest mark!! hahaha! that's why im so proud of myself!!

well anyway.. there you go.. last last week we had our periodical exams.. and as i wished for it.. i kept mah reputation to be on top of that chem exam.. hehehe..

then last week.. we had not much lecture.. except for chemistry.. which also loaded us juniors with a bulky assignment for the whole weekend.. there goes again mah busy weekend!! :rol:

well last monday we did nothing.. well just almost.. we had our marching practice at school.. and we also had practice at sch.. supposed to be!! kaya lang may CHUCHU daw ehh.. basta lam na niya yon!!

by tuesday up until thursday.. we had our little practice for the little song interpretation intermission number yesterday friday for our lady of consolation.. alot of alumni also visited us thursday.. i dunno.. nakit ko pa nga si kuya mark ehh.. nakakahiya kasi nakita niya ko magside step dun sa mga officer na yon!! hehe..

then by friday.. presentation time and it was good.. as in REALLY REALLY GOOD.. i mean.. VERY VERY GOOD!!

anyways.. after that we ate lunch at mcdo.. pero bago yon nagusap muna bhez ko chaka bf niya.. walang ya yung bf niyang yon ehh!! masyado!! wala na ngang mukhang maihaharap.. ang kapal pang mangaliwa!! bwiset!! di bale.. masosolusyunan din to ni bhezzy koh.. right bhez?? right!!

want to know something more unusual?? well well well.. i have no assignments due this coming monday!! yahoo!! that's why i'm pretty up for that chemistry assignment and i just finished that chem essay for the sci week this coming week.. whoa!! what a relief!!

well.. that's all for now.. see you soon.. tomorrow i guess.. since tomorrow's the BIG DAY.. kuhaan na kasi po ng cards!! yey!! geh poh.. good night now.. tata!! see you soon.. sweet dreams!!

ohh!! anong petsa nah?? ;D

2004-08-24T22:17:00.000+08:00

oh!! musta na buhay buhay?? buhay pa ba?? hehehe!!

anu na nga mga happening?? well.. actually i just got home an hour ago.. why?? hmm.. secret?? no!! kasi naman bumiyahe kami kina louis.. hehe!! layo noh?? pero ok lang yon noh!! basta for the win ba naman di ba??

anyways.. this morning we had our song interpretation and modern ethnic dance competition.. by year level.. hehe!! happy nga kami masyadong mga third year kasi naman.. hehehe!!..... hehehe!! talaga naman oh!! biruin mo ba namang nanalo pa kami!! hehehe!! walang ya yang song interpretation at modern ethnic dance na yan oh!! akalain mo ba namang sa facial expression at o.a moves lang pala kami mananalo!! hehehe!!

maliban pa dun.. i'm just thankful today cause finally i passed or i have submitted already my reports and assignments to my officers.. yung essay ko kay sir at yung survey ni ma'am.. hehehe!! nakakaloka sila!! and another thing today.. ngayon ko lang ulit naramdaman na isa po talaga akong coa.. hehe!! kasi ba naman kanina pa ba naman ako pinapatakbo ng mga officer... at mga kapwa coa's ko din!! noh ba naman toh oh!! buti't may mga puso pa yung mga sumisigaw ng maganda kong apelido.. hehehe!! kaya naman ang sakit ng tiyan ko katatakbo ba naman!!

oh and by the way!! share ko lang po.. i'm the highest in chemistry!! yahoo!! and that's what i have been aspiring for.. hay nakoh!! simula pa lang po ititch!! kaya naman ngayon pa lang ay medyo meron na din akong goal na mag-aspire maging best in chem.. simula lang nang malaman kong part yung subject sa pinapangarap kong engineering course.. na-in love na koh sa chem!! di tulad ng iba na.. hate na hate pa rin yon!! hehehe!!

yun na lang po for now.. tulog na koh ha.. may pasok pa bukas ehh!! geh hanggang here na lang.. mwahhugsz!!

nothing much happended... except...

2004-08-23T21:13:00.000+08:00

except for the fact that i haven't passed a single assignment of mine to any of mah officers today!! hehe!! of course i know such things aren't really funny and all.. but then again.. as said by others.. there's a reason for everything in life.. well.. let me tell whatever happened today..

first and foremost.. today's the judging of our altar for that damn altar making contest for st. augustine.. at since monday nga pala ngayon.. medyo maaga ako ngayon dahil sa makulet kong ate na gusto akong makita bago man lang sya lumayas sa haus namin at umuwe sa dormitory niya!! hehehe!!

anyways.. ayon na nga maaga akong gumising.. and as if my effor to wake up and go to school early was a complete waste.. why?? well.. maybe it's simply because of that guard of ours who opens the back gate late!! duh!! but then again it's still fine with me since they were only almost five minutes late.. and i can't really blame them for such nonsense..

at ngayon naman pumunta na tayo matapos ang appointment koh kay GOD..

we went straigh to our classroom.. me mrs. p.y eka ang nica.. punta kami agad sa room kahit di pwede para lang matapos on time yung altar namen na medyo kakaiba at 'groto' daw.. well actually artistic naman po talaga pagkakagawa sa kanya naman ehh.. di ba?? tapos bumalik pa po ako sa gym nung nagbell na kasi naman iniwan ko pa dun yung fuschia pink bag ko na mahal na mahal koh.. hehehe!! kaya naman nasayang pa time ko sa novena.. kesa sa nasa room pa ren ako.. nagwawalis walis!!

tapos nun eh nagcheck na kame ng mga test paper sa english.. after that.. no more.. practice finally!! kaya lang late kami na-dismiss ni ms.english kaya naman halos wala na rin kaming time para magreport sa mga officer..

so p.e time na.. naka-p.e na kame.. at masaya lang kaming kumakanta-kanta at nagpa-practice ng aming song interpretation in religion for tomorrow.. well.. actually ewan ko ba kung para san ba tong mga ka-epalang toh ehh.. pero sumali pa ren naman ako!! hehehe!!

by lunch of course we still had our p.e uniforms on since we know for sure that we'd still be practicing until dismissal time.. but then again mrs.cosa wouldn't let us have our lunch.. why?? just because the garter in our pants are already out of their places!! duh!! i can't believe such nonsense!! duh!! good thing yeyen came to the rescue to pass our reports.. kaya lang naabutan sya ng bell ehh.. eh di pa naman daw yon tumatanggap ng assignments pag wala daw courtesy.. hay nakoh!! kaya naman sa isip ko sa uwian ko na lang siguro yon dapat ipasa..

kaya lang nagkaron ng konting meeting ang bravo ehh.. yan tuloy di ko na naman naabutan mga officer koh!!

tapos nun nagtuloy na kame kina viola para sa practice namen sa s.i.. kitang kita na nga namen sa ugali ni mickee na wala talagang pag-asa gumanda yung kanta ehh.. kasi naman napakachaka naman talaga nun walang yang kahit isang kusing na yan!! bwiset!! pero ginawa naman naming lahat ang lahat lahat para naman sa ikagaganda at pride ng mga juniors...

hai nakoh!! right now d na koh makahintay sa song interpretation naman sa byahe tayo!! grabe toh!! ngayon lang halos kame sumeryoso na talunin talaga ang lahat para maging THE BEST!! ayos toh!! kung kelan busy na kame at third year na kame!! hanep!! pano ba naman magpapatalo mga kalaban namen ehh paalis na rin sila ehh!! my gosh!!

anyways.. until here now.. mom's calling me right now.. and i still got to ask for their permission for such nonsense.. oh never mind!! goodbye now!! good night and sweet dreams!!

some kind of a day today...

2004-08-22T18:14:00.000+08:00

hey there!! what's up yo pipz out there!! ano ba naman to!! wala na naman ako pong magawa.. as usual!! pero iba siguro ang araw na ito.. hmm.. ngek!! wala naman atang ipinagkaiba ang araw na to sa iba ko pang mga araw ehh!! because for me.. everyday is a special day.. hehehe!!

anyways.. what do we have here.. what ever happened to life??

this morning, i mean this early afternoon, i woke up as early as 12pm.. early huh? at ang sumalubong pa sakin ay pagpapangaral at.. GROUND!! as in di natupad yung ipinagdadasal ko na sana po'y di ako ma-ground dahil sa kalokohan kong nagawa kahapon lamang.. eh kasi ba naman.. di na ko nakapagparamdam sa mga rents ko nang pumunta akong robinson.. di tuloy nila alam kung ayos lang ako or what.. but actually di naman talaga po ako grounded ehh.. binigyan lang naman po ako ng.. CURFEW!! wehehehe!! este.. huhuhuhu!! ang curfew ko ba naman po ay hanggang 5pm lang ang labas koh!! huhuhu po talaga!! pano na yan.. eh di masyado na ko nitong madudukdok sa pagaaral ko nito!!

anyways, maliban pa don ehh maayos naman ang kalagayan ng ate ko.. at ngayon ay nasa bahay din ang butihin kong lola na pupunta sa kasal ng nagiisa niyang single na anak na si tito atoy liit sa may cagayan next week.. hay nakoh!! buti na lang siguro at nasa dorm si ate kaya naman solong solo ko kwarto niya.. hehe!!

buti na lang rin at tapos ko na yung essay ko kay sir cruz.. hehe!! maiksi nga lang yung ginawa kong essay sa kanya ehh!! simple lang naman kasi yung essay kaya medyo madali na rin sa aking yon.. ang kulang na lang ay yung survey ko kay mam rodriguez.. lagi namang ganito eh.. kulang kulang mga sagot sa essay kasi di ko na natatanong yung ibang coa.. hay nakoh!!

ahh basta yun lang muna for today.. got no more stories here with me.. and besides, we're about to have our dinner right now.. so bye now!! take care always anyways...

practice day... as usual!! ;D

2004-08-21T22:26:00.000+08:00

well well well... what do we have here...

eto ako ngayon kakaligo lang... kaninang 730 nga lang ako nakauwi ehh!! tagal kasi ng practice ehh.. tapos tagal pa namin nagmall.. idagdag mo pa jan yung traffic na inabot namin pauwi!!

well actually valid naman ang aming pagma-mall nina nikki tin xin at yen.. para din naman yon sa mga bibigyan namin ng aming mga gift for the coming friendship day on friday...

what the hell am i doin here?? noh ba naman toh gabing gabi na ehh nasa computer pa rin!! walang yah mong yan!!

hay nako... sana'y ako pa ay makatulog nito ng mahimbing!! ilang gabi na nga rin akong madyo puyat ehh.. dahil na rin siguro sa test.. periodical pa man din!!

last week naman late din akong matulog dahil naman sa mga pesteng 5 page back to back na mga letch na yan oh!!

hmmm.. pero ok lang din naman siguro.. kasi may mga nare-realize at napapansin din naman akong mga bagay bagay tuwing binibigyan nila ko ng essay ehh.. lalo na kung survey.. dami kong nalalaman!! both sa mga kapwa ko coa at mga officers koh!!

haii... tapos na ang araw.. palagai ko ay dapat na siguro akong matulog.. at papagalitan pa ako bukas ng aking mahabaging tatay.. na kasama ang maramdamin at napakakulet kong kapatid sa batangas.. kelangan ko pang maghanda ng mga pali-paliwanag para naman makaiwas tong cute na toh sa mga 'you're-grounded-for-one-week' things.. hehehe!!

ahh baztah!! good luck na lang kamo bukas at sa monday.. sana'y payagan pa akong lumabas matapos ang mga insidente!! [mai tono poh yan!!]

at makapagpraktiz ulet for a whole day on monday..

hai nakoh!! ipagdasal na rin natin ang mga test paper namin!! periodical pa man din yon oh!! buwisetszz!!

yun lamang po para sa ngayon.. goog night for now!! and have a nice day tomorrow... mwahhugszz... sana'y magising pa kayo!! jokezz!!

happy father's day!!

2004-06-20T15:43:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

guess what?? today's father's day!! haha!! and there will be very big celebrations or whatsoever for dad.. just a simple greeting from someone that really loves him so well.. and also a peaceful small dinner at home where everyone that he loves and loves him as well can have a real good time.. haha!!

ain't no one loves my dad more than my mom does!! hahaha!! and also as well as his two only daughters that are thankful for having him as a father.. well.. that's completely me and my sis!! haha!!

well.. anyways.. the day is just starting so might as well as tell you more stories tomorrow.. well.. it depends if i have the time.. and money!!

bye now.. gotta go and check up now on my father.. gotta greet him as well a happy happy father's day!! and maybe i can offer him some gift that i'm afraid to give to somebody else.. well.. what do i have here?? ha!! that's right!! i'll give him the common.. cold!! with a little flu and paracetamol as well..

happy father's day to all dadz out there!!

mwahhugzz..

labz17...Ü

*originally written this morning.. around 7:30 am.. while everyone else in the house is out and went to the church to hear the mass..*

at home.. quite busy.. and still sick... :'(

2004-06-19T14:36:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

i am upstairs right now sharing my thoughts and happenings that happened to me half of today.. it's so hot here since it's the middle of the day and i am here.. very near to the sun.. and it can almost reach me if i hadn't put this clothe in the window!!

other than that.. i am alone here.. with my cousin downstairs.. and my grandpa who is also downstairs.. locked in his room.. doing what he loves to do now that he's on his 80's.. watching tv..

dad is out to fetch mom and my sister.. mom went to my sis' dorm to take her home and also to change her bedsheets in that religious dormitory of hers.. while dad was called by mom to fetch them from somewhere near our hometown.. until now they aren't home yet.. dad left us twenty minutes ago.. but still they aren't here yet.. other than that.. i am also expecting mom's school supplies that i need very badly for school on monday..

anyways.. i am here in front of you.. sick and.. can communicate.. diseases!! *cough* *cough*

ahh!! i can't take this any longer!! every minute.. the phlegm that my lungs contain is getting worse!! ahhh!! *sniff* *sniff* other than that.. i also can't take anymore this stupid cough with phlegm that really hurts my chest everytime i let it out!! ahhhrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhh!! also these yucky green slimy thing that comes out my nose occasionally!! eeewwww!! and it also hurts my nose as well since i have to let out all those phlegm and use that very rough face towel of mine.. uhhh!!

well.. that's all i can say now.. dad is already home now.. they're calling me too so that i can sleep tight in their room.. whatta life!! *cough* *cough* gotta go now!! *ehem* *ehem*

a weird dream.. that's a sign??

2004-06-19T14:05:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

i am at home right now with my father in the c.r. and me in front of the computer.. currently listening to an old jim brickman cd.. and reading new life's blog or kristi.. she has some currently new blogs and pics which makes me love her blog more..

well.. as i've said yesterday.. i was sick and can barely move.. well not barely move but.. barely can i be active just like before!! other than that.. when i'm sick i am also quiet and not that talkative.. how uncommon of me!!

actually.. i wrote to you this instant simply because i wanna share with you a dream i had last night.. for your information.. i slept really well and tight last night.. maybe it's due to that paracetamol that mom made me take.. and besides.. my illness is fortunately going away.. even though slowly..

anyways.. as i've said.. i had a very weird dream last night.. but when i was dreaming about it.. i never thought that it was weird of abnormal.. in fact.. i thought that was very common that it has a tendency to come true.. or.. it already happened!! but when i woke up.. i really thought that i was in reality that moment.. i just realized that none of it can really become my reality!! and why is that?? well.. here's the story for you to judge.. whether it can be true.. just a simple dream.. or just simply a sign of some kind..

i was actually in the mall with my bhezzie.. together with this really cute guy that i never really had a crush with until i just realized that i'm completely falling for him!! well.. i fell for his simple personality which is very friendly and a complete gentleman.. other than that.. he's a real cutie that anybody can fall for.. in the mall.. mr. cute guy and me were always together and he even bought me an ice cream that he was eating that moment!! well actually.. he could have never given me such ice cream if i didn't ask him to buy me one.. that moment i didn't have a crush on him.. but when we parted and i went to my bhezzie.. i just told her that i have a crush on him!! in my dream too.. mr. cutie and i were really close friends.. just like best friends.. after telling my bhezzie that sorta thing.. mom just woke me up!!

i guess some people will think that their mom were complete k.j's or kill joy.. but for me i am thankful that mom woke me up.. you know what i just realized?? i just realized that i am still sick and that's impossible for me to simply stand up for such long period.. how about mr. cutie?? well.. i really saw him before.. actually.. mr. cutie is celebrity that just died last december!! and his personality in my dream.. which is friendly and not that boastful.. is quite far from what media men tells about him!!

well well well.. even though i also realized that my dream was far from reality.. on second thought.. my dream could be a sign.. ha!! believe it or not.. i believe in signs and wonders.. still remember my dream about that weird classmate of mine that peeled that onion skins with the use of her teeth?? turns out that she's my seatmate this quarter!! ha!!

hmmm.. i guess it all ends here.. guess i gotta go now.. i'm still sick right now for your information.. and besides.. got more assignments to finish and pass on monday.. i'm pretty sure that by monday i can attend classes and have loads of lessons and.. of course.. fun!!

bye now.. hope i get to finish those assignments today or maybe tomorrow afternoon.. and pass them to my d*** teachers on time.. see you soon!! tata!!

home sick home...

2004-06-18T17:16:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

i'm home right now in front of my blog reading some blogs from other bloggers.. wait a min!! why am i home super early when i should be studying in school?? well.. actually i am at home.. sick.. i'm thankful that i don't have to attend those stupid and useless classes that all does to me is make me sick like right now and give me a headache..

but on second thought.. i wished that a while ago.. i simply want my time to be fun and very useful and spend those fun time of mine in school.. and why is that?? well as you can see at least in school i do and get to experience lots of adventures that i can share with you.. unlike here at home.. all i can share is my thoughts that wander around school..

i woke up today at 9am instead of the usual 5:30am.. usually during school days i don't waste my precious time wandering around the house and doing nothing.. i immediately get out of bed to have some big breakfast.. after that i will go to the wash room and have a bath which by the way lasts for about 15 minutes.. after that i will again consume 15 minutes just to dress up and make up and prepare myself for school.. and of course i never leave home without some lunch to bring with me which maybe a sandwhich or anything that has lots of carbs.. and by 6:30 i'm off to school to study again and again.. and of course.. to have fun!!

today i didn't have the chance to do these usual routines of mine.. instead.. right after i woke up.. i ate some bread for breakfast and went straight to my parent's room to lie down and.. sleep.. again!!

usually.. when i am absent for one whole day.. i also spend my time usefully by either resting or.. studying for school.. haha!! believe or not.. i am really a studious person!! i can't simply find myself wasting my precious moments lying around and missing out on all the fun and topics that school has to offer.. well.. i read my books that has something to do with my school subjects.. that's all i do to gain some knowledge!! just read read and still read!!

so.. time to go now.. just wrote to you to spend some quality time and update you.. and remember anyways.. never study when you're tired or sleepy.. when you get tired from reading rest for even five minutes.. i do rest occasionally and take lots of vitamin c so that i can easily recover from my sickness..

that all now!! byeee...

living life seriously... fun!! ;p

2004-06-16T20:08:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

as an update.. i want you to know that recently.. uhhmm.. just about a minute ago.. i have changed my blog title according to my overall mood this year as well as what my outlook in life should be..

you see.. my blog before which is entitled 'labz17.. girls just wanna be loved!! ;p' is not very attractive at all.. and why is that.. well.. i just guess that the readers.. particularly the bloggers.. don't like the title itself and it's not quite attractive actually.. and besides.. the title much emphasizes on girls rather than boys.. well actually.. i haven't even mentioned anything yet about guys.. uhhmm.. i mean like in the title itself i am already implementing that only girls can visit this site of mine.. but actually it's not!! i didn't mean to say that.. all i wanted was just to share my ideas and everything inside me.. haha!! touchy but funny.. isn't it??

well.. for now i am to tell you why i changed my blog from that to this one that's really quite a bomb for me.. and really lifts up my spirit.. well first of all i am young and i should live my life.. and it's a reason why i shouldn't be bored even a single minute in my teenage life.. besides.. living life like boredom and doing just nothing but do the same old habit is like a living the life of a... rock!! secondly is that life is too short to slack off too and just do the same thing.. like disco every night.. that in time we will find out that there's more to life than just dancing the night away in discos.. lastly but ain't my least point.. life also of a teenager like me.. especially someone who is also still studying just like me.. can't always live the life of education and just education.. and even normal valedictorian teenagers can never live a week without even slacking off or having fun.. get me??

can you imagine yourself alive and breathing.. but can barely move even a single finger just like a comatose?? and can you also strive to be normal and balance if all your life all you have ever thought was education and finishing that course of yours?? ha!! never in anyone's life.. as you can see.. people that are very much grade-conscious and strive to become the most wise are quite mentally retarded and in time they become mentally abnormal.. haha!! funny quite but usually a reality.. so.. be sure to check yourself.. you might not realize it but you too are also prone to such things.. and that thing about the comatose?? well.. those are people who simply love doing the same things over and over again.. these things are either bad or boring.. like getting drunk almost every night is a bad habit while staying at home to help with the chores even when you have a nanny can really grow you some halo just above your head and become a.. slut.. someone very safe and careful that his or her life is nothing but.. boredom.. duh!!

anyways.. this year.. this will become my motto that i will always remember.. i will always remember that excitement is much different from danger and that you can never be always in your shelter and not step out of the real world.. also.. life is also too risky to live it in all excitements known in this world and is also boring and mind-boggling to live it in all seriousness.. we should put them together as if they compliment one another.. just like i said.. let's learn to love life and live it seriously.. but fun as well!!

well.. that would be all.. i just dropped a little note for you so that you're a little aware of why the sudden change of blog title.. anyways.. until here now.. tata!!

just always live each day of your life seriously fun!!

linkin park concert.. tonight.. ;p

2004-06-15T18:43:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

hey there!! wazzup wazzup??!! well today.. uhhhh.. oh it's just another simple ordinary day of mine.. except..

as you can remember.. today's the concert of the hottest and my fave rock band of all time.. no other than the linkin park!! which consists of the super cute members mike shinoda.. chester bennington.. joe hahn.. rob bourdon.. brad delson.. and phoenix (i guess..)..

anyways right now it's only six in the evening here in our computer clock so i guess the big night is later tonight.. maybe around 9pm.. usually that's when they start such concerts wherein international bands perform for the first time here in my country..

anyways.. i just reminded you of that one so that you and me and all of us can be aware of my fave band.. anyways i just thought that you might wanna here something now from the concert but unfortunately the concert is just about to start and i still have to wait for some news to come out so that i can easily update you as well..

so.. until here now.. hope tomorrow i can update you already.. bye!!

being inspired by the second day of school...

2004-06-15T18:40:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

it's already 6pm right now in our computer clock but i'm still here sitting in front of you for over an hour now.. looking outside my window from time to time to see if it's going to rain or not.. but after an hour of observation.. the clouds out here are still filled with the grayish color of threat that tells me.. hey gurl!! today's another rainy day so be ready!!

anyways.. today's another school day.. the second day of our junior life that is about to completely change.. change our personalities and traits and most of all.. our very future..

today's just our orientation with our teachers that's why we still ain't got the headache and still hangs around doing nothing just like summer.. but even though.. we already learned alot of things.. not just about our dreaded subjects but as well as about life.. our chemistry teacher loves chemistry so well that she teaches us not only to learn it but also to love it as well.. our history teacher promised us that we will never be bored with her subject matter not just because she loves it too but also-- again-- she wants us to love it as well as she does.. finally our math or geometry and trigonometry teacher also teaches us how to love math as well as how to master it.. especially those mind-boggling formulas that needs to be memorized so as to solve problems..

anyways.. i just concluded that this year would be my busiest and this year.. my best will come out and i'll just suddenly realize after ten months that again.. school year has ended with lots of realizations about myself.. this year will be the same.. it's just that.. it's completely a different world now!! haha!!

what i really meant was that this year will be just another day of opportunity that knocks only once.. it's just that these opportunities that i'm talking about are not all about academics.. it will also test my strength and perseverance in sticking with my goals and principles.. other than that.. these opportunities that will come my way starting now will surely completely affect my future as well as my outlook in life.. and i look forward for this year to hardships and trials..

anyways that's all.. thanks for reading anyways.. haha!! bye now..

linkin park live in manila...

2004-06-15T16:49:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

hey what's up there?? anything new to spill?? well.. me i have.. and it's not that big like i have a baby now or worse!! it's just about my favorite rock band.. who is eventually coming here in our county!!

can you believe it?? first there were the incubus band which is both exclusive and made the whole place of concert rock.. then the black eyed peas which turned out the manila grounds into some party bar.. and now.. my most awaited rock band that i have been waiting for almost 3 years already to come and have a big concert here in our very own native place.. it's none other than of course the grammy-nominated and mtv asia's best rock band.. *drumroll* the linkin park!! yoohoo!! yeah!! it's like i can't think right no more!! woo hoo!! time to rock the house!!

well.. actually i really didn't like that much linkin park before because they are a rock band and i really really hate those noisy rock bands.. but after a while.. i just realized that they're not that bad at all.. actually.. they really had there some unique music that is very unpredictable that no one ever thought that they would make such a great album that could go multi platinum for the first week of its release!! and besides.. they also have some hot handsome members which includes their mc, producer, composer mike shinoda.. whoa!! and also his band members which includes vocalist chester bennington.. bassist brad delson.. drummer rob buordon.. and of course.. the really cute dj joe hahn..

these ideal men have met during their college years and have successfully finished their studies.. right after they graduated.. mike joe rob and brad decided to finally make it a career and choose the super lucky chester as their vocalist.. unfortunately for us girls.. the handsome vocalist chester already has his own family while mc mike already has a girlfriend.. but event though.. we still have dj joe girlzz!!

well.. i have here right now their first album which is called hybrid theory simply because it has my fave song.. which is by the way playing right now.. in the end.. after all.. that's also the song that made me change my mind and appreciate rock bands that can be quite meaningful after all.. and since then.. i just loved music.. whether be it rock or classic.. i just love them all!!

so.. that's it!! really wish i could see them june 15 at manila.. but unfortunately i just can't.. it's not that someone's holding me back.. but there's actually something that's holding me back.. my priorities..

so long for now.. just wish i can hear news about their very successful concert.. that's it.. i'm off!! bye now..

school has just begun.. arrrgggghhh??

2004-06-14T18:30:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

today's another day and.. it has been a bomb!! ha!! like heck.. yeah!!

actually.. i told you just yesterday that today's the first day of our classes.. well.. in our school.. nothing much was really changed since no new faces around except for the freshies.. other than that.. we have new teachers.. which originally came from the grade school department.. duh!! it's like that they are naturally cheap now.. like they can't hire teachers to teach there!! ha!! i knew it.. we my friends just knew it!! teachers would be totally embarrassed to be seen in such exclusive private cheap school..

well.. anyways.. let's now talk about the bomb news in which we are all excited.. after all.. our school isn't that really bad at all.. first it's a private school.. next is that it is founded by the OSA sisters so no wonder our traditions includes mostly of the catholic traditions based from the bible.. but lastly but not the least.. the teachers they actually moved in to our place were the real good ones.. the ones where you can learn something and not regret it.. last year this also happened to one home economics class teacher who was really boring and a real pushover.. she didn't happen to mind students who completely break the law and she just can't control hyperactive people or youngsters.. just like me and my friends i guess!!

me and some of my gals belong to the highest section and our classmates are almost all the same.. except that we became less simply because maybe they can't take anymore the increasing tuition fee in our school despite the very low quality of education.. other than that we also met our new adviser.. the teacher in charge of us.. our adviser is friendly and knows very well how to deal with students.. the only thing is that she teaches our most dreaded subject which is chemistry.. needless to say.. she's also very fond of chemistry as well as making students love chemistry just like her..

after class.. since we were half day.. me and three of my friends went to the mall for some bonding moments and talking times.. when we got to the mall.. most of the time we sent by two's since we have different approaches about going to the mall.. my bhezzie likes the mall because of entertainments it presents while my talkative understanding (but not necessarily a doormat) friends wants to find a bag that would fit her like and needs and finally there's my rich talkative gal pal who shares the same approach as mine.. just go for some window-shopping and find something that you'll eventually like..

we also rode the exhilarating roller coaster that really didn't get the best of us because we already rode it before.. just even once.. and finally at the end of the day.. my bhezzie bought a gift to her cousin for her coming birthday and my rich talkative gal pal bought some food for her cousin while me and my talkative understanding friend never bought anything.. well.. except for the ice cream i had just before we left the mall.. after all.. i'm already contented with just window shopping and browsing through the racks of piles of clothes..

you know.. i'm really sorry for my friend cause she never found anything that she wanted.. uhhmm.. maybe because she didn't have a clear picture in mind of what kind of bag she really wanted and needed.. or maybe the mall wasn't that big or lacks lots of goodies that we can eventually find in some other mall or even in a department store.. but whatever it is.. i'm pretty sure that she will eventually find what she really wants and needs in some other time when she doesn't need it badly..

well.. that's all today.. right now i'm sitting right in front of our computer reading some of my favorite blogs and just relaxing myself from the very long tiring day i had today..

bye now and hope to hear something from you soon!!

girl talk...

2004-06-13T17:45:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

today.. uhh.. ohh.. i just wanna waste your time!! haha!! ok so not funny at all.. but even though.. i just wanna tell you something about what i completely did today and especially last night. here it goes..

as you can see.. my sister came home last friday night and she will stay here just until today.. tomorrow she'll be riding with dad in that big city to go back to her dormitory and just study until she graduates.. last night for me was very useful and not time consuming after all!! as usual i had my insomnia and can't sleep right and tight.. but even though.. me my sister and my mom got bonded.. as in really bonded!!

at first my sister just wanted our mom to stay in her big organized cute room simply because she wants to bond and have a little girl talk with her.. but instead of leaving them on their own.. i did what i always did and just came right inside my sis' room with only knocking twice on her door and not asking her permission to enter that big cute room.. but i also thought that my sis will also do the same thing and throw me outta her room so that they can both have their privacy.. but instead i was really really glad and appreciative that she welcomed me wholeheartedly in her room and included me in their chitchat and girl talk.. so.. whatever happened to the girl talk and bonding session??

it was really fun!! we we're all talking about the same topic that my sis should accept which is college life and living away from home.. you see my sis talks all about her personal experiences and opinions and say things like she now has lots of friends there in her dormitory and that her college life isn't busy yet since they still do nothing but note taking, assignments and discussions--just like high school life.. while i talk about opinions and the weird experiences of people i know and i say things that i heard from my friends and peers and also read from some magazines and blogs.. mom on the other hand teaches us lessons about the life ahead of us and our future and say things she completely knows about college days.

whoa!! i've never felt that super active all my life that night!! those stories and experiences and opinions and facts they entered in my mind really inspired me to do something now or this year!! since that i'm still a high school student i still can change my grades and my life so that i will land in my dream school.. other than that they also made me think that i must go further than before, have complete in myself and be strong and not let my primary emotions rule my life!! go girl time!!

well.. unfortunately our talk ended as early as 12 midnight.. that's why i was sleep for almost three hours after we attended that 6:30 am mass, we ate breakfast and i did my morning household chores!! whoa!!

now i really gotta go now because i still have to sleep because remember.. tomorrow is my first junior high school day.. i need to be my best and make the most out of it.. that's all now!! see you soon.. byee..

independence day...

2004-06-13T17:36:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

hey what's up with you?? haven't heard of anything about you lately. just wish you're doing fine wherever you are right now.

well.. anyway i'm here again in front of my journal, alone here upstairs, just writing something about my country's celebration yesterday..

actually.. to tell you the truth.. i almost forgot that yesterday was our independence day!! but on second thought.. it really doesn't matter at all.. it's still that same independence day we always have here every year with those crazy riots and rallies.. good thing it was independence day and it's a national holiday for every country isn't it?? even though it's saturday, still college students who have classes during saturday still at least had the whole day to reunite with themselves and with their family, and-- of course-- to study for that long exam first thing on monday. haha!!

so anyways.. what is all about our independence day?? well.. it was our 106th national independence day and as our law states, it's a national holiday. well that could be all that i can tell about our independence day. other than that, we also had our national elections just this may 1 and up until now, canvassers aren't yet finished canvassing and counting the votes. the canvassers, which are the elected congressmen in each district, don't do their job perfectly well.

instead, they piss off one another by keeping on asking and asking such nonsense questions that already has answers!! duh!! that's quite the problem of our country.. too much freedom that people don't know how to shut up and just listen to understand. that's also why why our country is divided instead of united. arrgghh!!

well.. gotta leave now. still have errands to do. and besides it's getting late now so better do my chores now rather than pile them up tomorrow. bye now!! see yah..

school's just starting...

2004-06-12T14:10:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

hey there!! what's up guys?? have anything there you can share with me?? well.. me i have something to share.. it's all part of a teenager's life anyway that's why there might not be anything new about this letter that i can offer you. anyway here it goes..as you can see, right here in my country, it's raining time again. it may not be raining right now here but the past week was all about nothing but rain. we are expecting a lot more of this type of weather until july. uhhh!!

anyway as i was saying, when raining time comes to our country, it doesn't only signal us of typhoons and floods.. it also signals us, students, that summer is over and it's time again to hit the school and those dreadful books.

school-- i don't get actually threatened guys. it's not what i dread about. it's the subjects and teachers that threatens me most and i dread the most! really! but.. hmmm.. hey wait a min.. now let me see first the pros (advantages) and cons (disadvantages) of what our school really has to offer...

1. subjects » the topic of our discussions, i.e. math, science, englishpros : our math this year covers my fave topic of all.. trigonometry which is all about angles and geometry and formulas!! well.. let's except that formula thing ok??cons : science on the other hand covers our most dreaded topic which is chemistry.. all those elements and formulas will make you go insane!! that's according to my sis..

2. teachers » profs, professors, ma'am.. whatever you call them!pros : i know some of my incoming teachers' teaching techniques and i also know those teachers who teaches lively and can give me better grades with a little 'good deed' (a.k.a teacher's pet!!)cons : i also happen to know some terror teachers and also of course those really boring ones that can make you sleep tight..

3. books and notebooks » reading and writing for short..pros : books are your first source of information while your notebooks allow you to take down notes not mentioned in your book but mentioned by your teacher..cons : really, books are never for book haters and those who hate to read or don't even know how to read!! while the notebooks can be really messy at times and sometimes money/paper wasters..

4. friends » colleagues.. peers.. barkada.. amigas.. you name them..pros : they can help you have a fun study time, share with you their passions that you like as well, and they can be your first source of information especially when you ditched a class only to find out from your peers that you have a really big exam the following day!! ;pcons : well.. they can still help you pass that big exam.. through cheating!! they can also keep you from studying and will keep on bugging you to shop with them..

so?? what can you simply tell about all these stuffs and that?? is school really fun or what?? do we have what it takes to go through all of this nonsense?? well.. if it were not for school, i wouldn't be able to write this thing right now. huh?? ok??

after all.. all of those nonsense f****** projects and assignments given to us by those d*** teachers are our foundation in landing a good job and having a better life. that's what i have to say about education.. no matter how we hate it, we can do nothing but to learn loving it.. get it??

well.. gotta go now.. got lots more errands to do.. and besides i'm your typical teenage responsible gal who simply loves responsibilities and work that's all worth it.. bye now!! hope you can reply as soon as possible..

film review... the minority report...

2004-06-12T11:24:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

last week i saw this futuristic film 'minority report' in our d.v.d and just about last month in h.b.o. starring the super handsome tom cruise and co-starring another super very handsome colin farrel.

i have always remembered this line from the film: when you dig up the past, all you'll ever get is dirty. right? a line that's quite believable to regard as a truth. well, imagine yourself digging the ground for the sake of the past. are you really digging up the past, that ground, just to get dirty? come on! definitely not! we humans like and love to dig up the underground past simply because of the treasure that lies beneath. the beautiful and mysterious treasure that will satisfy our curiosity. a treasure hid by someone simply because he or even she refuses that treasure to belong to some greedy unappreciated human.

but as i was saying, this movie is not all about the past. as i've said, it's futuristic and almost all about predeterminations and premonitions. here's a little summary for you to understand what i mean...

in a not so distant year, 2054, 90% of all forms of crime in washington d.c. has been finally prevented. thanks to the pro-cogs' (short for pre-cognitive thinkers) ability to dream of future murders and crimes. and, of course, none of this would be possible without the responsive service of the pre-crime unit, a special task force designed to arrest would-be criminals just in time before the whole crime is about to happen. columbia lived peacefully and doubtless about the fact that crime can be stopped with the help of pre-crime. but they were absolutely wrong. after six years of experiment, the pre-crime team is now ready to go national. but just about the right time and opportunity came for pre-crime's director, burgess, to become rich and let his team go national, comes danny witwear (colin farell) who was assigned to work and investigate in the pre-crime unit for some 'flaws' in their work. chief anderton (tom cruise), burgess' most trusted man in the team and, comes to the rescue in preventing witwear to do something that can harm pre-crime and its name. but as chief anderton was preventing witwear to do his job, he accidentally pass by some crime that has already been prevented only to find out that the crime itself happened when he dug up the past! just when he knew all about this crime, he has been set up to kill some leo crow, a person who has nothing to lose and claims that he killed anderton's only son, and now runs far away from witwear's team and from being captured by pre-crime. well, on the night of the announcement that pre-crime is about to go national, anderton's wife helped him uncover that past so that justice would reign.... and on the very place of the party, the truth was uncovered by agatha-- the most gifted of the three pre-cogs who keeps the truth to herself-- and everyone knew that burgess got away from murder and actually killed agatha's mother, anne lively, who wants nothing but her daughter to be back in their home and in her arms.

the ending? after that, since burgess know his future already (because of pre-crime), he just decided to kill himself instead of anderton, his trusted friend who uncovered the truth to all his audience, so that he won't actually bear the pain and agony of the uselessness of his designed pre-crime. cool huh?? hahahaha!!

well, well, well... the first time i actually understood and saw the plot of the whole story in h.b.o., i have been completely sure that this type of nonsense will never happen in the future, especially in the near future. right now, there are also a lot of gifted people out there who can actually predict the future but are still sitting in their homes, reading this journal of mine and just keep on predicting the future inside them. well, how can i ever tell that such things can never happen? it's not that i have some sort of e.s.p. or even the power to predict the future! it's simply because of my faith and belief in... *drumbeats* destiny! yes!! you read it right! destiny and future are the same and compliments each other in meaning but different in... uhm... spelling? jokes!! what i'm really trying to say is that the future or destiny of people can easily and completely change. because, you know, i believe in the saying that our destiny is within our hands. we humans are just human beings and therefore we can never tell that we are destined to be the way we are right now. just like me, i never really planned to be a writer like this and to write and write all i want. i am only destined to write this journal and to write a lot more journals simply because i loved writing ever since i have discovered my diary that i still keep up to this year and also because of my passion to write out all these feelings that i have inside. as you can see, i was destined to write what you are reading right now simply because i chose to write this here and not just keep it to myself.

other than that, there's also a part in the movie where they mentioned the title of their movie. the minority report is an important report that lies within the pre-cog agatha. this minority report is all about the future of the would-be criminals in case they changed their minds and decide not to commit a crime anymore.

see? i told you so. destiny is really within our hands. imagine: what if there was no pre-crime at all? surely there would still be lots of crime in columbia and wise criminals (those who have mastered the art of committing crime) will still have a chance to operate and their future will be different. on the other hand, if pre-crime operated, their future will surely change, as well as the future of the people around them.

again, just like me, my future could have changed if i was accepted in the school of my choice. i wouldn't be in my school right now, f****** up and learning lots of things. i wouldn't be here right now, finishing my letter to you and above all, i would change the whole future of the friends around me: maybe my best friend right now will have a different type of friends around her and maybe i could have never met some extraordinary lovable gals that i now cherish as my closest friends.

on the other hand, i could have met more friends that shares the same things as i like and maybe i can become popular and have higher grades than expected. but since such things never happened, i might as well forget it all and go on with my life and cherish whatever GOD has given me right now. isn't it?

the truth is as you can see, we humans are also the ones that make this colorful world of ours go round. just imagine what our world could have been if GOD forgot to create us human beings? if ever adam and eve was never created, surely i wouldn't also be here right now writing this. and besides, it won't be our destiny unless we chose and believe it to be. get it?

well, that's all i got to say now. have to leave now. i got some more errands to do now and i still have to straighten my future before its too late. let me tell you the lesson that i learned about the present, past and future. i always remember the saying that the past is the foundation of our present and the present in turn is the foundation of our future. so if you planted a seed underground yesterday, it will surely become a tree today and tomorrow, it will bear lots of fruits!

thanks for reading! hope you will reply always. bye now!

birthday party!!! :-D

2004-06-12T01:10:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

i actually wrote this letter to you guys in the middle of the night. as usual, i can't get again myself to sleep tight. another insomnia nights of mine. so, to get all my thoughts out of my head, all i can and gotta do is to write them down, like right now!

it's 12 midnight right now in my clock so i might say that today is another new day for me and for all. but let me first review the day i had and reflect on my journey yesterday.

as i have said yesterday, there's a little birthday party that happened right here in our house which includes my whole family, the birthday girl (which is my cousin) and two friends of hers. yesterday my letter to you was in a rush and i just hurried up my writing to you. but still, at least i got the time and effort to tell you something about my moods, opinions and stories.

so, by 3pm yesterday, mom called me already so that i can help her in cooking and preparing the usual party foods: spaghetti and hotdog. mom also bought 3 whole chicken, the roasted ones, so that she won't be too tired at the end of the day. as for you know, mom is a little too old now. and besides yesterday, we got lots of errands to do. one of them is ironing lots of clothes since all our laundry has been piling up because our iron lady who's also a little too old than my mom was absent for one whole week another thing is for my mom to fix and classify these ironed clothes so that no more work would pile up more.

after helping in the kitchen and continuing my blogging, mom called me again for another help. good thing as i read blogs, i was 'working offline' and not wasting much money on internet connections at all! when mom called me again, i went downstairs, straight to the kitchen and i was assigned her assistant. my first assignment as her assistant was to wash the dishes and let them dry instantly. i naturally thought that i'd be working with some foods. but i was completely wrong. you just don't know guys how much i love to eat.. especially sweets and native and chinese foods!! yummy... ;-p

anyway, after that i went back to checking out some cool blogs. i just thought my job as an assistant was completely over. but then again, mom asked me to entertain our guests, oh! i mean the birthday girl's two guests. good thing those kids left early to play some more outside because it's only 4pm, too early to start a dinner party!

i went upstairs and finished my blogging. i printed 20 pages of a few blogs of my tFriends! oh my! i really got here lots of friends and they really are creative!

after that, i did my usual afternoon chores which was to clean up the laundry, if there's any, and water the plants as my father ordered me to. most people say that planting is a good way to relax and it's a relaxing job to do. but i just doubt it because of the stinking smell of the soil and plants! add up to that those pesky bees! arrrggghhh!!

by night, i was left all alone in our house and there in our sofa i started reading the blogs that i just printed. i was so bored and tired of sitting there that i started practicing my pilates-- a very relaxing exercise that i love.

anyway, i guess i'm getting tired now somehow. gotta go now guys. hope i get to wake up early later to send this letter to you in time. bye now!!

wierd things in my life

2004-06-11T14:08:00.000+08:00

dear diary...

when i woke up today, i felt weird and at the same time inspired. and why is that? simply because i just had the weirdest dream i had last night. well the dream consists of me and my 2nd year high school classmates, and we were all in a very weird classroom also. we were doing stuffs that right now i can't remember. the only stuff that i remember till now is that one of my girl classmate peeled the onion skins using her teeth! now is that weird or what?

anyway, today is the birthday of my younger cousin whom i love to tease. well i don't know why i love her to tease and pinch her fat black cheeks. all i know is that it's her birthday today and i'm pretty sure that there will be lots of changes that will happen in her life. other than that, i also know for a fact that she's also having her small dinner party here in our very own house which consists our family and a few of her friends. well, we here in the house has still lots of time to prepare for the afternoon/dinner party. actually, my mom just arrived with the big chocolate cake in her hand with only one candle. surely that bakery is a little short on the budget that he/she gave only one candle so that there will still be left for the other orders. ha!

today also, my pretty sister is coming home from her dormitory. since she left our home, this place really became quite, peaceful and... boring! she's sort of the joker and the most one who 'breaks the silence' that's why since she left, there has been no more jokes and 'breaking of silence'... well except for my real funny jokes that i crack when everyone's serious! haha!

i can still remember my sister just this monday when she left our home for her dormitory to study. as you can see, she's completely homesick!! haha!! but its not funny at all. you see she's been crying since she got there and mom left her. then tuesday to our surprise, she came back home!! but as usual, our parents will never let her emotions ruin her studies so they sent her back in her dormitory by wednesday. by that time, it's already regular college class day, so she's packed with lots of things to do. and because she's busy enough to think of home and her emotions, she stayed there in her school and her dormitory and continued to study... so that when she comes back home, we'd all be happy!! bravo!!

since that day, when i learned about all this 'homesick' thing/feeling, i just concluded that it's all part of her new life as a college student and living away from home. everyday today, mom calls my sister to check up on her and to be sure that she's fine and out of trouble. when i think of it, i just think that homesick is just an emotion, some kind of worry, that you can feel when you're already far away from the people you love and loves you. but once you are already busy and got lots of things to accomplish, then you will forget all about that emotions of yours. come on!! never let your emotions ruin and take over you. just keep in mind that this is the test of your strength, whether you deserve to be where you are right now or not.

hmmmm... got nothing more to tell you. mom is calling me right now downstairs. hope to catch up on you. thanks for reading and spending some time with me anyway. bye now!! :D

lots of love...
labz17...Ü

dreams are real.. all you have to do is just belive!!

2004-06-04T19:07:00.000+08:00

dreams do come true...

dreams are real all you have to do is just believe...
yes! the old saying has always been true! dream big, believe it and you'll get it! but how is that ever gonna happen? guess again! the secret lies within you. have you ever thought that if einstein never believed that he can make something out of the simple things around him, do you really think that we could stay awake at night even though its dark and cold simply because of the lack of light during the night? get it? in short, what I really meant to say is that if newton never believed in gravity or his knowledge or faith about the earth was kept all to himself, maybe, just maybe, somebody else could have been popular if that person discovered the same belief as newton's. wouldn't you love to be that somebody who's popular and known, as if you're a hero, just because of a simple belief or faith in your dream? definitely!

once in your life, you may experience those feelings that you're hopeless about your dream coming true, like dating the 'campus crush ng bayan' or simply acing that math exam with flying colors. ok fine! not only once, but most often than not! do you really know what's lacking that's why you endlessly fail to achieve your dream? the lack of faith in your dream. as in: "yeah! duh! you're right!". you lack that faith or belief that you can really perfect that chemistry exam of yours, honey! of course! your teacher is also human too! if you, as a student, has a hard time answering her questions, your teacher too, as a teacher, has also a hard time making up questions for your exam! no kidding! promise! and besides, you already know the answers to her questions as long as you've come across it like for example you have read it somewhere or you might have heard the word before. you see? that's why never underestimate those beautiful eyes that you have and you two cute, listening ears! still remember that lesson about the difference between hearing and listening? if you really listened in that discussion, not just heard and took endless notes, you no longer need to review that lesson anymore! it already there, stuck in your mind, used almost everyday in your everyday conversations.

but really, there's more to that lesson about believing in your dreams. you can also say that you're completely obsessed with your dream but still nothing happens. well... if you're just gonna be obsessed with believing in your dream, your dream is only a mere wish -- or worse, a big illusion. wake up honey! do you really think you can learn to play the piano if all your life you haven't seen or even touched a piano? isn't it? be realistic honey! come on! all you need is to do what you're dreaming about! get it? if not, let's make it simple that can be easily processed by our minds by giving an example. let's just use again the aforementioned example about perfecting that chemistry exam. so, two days before the big day, you already have complete faith in your dream. that's nice. question is: have you studied already? or did you even simply review your notes and books? didn't you tell me that if i listened attentively to that discussion of ours, it's already stored in our mind, you might say? but isn't it also normal that people tend to easily forget and not all information that is received and stored in our brain used and not often remembered? just like a bank account, if you don't touch it or thought of it for several months or years, it's considered frozen, meaning it's useless and, worse, the money in that account might become the bank's property.

of course if you have faith in your dream, you should also have faith that you can do something for your dream to come true! isn't it? it's like a formula that goes like this: dream + faith + deed = success!

well, i have to admit, sometimes this formula doesn't completely work for all, all the time. sometimes it might go wrong or even worse, we're not satisfied with the results we created. and how's that? that's simply because of three factors:

unsure dream, misunderstanding of faith, and self-doubt. if you experience any of these factors, you better beware because you're not headed for success but the other way! so let's take a peek on each factors of failure...unsure dream » in short, the doubt about how much satisfaction this dream may give you in return. it only means that you're unsure if that dream will really make you happy, if it's really worth the risk, and if it will really change your life for the better, the only sure way to avoid this is to list all the dreams you think you wanna accomplish and cross out all those 'unsure dreams'.

misunderstanding of faith » the words i used already speaks for itself. remember always, obsession is very different from faith, so be careful! if you don't want this, you'll be needing help from people who also believe in you to build up your confidence and faith.

self-doubt » lastly! the worst enemy for success that causes peer pressure and weakness. to change self-doubt, you must have self-confidence, and to have that -- again-- you'll be needing those precious support from people who believe in you. other than that, you should also -- of course!-- believe in yourself honey! after all, who will you turn to when everybody's gone? right! yourself!

well, i guess that's it! just always remember to write your dreams because: a dream or goal not written in only a wish! that's it! hope you enjoyed and learned a thing or two! bye now!

dream.. believe.. survive.. succeed!! Ü